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RetuRning tides

by

RADCLY f FE

2009

RetuRning tides

© 2009 By Radclyffe. all Rights ReseRved.

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Writing about a beloved place is an unparalleled pleasure. The characters in this series never live and breathe for me more than they do when I am actually in Provincetown, walking the narrow streets, catching glimpses of sailboats in the harbor, and feeling the hot sun reflected off the sweeping dunes. I am ever so grateful to all the readers who give me a reason to continue to write these stories. Deepest thanks.

Thanks also to first readers Connie, Eva, Jenny, Paula, and Tina; to editors Ruth Sternglantz and Stacia Seaman and the proofreaders who work so tirelessly making me look good; to artist Barb Kiwak for translating my half-described vision into the perfect cover painting; and to Sheri for a brilliant cover design. Deepest gratitude.

And to Lee, for always being the final destination. Amo te.

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Dedication

For Lee

On Every Shore

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The two figures on the deck were easily visible by the light of the three-quarter moon. From his spot on the deserted, storm-ravaged beach, he could make out the way their arms entwined and their mouths met in a long, passionate kiss. He watched her press herself against the other woman, pretending she was excited. Pretending she could be satisfied by someone like that. He knew better. He knew who she really wanted, what she really needed. He imagined her rubbing her hard-nippled breasts against him with the same abandon, her pelvis rocking on him, inviting him to fuck her. He heard her moans and whimpers, felt his cock gliding through hot swollen flesh. He heard her panting, begging, crying out for release. He smelled her excitement, tasted her arousal in the back of his throat. His cock twitched at the thought of her tightening around him as she came. Begging him to fuck her the way she needed to be fucked. Screaming when she came.

Screaming for him.

With shaking hands, he raised the Rigel 2500 night binocs. The images came into focus, so large and so clear he might have been standing on the deck with them. He could make out her eyelids fluttering as the interloper kissed her and fondled her breasts, long fingers plucking at her nipples through her partly open robe. Her face contorted with pleasure and she let her head fall back, offering her throat—a sacrifice to the unworthy. Her mouth opened in a silent sigh as the other woman kissed her neck and slid a hand inside her robe to cup her breast. Her lids lifted, her expression languid and ripe as she flattened her palms against the other woman’s chest and pushed her away, laughing. She

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tilted her head toward the glass doors behind them. He knew what she was saying. Saying to him.

Take me to bed. I want you to fuck me. I want you to make me scream. Make me scream. Make me scream.

“I will, soon,” he muttered as she disappeared inside and closed the blinds. His head pounded with a mixture of rage and resentment, the pain a muted echo of the insistent throbbing of the erection that strained against his pants. He gripped himself and squeezed so hard tears blurred his vision. “I’ll give you just what you deserve. I promise.”

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chapteR One

At the sound of a knock on her office door just after nine a.m.

on a crisp, sunny September morning, Acting Sheriff Reese Conlon happily shoved aside a pile of paperwork. In the past six months she’d gone from commanding Marines on the ground in Iraq to manning a chair for twelve hours a day. Even the recent hurricane had only given her an excuse to leave the office during the height of the catastrophe—

she’d been back behind her desk coordinating the cleanup efforts ever since. The transition back to civilian life after having been deployed in wartime was harder than leaving active duty the first time, five years ago. Right about now, almost any interruption was welcome.

“Come in,” Reese said, easing her nearly six-foot frame back in the swivel chair.

The door opened and Carter Wayne, an ex-cop turned small-town attorney, walked in. She wasn’t wearing the designer suit Reese had seen her in a few days before at Provincetown City Hall. Today she was dressed in faded blue jeans, an open-collared, rust-colored silk shirt, and brown boots the same color as her dark chestnut hair. A wide belt with a flat silver buckle circled her sleekly muscled waist. Hazel eyes met Reese’s across the desk.

“Sheriff.”

“Carter,” Reese said, waving to one of the two wooden fold-up chairs in front of her desk. “Have a seat.” When Carter sat down, Reese pushed back from the desk and crossed one ankle over her knee. “What can I do for you?”

“How about a job?”

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“Lawyering starting to wear on you, huh?”

Carter smiled. “I seem to recall you’ve been there yourself. Didn’t you do a stint as a JAG in the Corps?”

“A short one. I still can’t quite remember what made me think I’d rather practice law than drag drunk recruits back to base on a Saturday night,” Reese said with a shake of her head. “Of course, military policing is different than civilian law enforcement. An MP has a fair amount of leeway to interpret the rules and regs. We go by the book here, even when it’s less expedient.”

Reese watched Carter’s eyes as she spoke, but didn’t expect to see anything in them. Carter Wayne was an experienced undercover state police officer, at least she had been until her involvement with the daughter of a reputed mob boss cost Carter her career. Carter had come close to abandoning her duty while undercover investigating Boston crime boss Alfonse Pareto. She’d fallen in love with Pareto’s daughter, Rica Grechi, and run afoul of the FBI. Reese understood risking everything for the woman she loved. There was nothing she wouldn’t do, nothing she wouldn’t sacrifice, to protect Tory or their daughter. But she couldn’t have an officer serve under her who she couldn’t trust.

“I served twelve years, five of them undercover. If I told you I never bent the rules, you wouldn’t believe me,” Carter said, meeting Reese’s deep blue eyes squarely. She’d expected Conlon to lay her past on the line. Carter had spent her entire life working with men and women who believed that the distinction between right and wrong was clear, and who were willing to risk their lives in the name of justice.

She’d been one of them, although the years she’d spent undercover working drug and organized crime cases had dulled the blacks and whites to shades of gray more and more often recently. She’d never met anyone with a stronger code of ethics or greater sense of duty and responsibility than Reese Conlon. She half expected Reese to tell her she didn’t measure up, and maybe by Reese’s standards, she didn’t. But she’d been a good cop, was a good cop. “You can trust me to hold the line. You have my word.”

“What I want,” Reese said, “is your promise that if anything comes up that might make you choose between honoring the badge and protecting your family, you tell me.”

Carter stiffened. “Rica has nothing to do with this.”

“Rica has everything to do with it. We both know who she is, and

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just because her father’s kept a low profile and stayed out of her life for the past six months doesn’t mean he’s going to continue.”

“I won’t let him drag her back into his world,” Carter said. “And I won’t let him contaminate this one.”

“And if he tries?”

Carter set her jaw, knowing the answer would determine Reese’s decision. “If Rica were physically threatened, I’d do anything I had to do to protect her. Short of that, I’d deal with problems through channels.”

“Meaning advise me,” Reese said flatly.

“Right.” Carter sat forward. “Look, we live here. This is our community too. I want to do my part, and that isn’t filing paperwork for a living.”

“Tell me about it.” Reese looked at her desk and winced. Carter laughed. “The hurricane has chewed this place up, and we’ve got more work than we can handle, and will have for half a year or more. I can use you.”

Carter let out a breath. “Good. I’m ready to work.”

Reese nodded. “There’s a bunch of paperwork—in your case, all of it a formality. Fill it out, and I’ll push it through.” She riffled through a stack of papers and pulled out the duty roster, giving it a quick look. “You’ll have the midnight-to-eight shift for the rest of the week. Starting tonight.”

“Riding graveyard.” Carter grinned ruefully. “Always great to be the rookie.”

“We both know you’re not, but—”

Carter held up a hand. “Hey, I get it. I’m the new kid on the block.

I don’t have a problem with that.”

Reese stood and extended her hand across the desk. “Then welcome aboard, Officer Wayne.”

Once Carter left to fill out the necessary forms in the front office, Reese went back to sorting through the incident reports from the previous shift, most of which were the ordinary run-of-the-mill occurrences common in any community—traffic accidents, drunk and disorderlies, assault and batteries, domestic complaints, thefts. The bulk of the work facing her department resulted from the hurricane that had devastated the entire Cape a week before. In its wake, the storm had left washed-out roads, untold property damage, injured and displaced civilians, and dozens of reports of thefts and suspicious fires, all of which needed to

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be investigated. Most of the Provincetown residents who had evacuated were just trickling back into town. As the community repopulated, Reese expected to receive more reports of vandalism and theft.

She rubbed her eyes, her headache firmly in place even though it was only midmorning. She hadn’t slept much in the ten days leading up to and following the storm, and although she was resting better than she had been immediately after her return from Iraq, she was still dreaming.

Still remembering. When she felt the edges of her consciousness start to darken and a tightness settle in her chest, she reached for the phone.

“East End Health Clinic,” a melodious male voice answered.

“Is she free?” Reese asked.

“Is she ever?” Randy, the clinic’s receptionist, responded with a dramatic sigh.

“Two minutes.”

“I’ll be timing you.”

Reese listened to the silence for a few seconds, and then the voice she’d been waiting to hear came on the line.

“Hello, darling,” Dr. Tory King said. “This is a nice surprise.”

“How’s your day going?” Reese asked.

“The town may still be half empty, but we’ve got a full schedule.

How about you?”

“I’m drowning in paper.” Tory laughed, and Reese pictured her leaning against the front of her desk, the phone tucked between her shoulder and her ear, signing off on charts while they talked. She’d be wearing pressed jeans and a cotton shirt under her white lab coat.

Her wavy, shoulder-length auburn hair would be loose, her sparkling eyes shifting between blue and green with her mood. Listening to her, remembering waking up beside her that morning, Reese’s disquiet along with the band of tension around her chest eased. She took a deep breath and let it out, feeling the memories of death and horror slide away.

“What else is going on?” Tory asked gently.

“I just hired Carter Wayne.”

“Good. You can use the help, and Carter is a pro.”

“Agreed. Did you hear from Kate? Are they on their way back?”

Reese was thankful for more reasons than she could count that she’d reconnected with her mother after years of estrangement, and that they lived in the same town now. Kate and her partner Jean were not only

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family and wonderful friends, they provided childcare for Reese and Tory’s one-year-old daughter Reggie.

“Apparently the extended family isn’t done spoiling Reggie quite yet. They’re leaving tomorrow and will be back midday.”

“Good. I miss her,” Reese said. “Do you think she misses us?”

“I think she would, if she weren’t with Kate and Jean. But she spends as much time with them as she does with us, so she feels safe and secure. I’m certain she’ll be very glad to see us.”

“Same here. Well, I should let you go, I promised Randy—”

“Are you okay?”

Reese sighed, embarrassed that she had disrupted Tory’s always busy schedule because she couldn’t deal with her own ghosts. “Am I that obvious?”

“Not at all, sweetheart. But you don’t usually call me in the middle of the day.”

“I’m okay. I just needed to hear your voice.” And she knew if she shut Tory out the way she had done right after she’d returned, they’d both suffer. She’d promised she would try to reach out when she needed help, even though it went against her every instinct.

“I love you,” Tory said. “I’m done at seven. Dinner?”

“I’ll give it my best shot.”

Tory chuckled. “You’re an expert marksman, Reese. I consider that a sure thing.”

v

“So what do you think that’s all about?” Officer Allie Tremont whispered to her partner, Bri Parker.

“Huh?”

Allie was struck again how much Bri looked like a younger, slimmer version of Reese—thick, coal black hair cut long in the front and short around the ears, indigo eyes, and a break-your-heart smile.

Aware that Bri was staring at her with a confused expression, Allie tilted her head slightly and Bri followed her gaze. “Check it out.”

Carter Wayne leaned against the waist-high counter that separated the work area, where Bri’s desk and three others were pushed together, from the real heart of the department—the communications center

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presided over for the past twenty-five years by Gladys Martin, a civilian aide. Gladys screened incoming calls, relayed dispatch orders and information, and pretty much controlled everything else that kept the department running smoothly. Carter, a dozen years older and thirty pounds of muscle heavier than Bri, looked relaxed and casually self-confident as she rested an elbow on the counter and filled out forms. Bri knew as much of her story as anyone, but she didn’t really know her.

Carter was a lot like Reese—a seasoned cop, about the same age, and they’d both reached the top by being tough, and by being the best. Carter was Reese’s equal in a way that Bri hoped to be one day. Secretly, she was a little bit jealous of Carter, even though she knew that was crazy.

She couldn’t help the way she felt.

“It looks to me like she’s coming on board,” Bri said tightly.

“Yeah,” Allie said contemplatively, her soft Southern accent becoming more accentuated. “That’s how I read it too. So, you think she’ll end up partnering with one of us?”

Bri stiffened. “Why? You and I are partners. Reese won’t split us up.”

“I don’t know. We’re still the rookies, even if we have been doing this for a year. And Carter—well, Carter’s gonna have rank on us.”

“I guess it would be up to Reese.” Bri stood abruptly. “Come on, let’s get out of here. Take a tour around town.”

“Hey, fine by me. I’ll tell Gladys.”

Bri watched Allie saunter over to the counter, knowing without being able to see her face that she would be cruising Carter. Allie cruised every woman, gay, straight, single, or married. With Allie’s statuesque physique, her wavy mahogany hair, and her deep dark soulful eyes that promised fantasies come true, Allie generally got cruised back. Bri had only ever been in love with one girl, but for a few crazy weeks a year or so ago when her head was all turned around, she’d almost given in to Allie’s charms. That was behind them now, and she and Allie were partners at work and tight friends. She was probably one of the only people who really knew that Allie was a lot more than just a beautiful flirt. Allie was both beautiful and a flirt, that was for sure, but she was also loyal and tender and, underneath her bad girl image, lonely.

Carter looked up when Allie approached, smiled and said a few words Bri couldn’t hear, and then went back to her paperwork. From

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where Bri was standing, Carter seemed to be immune to Allie’s charms.

But then, Carter was rock-solid married. Like Reese. Like her.

“All set,” Allie said when she returned to collect her gun from her desk drawer.

“Learn anything?” Bri settled her hat low over her brows and slid her weapon into her holster. She held the door open for Allie as they walked out the side door into the small parking lot.

“Nope,” Allie said, passing Bri and starting down the stairs.

Bri was right on her heels and when Allie abruptly stopped on the last step, she plowed into her and almost bowled her over. “What the fuck, Al.”

“What the fuck is right!” Allie sounded both shocked and angry.

“Uh-oh,” Bri muttered, finally noticing the redhead standing on the blacktop path ten feet in front of them, her face set and her eyes riveted on Allie. Bri hadn’t seen Ashley Walker for the better part of a year, not since Allie and Ash had split up. Ash looked thinner than she remembered, the lines around her eyes a little deeper, her body pared down to tight muscle and bone. She’d cut her thick, slightly curly crimson hair to just above her collar, and the sleeker look accentuated the tight planes of her cheekbones and jaw. Ash’s blue eyes flickered over Allie’s body and then resettled on her face.

“Hello, Allie. Bri,” Ash said in a low, throaty alto.

“Walker,” Allie said coldly. “What are you doing here?”

“Working a couple of dozen cases down this end of the Cape.”

Ash slid her hands into the pockets of her khakis and swallowed around the dry, hard knot in her throat. She had known this first meeting would be tough, and she’d thought she was prepared for it, but she’d been wrong. She’d underestimated just how hard it would be to see the anger in Allie’s eyes and hear the loathing in her voice. In the eight months since she’d seen her, Allie had changed. She’d cut her long, dark hair to collar length, but that wasn’t it. She’d lost the sheen of innocence that had shimmered beneath the sexual allure that was as natural to Allie as breathing. She was still beautiful, even more so now because of the edge in the sculpted planes of her face, but she also seemed remote, untouchable. And that was right, wasn’t it. Ash had been the one to walk away.

“That doesn’t answer my question,” Allie snapped.

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“Courtesy call.” Ash tried not to wince when Allie snorted rudely.

“I’ll just head in to see Nelson.”

“My dad’s out on indefinite sick leave,” Bri said. “Reese is chief now.”

“Oh, damn, I’m sorry,” Ash said. “Is Nelson okay?”

“He’s doing better.” Bri’s mouth thinned. “He had heart surgery about a month or so ago.”

“I’m sorry to hear that. I didn’t know.”

Allie strode down the path directly toward Ash, forcing Ash to sidestep hurriedly or risk getting knocked on her ass.

“Why should you know?” Allie said as she passed, a slight hint of DKNY’s Be Delicious trailing in her wake. “You’re not part of anything around here.”

“Tell Nelson I said hello,” Ash said quietly as Bri hurried after Allie.

“Sure. Thanks,” Bri mumbled.

Ash heard a car door slam, then another, and forced herself not to turn around and watch Allie drive away. She’d already seen her walking out of her life every day for the last eight months, and she heard what Allie didn’t say. You’re not welcome around here.

v

“I can’t believe she just showed up like that. Like she could just walk right in,” Allie fumed.

Bri wheeled the cruiser out onto Shank Painter Road and headed toward Bradford, carefully keeping her eyes on the road although she could have driven it blindfolded. Allie sounded mad, but underneath the mad was a little bit of quaver that sounded like tears. Tears just ripped Bri up. “She said she was here on business.”

“Of course she is. When isn’t she?” Allie folded her arms across her chest. “That’s the only thing that matters to her.”

“She definitely screwed up when she—” Bri caught herself just before she said dumped you. Allie was usually the one breaking hearts, and she’d taken it hard when Ashley Walker had called things off between them. Like a good friend, she said, “She didn’t know how lucky she was.”

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“Old news,” Allie said dismissively. “Ancient history. Hell, I would’ve been out of there in a few more weeks anyhow.” She stretched her legs beneath the dash and tilted her head back, staring at the ceiling of the cruiser. “I like variety. I’m not like you and Reese, Parker.”

Bri glanced over at her. “How’s that?”

“Pussy-whipped. Not my style.”

“Jesus,” Bri choked out. “You better not let Reese hear you say that.”

“I didn’t hear you denying it, though.” Allie tilted her head toward Bri and grinned. “Of course, you probably don’t have all that much imagination, seeing as you’ve been sleeping with the same girl for what—six years? God.”

“Don’t go there,” Bri said good-naturedly. Allie never passed up the opportunity to tease her about the fact that she’d only ever slept with one girl. She and Caroline Clark had been together since they were sixteen, and she knew she would never ever get tired of Carre’s kisses, or the sexy glint she got in her eyes when she woke Bri up in the morning wanting sex, or the way she cuddled in Bri’s arms after she came, sighing with contentment. Carre filled Bri’s heart with wonder.

She made sense out of a crazy world. She was the one.

“Don’t worry. I’m not going to pick on the afflicted.” Allie poked Bri’s arm. “Swing by the rescue squad station.”

“Why?”

“No reason. Just a friendly visit,” Allie said nonchalantly.

“Uh-huh. No reason like the new EMT in town? What’s her name?”

“Flynn.”

“So what’s her story?”

“Dunno.” Allie grinned at Bri. “Yet. She only got here a couple of days before the hurricane hit, and then we were all so busy with the casualties I barely had a chance to say hello. She did say we should drop by sometime, so I just thought it was time we got properly introduced.”

“Sure.” Bri headed over to Conwell. They worked frequently with all of the emergency personnel in town, and it wasn’t a bad idea to touch base with the new EMT, but she doubted that was the only reason Allie wanted to see the good-looking blonde. “Good idea.”

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“Thanks.” Allie appreciated Bri not giving her a hard time just then. She wanted to flirt with a woman, laugh with a woman, feel the heat of a woman’s appreciative gaze on her skin. She wanted to not think about what Ashley Walker was doing in town. Or how long she would stay.

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chapteR twO

You’ve got another visitor, Sheriff,” Gladys said when Reese picked up the phone. “Mighty popular today.”

“Anyone I want to see?”

“Oh, I think so. It’s Ashley Walker.”

“Send her in.” Reese walked around her desk and extended a hand as Ash tapped on the door, pushed it open, and entered. Reese liked the insurance investigator. They’d worked together before, had drawn fire together, and Ash had handled herself well. “Good to see you.”

“Same here,” Ash said. “Sorry it has to be under these circumstances. Route Six looked like a war zone driving in. You hit hard?”

“Hard enough.” Reese sat in one of the wooden chairs and motioned Ash to the other. The hurricane that had trekked up the coast and savaged the Cape was the kind of natural disaster that occurred every few decades, and they’d had precious little warning. Their emergency response system had worked, and they’d managed to evacuate most of the visitors and many of the residents before the worst of the wind and surge had flooded the roads and most of the town of three thousand residents. In the week since the storm had blown out to sea, every law enforcement agent, volunteer firefighter, rescue worker, and public servant had worked eighteen-hour-days on the recovery effort. “Three casualties—one MI, one vehicular fatality, and one drowning. All storm related, but considering the amount of property damage we’ve got, it could’ve been a lot worse.”

“What’s the situation in town?”

“We’ve managed to restore most basic functions—pretty much the whole town has electricity again,” Reese said. “We’ve got problems

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with sewage containment—a public health consultant is coming in tomorrow to test our water and liaise with our public works department.

I imagine you’re here about the property damage?”

“Property and personal losses,” Ash said wearily. “Mostly corporate claims, though.”

Reese noted the dark circles beneath the remnants of Ash’s summer tan. “You look like you’re running on fumes.”

Ash grinned ruefully and flicked a crimson strand off her cheek, automatically raking a hand through her hair. “My biggest client happens to insure ninety percent of the businesses on the Cape, which means we’ve got claims pouring in by the hour as people return and start assessing the damage.”

“I imagine along with the legitimate claims you’ll get some bogus ones too.”

“That’s pretty much my specialty these days—insurance fraud. My job is to screen the claims on-site and hand off the straightforward ones to under-agents. Anything that looks questionable…” Ash shrugged.

These days insurance fraud often involved organized crime networks, since purchasing real estate was a popular way to launder money. So was destroying property and picking up the clean insurance payouts. “I get to dig around until I’m satisfied that the claim is valid.”

“What do you need from me?”

“I’d appreciate it if I could have a look at your incident reports to cross-reference with my claims.”

Reese pulled a pad off her desk and made a note. “Done.”

“And it would be helpful if you let your officers know that I’ll be poking around pretty much everywhere in town for the next few weeks.”

“Poking around.” Reese raised an eyebrow. “We had quite a few fires, at least one major. The fire marshal hasn’t even cleared half the damaged buildings yet. The town engineer has a list as long as his arm of public structures and businesses to be assessed for structural damage.

I don’t want a building coming down on your head.”

“I’ve got a pretty good eye for structural integrity,” Ash said mildly, not bothering to mention she’d been an arson investigator with the Massachusetts State Police before going private. Reese knew her creds.

“I know you can handle yourself, but while you’re in my town,

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you’re my responsibility.” Reese tapped her pen on the pad. “I’ll need a list of properties you intend to inspect and your schedule.”

“I don’t mind giving you the addresses of the claims, but my schedule changes constantly, depending on what I find.” Ash shook her head. “There’s no way I can provide you with any kind of itinerary.”

“Then I’ll need you to check in regularly.”

“Reese,” Ash protested, “I know what I’m doing.”

“Don’t doubt it.” Reese spread her hands and said calmly, “The town is a mess, Ash. Parts of the West End aren’t even habitable yet.

Hell, even some of the big places up on Pilgrim Heights got hit. I don’t want any more casualties, and I don’t think you should be working alone.

I’ll have one of my officers accompany you as much as possible.”

Ash’s face lost all expression. “That’s not necessary.”

“There you go, trying to tell me how to do my job again.” Reese stood. “You’ve worked with my people before. We won’t get in your way.”

“I don’t suppose I can change your mind?” Ash said, getting to her feet.

Reese knew Ash didn’t expect an answer to her question. “Where are you staying?”

“At the Crown Inn.”

“Leave your cell number with Gladys. I’ll have one of our officers contact you later this morning.”

“Thanks, Sheriff.”

“Be careful, Ash.”

“Not to worry,” Ash called over her shoulder as she left. “Careful.

That’s my middle name.”

v

Rica Grechi finished taping up the padded wrapper on a small oil painting and smiled as she handed it across the counter to a customer.

“This is a wonderful gift. I’m sure your sister will love it.”

“Thank you so much,” the middle-aged woman said. “I was so worried I wouldn’t be able to get here, what with all the mess out on the roads.”

“I really appreciate you braving the chaos to come in.”

“Oh, it was worth it. I just love your gallery.” The customer

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gathered up the painting along with a voluminous purse and several other packages. “I’ll be sure to tell all my friends to stop by—as soon as things get back to normal. Whenever that is!”

“Thank you,” Rica called.

The bell over the door chimed just as the woman reached it, and Rica prepared to welcome another customer. Then her pleasant anticipation changed to a quick thrum of excitement when she recognized Carter holding the door open for the customer to exit. She hurried around the counter just as Carter shut the door, and flipped the store sign to Closed.

“Come on in the back,” Rica said, grasping Carter’s hand and pulling her through the gallery.

“Glad to see me?” Carter inquired with a suggestive chuckle.

“Nope. Had enough of you last night.” Rica smiled to herself, remembering how hungry she’d been for Carter and just how many delicious ways Carter had made her come. When they reached her office, out of sight of the front windows and the people walking by on Commercial Street, Rica threaded her arms around Carter’s neck and kissed her. Carter made a low, growling sound in her throat and tugged Rica’s silk shirt free of her pants.

“We’ll see about that,” Carter muttered.

“Not so fast, stud,” Rica said, bracing her arm on Carter’s chest.

Carter’s eyes had already taken on that intense focus that signaled she was aroused, and as much as Rica loved to know that she could put that look in her lover’s eyes in under a minute, she didn’t want to get distracted. Well, she did, but not just yet.

“After a greeting like that, you’re going to put the brakes on?”

Carter tugged Rica closer and caught Rica’s earlobe between her teeth.

She nipped and grumbled, “Tease.”

“Mmm, like you mind.” Rica kept her arms around Carter’s neck, but leaned back in her embrace, preventing Carter from enticing her into more kisses. Kissing Carter was an addiction she had no desire to control, and once she started, she wasn’t likely to stop. “I didn’t expect to see you so soon. That was just a little hello kiss.”

Carter contented herself with running her hands up and down Rica’s slender back. Rica had left her long, wavy midnight hair down, and it flowed around her pale, oval face like a frame on a classic painting. Rica’s ebony, almond-shaped eyes glowed with happiness and

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excitement, and that was all Carter needed to see for her world to feel complete. She kissed Rica’s forehead. “Tell me your news.”

Rica tilted her head, studying Carter with a playful expression.

“What makes you think there’s news?”

“It’s written all over your face.” Carter skimmed her thumb over the faint dent in Rica’s chin. “Give.”

“I’ve just landed a new client—Gillian Fitzgerald.”

“The expressionist?” Carter whistled. “She’s hot right now, isn’t she?”

“The New York Times is calling her one of the most exciting avantgarde painters of the last half-century. And she’s agreed to let me open her new works here, before we move them to Manhattan.”

“You’ll need to spend some time in the city, then,” Carter said casually. She didn’t like the idea of Rica moving back into the kind of circles where she would be vulnerable to her father’s or his associates’

influence. Don Alfonse Pareto had been suspiciously absent from Rica’s life in the last six months, but Carter didn’t believe the reprieve was permanent. Rica was the don’s only child, and Pareto had made it well known that he expected to turn his business enterprises over to his daughter, or his daughter’s husband, when he retired. Just because Rica had informed her father that she had no interest in his business at the same time she’d told him she was a lesbian and in love with Carter, didn’t mean the don was on board with Rica’s program. But Pareto was Rica’s father, and she loved him, so Carter said nothing.

“I know what you’re thinking,” Rica said quietly.

“Do you?” Carter nuzzled Rica’s neck. “Then you’ll leave that sign on the front door and sneak out the back with me for an hour or two.”

Rica laughed and stroked Carter’s cheek. “Darling, you wouldn’t last an hour.” At Carter’s look of mock hurt, Rica kissed her lingeringly.

“You know I don’t mind. I love to make you lose control.”

“Rica,” Carter warned. “Don’t tease if you’re not going to finish.”

“I’m going to finish. Just not right now.” Rica grasped Carter’s hands and stepped back, keeping her fingers threaded through Carter’s.

“You’re worried about my father. He can’t force me to do anything I don’t want to do. My spending time at the gallery in Manhattan won’t make any difference. Try not to worry.”

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Carter nodded. “All right.”

“What happened when you talked to Reese?”

“I’ll be spending my nights in a patrol car again,” Carter said with a grin.

“Are you going to be all right with that?” Rica asked gently.

“Perfectly fine.” Carter kissed Rica on the nose. “Piece of cake.”

Rica searched Carter’s eyes for some sign of disappointment.

Carter had been a decorated officer in the Massachusetts State Police, but because of her association with Rica she’d been interrogated by the FBI, her professional integrity had been called into question, and some of her colleagues no longer trusted her. Carter insisted her decision to walk away from her career as an undercover detective had nothing to do with their relationship, but Rica wondered if Carter had been completely honest with herself. Rica had seen that Carter was bored with practicing law after just a few months even though she insisted otherwise, and her boredom wasn’t just because small-town law lacked challenges. Carter would have been dissatisfied in a big-city law office too. Carter was a cop, not a lawyer, but starting over again in a small provincial department had to be hard for her.

“Stop looking for something that isn’t there,” Carter said. “I’m okay with this. I’m grateful Conlon is willing to take me on.”

“Why wouldn’t she want you? Because of my father?” Rica asked angrily.

“Hell no. Baby, that’s not what I meant.” Carter drew Rica over to the love seat that was crammed, along with Rica’s desk and file cabinets, into the small back room Rica used as her business office at the gallery. Sitting, she tugged Rica down on her lap and wrapped her arms around her waist. She kissed the base of her throat. “You and your father have nothing to do with the trouble I got myself into. Conlon knows I played fast and loose with the feds and some of the guys on my team. She’s a straight-up, by-the-book commander. She won’t look the other way for anything.”

Rica threaded her fingers through Carter’s thick chestnut hair. She loved her strength. She loved her passion and her devotion. She hated to think of the sacrifices Carter had made for her, but she would not dishonor those sacrifices by seeming ungrateful. “I love you.”

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long time, I didn’t know who I was or what mattered. Now I do. I know who I am because of you, Rica.”

“You’re mine,” Rica whispered, holding her close.

v

“Adam seven,” Gladys’s voice intoned over the cruiser’s radio,

“you copy?”

“Adam seven, go ahead,” Allie answered.

“Reese wants you code thirteen.”

“Affirmative, Adam seven code thirteen.” Allie glanced at Bri, who met her eyes and shrugged. Reese wanted them back at the station.

Allie hooked the mic back on the dashboard. “Well, hell. There goes my chance to make a date for tonight.”

“You got all afternoon, and it won’t take you but a minute and a smile.”

Allie laughed. “You’re good for my ego, Parker. I’m not really worried about it. There’s always someone at the Vixen looking for company.”

“Uh-huh.” Bri made a U-turn in Michael Shay’s parking lot and headed back down Bradford toward the center of town. “Are you okay about Ash?” Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Allie’s hands clench into fists. She probably shouldn’t have said anything, but usually when Allie was this hot for a date, it was because she was hurting or there was something she wanted to forget, or both. “I mean, you didn’t know she was coming or anything, did y—”

“How would I know she was coming?” Allie shot back. “It’s not like we’ve been talking. I haven’t heard from her in months. We both moved on, remember? And I’m not one of those dykes who likes to play best friends with all of her exes.”

“You’re friends with Deo,” Bri pointed out quietly.

“Deo and I slept together a couple of times. She’s a sweetheart and I really like her. Besides,” Allie said moodily, “I was never in lo…”

Bri glanced over at her. “What, Al? What were you going to say?”

Allie bit her lip and shook her head. After a minute, she said quietly, “Nothing. I wasn’t going to say anything at all.”

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You can go on in. Sheriff’s waiting,” Gladys said when Bri and Allie walked into the office.

Bri shot Allie a quick glance, tapped on Reese’s door, and pushed it open. Reese looked up from her desk and motioned them in.

“There’s been a change in the duty roster,” Reese said. “Parker, I’m switching you to nights for the next couple of weeks. You’ll ride with Officer Wayne.”

“Yes ma’am.”

Reese noted the look of displeasure cross Bri’s face, but unlike a year ago when she would have argued, Bri merely stared straight ahead.

She was young still, not yet twenty-three, but she had a natural instinct for the job. Plus, five years of dedicated martial arts training had taught her restraint, if not true patience. That would come. Allie Tremont was a different story. She was a skilled officer, smart and dedicated, but she lacked Bri’s steadiness, as if some part of her was still searching for a solid foundation. Reese knew of Allie’s fast-and-loose reputation—the town was too small not to know just about everybody’s business. But Allie never missed a shift or showed up for work impaired in any way, unless Reese counted lack of sleep. But being exhausted was not a disciplinary offense. If it were, she’d have to put herself on report along with just about every other officer in her department.

“Tremont,” Reese said.

Allie straightened, her eyes wary. “Sheriff?”

“I need you as liaison with Ash Walker. She’s going to be looking into—”

“Let Bri do it,” Allie exclaimed. “I’ll ride with Wayne.”

Bri sucked in a breath and muttered, “Al. Shut up.”

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“That was an order, not a request for advice, Officer.” Reese had expected one or both of her young officers to complain about being split up. Bri and Allie had gone through the academy together. They were used to working with each other and they were friends. Riding separately for a few weeks would give them a chance to develop skills in the areas where they depended on the other now. Bri was a loner.

There was nothing wrong with that, but if she was going to command one day, she needed to learn how to read people. How to evaluate those she would lead. Right now Bri let Allie handle a lot of the interpersonal parts of the job. Riding with Carter would force her out of her comfort zone.

Allie, for her part, was too comfortable with Bri taking charge.

Working as the department’s rep with Ash would give her a chance to develop her own style and approach to problem-solving. However, Allie wasn’t complaining about the partnership being split up, she was complaining about working with Walker.

“Is there some reason you don’t want to work with Walker?” Reese asked. “Some problem with her I should know about?”

“No ma’am. Nothing of that nature,” Allie said stiffly.

“Then unless there’s a professional problem—which I expect you to bring to my attention,” Reese said, reaching for the next pile of paperwork, “I want you to contact Walker immediately to review her schedule and get her anything she needs. I also expect you to coordinate her site visits on a daily basis and accompany her to any claim where we have open files. Maybe we can clear some of the backlog. Parker, you’re off duty until midnight tonight. You’re dismissed.”

“Ma’am,” both Allie and Bri said simultaneously.

Reese did not look up as they left.

v

“You’ve got to be kidding me,” Allie snarled as soon as Reese’s door closed behind them.

“Not here, Allie,” Bri said urgently when Gladys and one of the other officers glanced their way curiously. She grabbed Allie’s arm and dragged her down the hall leading to the locker rooms. “You know better than to complain about an order in front of the others.”

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know it! Jesus, Bri, half the town is still underwater and we’ve got all we can do to investigate complaints. Sticking me with a babysitting—”

“Fuck, Al.” Bri grabbed Allie by the shoulders, frog-marched her the rest of the way to the locker room, and pushed her through the door with a hand in the middle of her back. “Do you want to get suspended?

You think Reese is going to put up with you mouthing off about your assignment in hearing range of the squad?”

“And what’s this about putting you with Carter? Why not put Wayne with one of the guys on the night shift—Smith has been around longer than you have!”

Silently, Bri agreed with her, but she wasn’t going to say so. She liked riding with Allie. She liked working the day shift too, even though she had to do her fair amount of night duty when her name came around in rotation. When she worked nights she got to see a lot less of Carre, and that always made her edgy and put her off her game. Sleeping next to Carre replenished some vital part of her spirit. But Reese was her boss, and more importantly, Bri trusted her. “Reese must have her reasons. That’s why she’s the sheriff.”

“Fuck that.” Allie abruptly turned her back on Bri. “I’m not doing it.”

“Just take a few minutes to cool off,” Bri said after a long pause.

This wasn’t the Allie she knew. That Allie always had a who-gives-adamn smile and a smart comeback when things didn’t go her way. From the way Allie’s shoulders were shaking slightly, Bri thought she might be crying. Crap. Taking a tentative step closer, she rested her hands on Allie’s shoulders. “Hey, Al. What’s going on?”

Wordlessly, Allie shook her head. She reached up to cover Bri’s hands with hers and leaned back against Bri’s chest. The move put her practically in Bri’s arms, and for a couple of seconds, Bri panicked. But she wasn’t getting the old Allie sex vibe, and although she was glad for it, she was also nervous. She didn’t have a clue what to do for the new Allie. “If you want me to talk to Reese for you, I will,” Bri said finally.

Allie laughed, a short, choked laugh, and dropped her head against Bri’s shoulder. “Wow. You must really be worried.”

“Hey,” Bri said, trying to lighten the mood. “I know you’re still really pissed at Ash. I don’t blame you for not wanting to work with her.”

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“Yeah, I’m pissed at her. But I’ve been pissed at you before too.

This is different.” Allie let go of Bri’s hands and turned to face her.

“She hurt me, Bri. She really hurt me.”

“I’m sorry, Al.” Bri hated feeling so helpless, and she hated Allie hurting.

“Me too,” Allie said flatly, the expression in her eyes unforgiving.

“Me too.”

v

“Hey, baby!” Caroline Clark smiled brightly when Bri walked into their apartment in the middle of the afternoon. She put her paintbrush down on the easel and wiped her hands on a clean cloth. “If I’d known you were coming home, I would’ve made lunch or something.”

“I didn’t know myself.” Bri hung her gun belt over the back of a kitchen chair, put her weapon in the top drawer next to the sink, and unbuckled her belt. Caroline had pulled her shoulder-length flaxen hair back in a ponytail, and with her smooth skin and big baby blues, she still looked sixteen instead of twenty-two. “I’m not hungry for lunch.”

“Um, baby?” Caroline’s eyebrows rose as Bri unzipped her pants, stepped out of them, and draped them over the chair. By the time Bri started on the buttons on her uniform shirt Caroline had reached her and joined in. Nothing turned her on faster than Bri being hot for her. “You can tell me later why you’re here. How much time do we have?”

Laughing, Bri wrapped her arms around Caroline’s waist and nibbled at her neck. “Until about eleven thirty tonight. Reese just switched me to nights.”

“Oh damn.” Caroline stripped off Bri’s shirt, tugged up the bottom of the tight tank she wore beneath it, and ran her hands over Bri’s chest.

“I hate not sleeping with you.”

“I know. I’m sorry.” Bri popped the button on Caroline’s jeans and pushed them down. Then she reached under Caroline’s T-shirt, released the clasp on her bra, and skimmed them both over Caroline’s head.

Leaving Caroline just in her panties, Bri walked her backward toward the bedroom. “Maybe I can make it up to you a little bit right now.”

When the backs of Caroline’s knees hit the bed, she flopped down and pulled Bri on top of her. Caroline spread her legs so Bri’s naked thigh came to rest high up between her legs, and hooked one ankle

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around Bri’s calf. She tilted her pelvis and rubbed herself over Bri’s thigh. “You can make it up to me a lot right now, baby.”

“That was my plan, babe.” Bri shot her a cocky grin.

Caroline worked her hands under Bri’s tank and played with her nipples, laughing when Bri squeezed her eyes shut and groaned. She loved teasing her tough-girl lover. Bri tried so hard to be brave and strong, and she was. She really was. From the very first day they’d met in high school, Bri had stood up for them, against their peers and their parents and those who wanted to hurt them for daring to love each other. And then she joined the sheriff’s department and put her heart and soul and body on the line every day, still trying to do the right thing.

A few people knew the softer side of her, but only Caroline really knew how tender she was, how sometimes in the night she’d cry out in her sleep, trembling, until Caroline pulled her close. Bri needed her and wasn’t ashamed to admit it, and that’s all that mattered between them.

Caroline arched up and kissed Bri. “I love you.”

Bri met Caroline’s gaze, the deep blue of her eyes turning stormy with excitement. Hands shaking, she yanked off her top and fumbled with her briefs. Caroline reached down to help her.

“Fuck, you make me so hot, babe,” Bri muttered as she got up on her knees to get the last of her clothing off.

“I know.” Caroline sighed with satisfaction and quickly shed her panties. She grasped Bri’s hand and pulled it between her legs. She was wet. “That’s what happened the minute you walked in the door.”

Bri groaned and slipped inside her. Leaning on one elbow, she kissed her slow and deep. While she gently slid in and out of Caroline’s warm, tight depths, she licked the inside of Caroline’s lips and teased her tongue. “I want you to come. I love it when you come.”

“Don’t think…you’re getting off with just a quickie.” Caroline gripped the thick dark hair at the back of Bri’s neck, arching against her as her hips lifted and fell with each thrust of Bri’s hand. She shivered, her legs tightening. “Oh, damn. Dammit. I’m going to come right away.”

“Feel me inside you,” Bri said with fierce concentration, avidly watching Caroline’s face. She angled her palm to hit Caroline’s clitoris and Caroline’s inner muscles spasmed. “Oh yeah. Here it comes.”

“Uh-huh,” Caroline gasped, “right now.”

Bri rolled half on top of Caroline, straddling Caroline’s thigh and

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burying her face in Caroline’s neck. Pulling the soft flesh between her lips, she sucked as Caroline pulsed around her fingers. With two hard thrusts of her hips, she came.

“You cheated,” Caroline protested a few minutes later, stroking the back of Bri’s head.

“Can’t help it,” Bri mumbled, her head pillowed on Caroline’s shoulder, her fingers still deep inside her. “Love you.”

“So how come you’re home early?” Caroline kissed Bri’s forehead, felt around for the sheet, and covered them. “You’re not in trouble, are you?”

“Nah.” Bri couldn’t move and didn’t even try to open her eyes.

The late-afternoon sun coming through the skylight over their heads warmed her shoulders. She felt so peaceful, so safe. “Carter Wayne just joined the department, and I’ve got to ride with her on the late shift for a couple of weeks.”

“Okay. That explains why you’re home. Any special reason you’re so horny?”

Bri sighed and lightly stroked between Caroline’s legs. She remembered the pain in Allie’s eyes earlier, and never ever wanted to do anything to put that look in Caroline’s. “It’s you, babe. It’s just you.”

Caroline took advantage of Bri’s relaxed state and pushed her over onto her back. Then she made her way down between her legs. Right before she put her mouth on her, she said, “I’ll always be here, baby.

Always.”

v

Ash took stock of the three-room suite she’d been lucky to score at the Crown. The bedroom was set off on the short end of an L, with a small gas fireplace occupying the corner. The long arm of the suite contained a sitting area with a desk and a spacious bath on the far side of that, and at the end closest to the door from the courtyard, an efficiency kitchen. Compared to the many Motel 6 equivalents she’d stayed in over the last month, this place was a palace. After having traveled most of the night, she was looking forward to a shower and change of clothes before she started to work again.

A knock sounded at the door, and assuming the attendant had returned with the extra towels she’d requested, she called come in.

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Opening her suitcase on the bed, she added over her shoulder, “Go ahead and leave them on the counter in the kitchen. Thanks.”

When she heard the door close, she pushed down her jeans, pulled off her polo shirt, and headed for the bathroom in her briefs. She stumbled to a stop when she realized she wasn’t alone. Covering her nakedness seemed ridiculous when the woman standing just inside her door had seen all of her in far more compromising positions. Watching Allie’s eyes widen and skim down her body, she almost covered her breasts when she felt her nipples harden.

“Sorry,” Allie said sharply. “I thought you said come in.”

“I did.” Galvanized by the frigid look in Allie’s eyes, Ash backed toward the bedroom. “I thought you were someone else.”

“So I gathered.” Allie looked away, desperately wanting to flee, but not wanting to reveal her discomfort to Ash. She did not want Ash Walker to have the slightest inkling that she still had any power to affect her at all. She definitely didn’t want to betray the way her heart had tripped over itself when she’d first seen Ash step into the room naked. Even exhausted and ten pounds too thin, she was gorgeous, just as gorgeous as she had been the last time Allie had touched her. Long limbed and sleekly muscled, firm oval breasts tipped by small light brown nipples, concave abdomen with a shallow, round navel that she used to love to dip her tongue into. God, she didn’t want to think about that. Not now. Not ever ever again. Resurrecting her anger, she said tightly, “Since you’re expecting company, I won’t keep you.”

“Just wait, Allie,” Ash said. “No one’s coming. It was just a misunderstanding.”

“Yeah, that happens a lot with you.”

“Just…wait. Jesus.” Ash bolted back to the bedroom, grabbed a pair of jeans and a T-shirt, and hastily dressed. The entire time, she listened for the sound of the door opening and closing. She couldn’t believe how much Allie hated her. She half expected Allie to be gone, but when she returned to the living area, Allie was still there, just inside the door. The rush of relief was so strong and so unexpected, she swayed with a surge of dizziness.

“You all right?” Allie asked almost begrudgingly.

Embarrassed, Ash waved away Allie’s concern. “Yeah. Fine.”

“When’s the last time you ate?”

Ash blinked. “What?”

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“You fucking look like you’re going to fall over, Walker.” Allie stomped to the counter and jerked an apple out of the welcome basket the innkeepers had left. Pivoting sharply, she flung it across the room.

“Eat that.”

“Christ, Allie,” Ash exclaimed, catching the apple just before it hit her in the face. “Would you…” She took a breath and forced herself to speak softly. “Thanks.”

Allie turned her back and looked out the door toward the plant-filled flagstone courtyard.

“What are you doing here?” Ash knew better than to think Allie had come to see her for any personal reason.

“Apparently Reese thinks you need an escort.”

“What!” Ash swallowed the chunk of apple she was chewing so quickly she almost choked on it. Coughing, she cleared her throat.

“Reese told me she wanted a list of places I plan to check out. And that she’d have someone provide records for me. You didn’t need to come over here in person.”

“Believe me, it wasn’t my idea.” Allie looked back over her shoulder. “Reese ordered me to get together with you. I’m supposed to be your liaison, as in work with you on behalf of the department.”

“That’s crazy.”

“For once, we agree.”

Ash tossed the apple in the trash can and jammed her hands into the pockets of her jeans. “Look, let me get settled and I’ll stop by the station and talk to Reese again. I’ll leave you a list of the records I need you to pull. You won’t even have to see me.”

For just a second, Allie thought she heard a whisper of sadness in Ash’s voice and she felt a quick pain around her heart. Just as quickly, she squashed the feeling. Ashley Walker was nothing to her now, and she wasn’t going to waste one single emotion on her. Ash could work herself into the ground for all she cared. Because she didn’t care.

“Leave your list this afternoon,” Allie said, her hand on the doorknob. “I’d like nothing better than to never see you again, but I have orders, and until Reese changes her mind and tells me differently, I’m at least going to meet with you every day to go over your schedule.

What time do you want to start tomorrow?”

“Allie,” Ash said softly. “I’ll talk to Reese today. I’ll tell her—”

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“Don’t do me any favors,” Allie said harshly. “You’ll only make it worse.”

Ash pushed her hand through her hair. “Okay. Okay. I’ll see you at eight tomorrow, then.”

“Fine.” Allie pulled open the door.

“Allie,” Ash called. “I’m sorry about this.”

Allie turned back, her face a careful mask. “It’s too late to be sorry.

It’s too late for anything at all.”

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He did not fear being discovered.

Most of the houses on Bradford west of Atlantic showed signs of storm damage—blown-out windows, missing sections of roof, debris-filled yards, and downed trees. Many of the residents had not returned. Scattered sections of Commercial Street remained flooded and closed to anything except official vehicles. Power had yet to be restored to some residential enclaves, and streetlights were out all over town. No one paid any attention to a lone man dressed in generic work clothes moving purposefully down the street. Or into a yard. Or through an open garage or unhinged back door.

He sat on the edge of her bed, ran his hand over the depression in her pillow where her face had pressed while she slept. He leaned over and took a deep breath. Her scent was primal female, light and airy with the teasing undercurrent of lush fertility. He slid his hand between the sheets and imagined her body splayed open, hungry for a touch. His touch.

For a moment, he contemplated pulling back the covers and lying naked where her flesh had been, absorbing the warmth she’d left behind. Too risky. Too soon. The hunt was far too enjoyable to rush.

Sighing, he rose, adjusted the heaviness in his pants, and moved to the closet. Her clothes shared space with those of the pretender. He barely resisted the urge to yank the carefully pressed shirts and trousers from the hangers and fling them to the floor. But he wasn’t ready to announce himself yet. He fingered the silky sleeve of a red shirt, lifted it to his mouth, ran it over his lips. The silk became her hair twining through his

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fingers, and closing his eyes, he saw his hand twisting in her lustrous locks—yanking her head back, exposing her vulnerable throat to his mouth, his lips, his teeth. He’d bite her, mark her, make sure the world understood she was his.

But not yet. Not while the anticipation excited him, not while the fantasies of what was to come still satisfied him. Shuddering, he pulled the shirt from the hanger, wadded it up, and pushed it inside his clothes.

He smoothed out the silk over his bare abdomen, carefully sliding one sleeve down the front of his pants where he could feel it like slick fingers stroking him every time he moved.

Not yet. But soon.

v

Tory stuck her head into the examining room where her associate, Nita Burgoyne, was finishing with their last patient. Even after a twelve-hour day, Nita looked fresh and elegant in a sage shirt, slightly deeper green skirt, and low heels. Her coffee-colored skin glowed and her dark eyes sparkled with happiness. Tory smiled inwardly at how good love looked on her. “I’m going to head home, Nita. I’ve got the beeper if anything comes up.”

Nita finished wrapping an Ace bandage around Joey Torres’s injured hand. “Go ahead. Joey and I are going to wait until Deo comes to pick us up.” She gave the handsome dark-haired youth a stern glance.

“Because Joey isn’t ready to drive yet, right, Joey?”

“Yes ma’am,” he said with an utterly charming grin. “Not until you say.”

“How is Deo?” Tory asked. Deo Camara, Nita’s lover and Joey’s cousin, had been injured while trying to salvage a pier and boathouse from one of the many fires that had started the night of the hurricane.

“She says she’s fine,” Nita said. “Of course, getting her to admit that anything hurts is a major undertaking.”

Tory laughed. “Now there’s a familiar story. Good night, you two.

Nita, I’ll see you in the morning.”

After gathering some files she wanted to finish at home and grabbing her cane, Tory made her way through the empty clinic, turning out lights as she went. She rarely used her cane anymore, relying on just her light ankle splint to support her damaged leg, and sometimes

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not even that. But she’d been on her feet constantly for the last ten days, and her leg was swollen and partially numb. She wasn’t so proud that she’d risk falling on her ass rather than use her cane for a few days.

She left the lights on in the hall and the reception area for Nita and Joey, and pulled open the front door. Deo was just striding up the walk from the gravel parking lot in front of the single-story health clinic Tory had opened almost ten years before. Deo could have been Joey’s twin—same dark good looks, same devilish grin, same muscular body.

Until Nita, she’d broken hearts all over town. But not any longer.

“Hi, Deo. Nita is in the back with Joey. You can go on through.

We’re done with patients for the day.”

“Thanks, Tory.” Deo hurried to hold the door as Tory maneuvered through with her briefcase and armful of files. “I’m glad I caught you. I’ll be by to take care of your deck and the damage to your doors sometime this week.”

Tory waved a hand. “Don’t worry about it. I’m sure you’ve got much bigger projects to see to. How’s the recovery going?”

Deo grimaced. “I hate to say that a storm like this is great for business, but we’ve got more work than we know what to do with.

Right now, we’re just trying to put Band-Aids on places to prevent further damage. Roofs, windows, that kind of thing.”

“Well, like I said, our house is livable, so I don’t mind waiting.”

“Thanks, I appreciate it.” Deo sketched a salute in the air. “See you soon, then.”

“’Night.”

Tory piled her things on the front seat of her Jeep and drove out of the parking lot with a sigh. Almost six thirty. With any luck, Reese really would be able to get home by seven. Then they could have a quick dinner and make love. Tory smiled, thinking about having a few uninterrupted hours with Reese.

A brilliant sunset colored the sky above the harbor with swaths of pink and orange, bleeding into purple closer to the water. Despite the devastation to the town, the natural beauty of the sky and sea, the majesty of the sweeping dunes, remained eternal. The storm had arrived so suddenly and had wrought such fierce destruction so quickly, everyone was left in shock. Tory had seen tragedy upon tragedy in her years as a physician, had suffered the loss of her own dreams more than once, and still this event had shaken her. Had made her realize how

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quickly life can change, how all she cherished could be lost in a matter of hours. She’d been thinking about that a lot lately.

She pulled into the driveway beside their house in the far east end of Provincetown. They’d been lucky. A tree had come down in the front yard, narrowly missing the house, although it had smashed the front steps. Some shingles had blown off, but the roof had held and the upper floors were dry. The major damage was on the harbor side of the house—the panes in the sliding glass doors on the rear deck had finally cracked under the onslaught of flying debris, and something heavy, or a number of heavy somethings, had smashed the door frame and demolished part of the railing. Still, their house was habitable. A great many people couldn’t say the same thing.

She slowly climbed the stairs to the side door and, once inside, dumped her briefcase and files on the counter that separated the kitchen from the living-dining room and propped her cane against one of the bar stools. As she walked toward the damaged double glass doors leading out to the rear deck, hoping to catch a last glimpse of the sunset, she thought idly about what she’d make for supper. Something quick and easy. She didn’t want to waste a minute of her alone time with Reese.

Frowning, she noticed the deck doors were open an inch or two.

She couldn’t think why, unless Reese had been home during the day.

That seemed unlikely, and even then, they hadn’t been using the doors for the last few days because they were worried that the glass panes might fall out. Maybe the wind…

Somewhere overhead, a thud. Not a random tree branch falling, not a timber shifting. A door closing.

Tory spun around, her gaze sweeping the first floor. Nothing seemed out of place. The house was completely silent. Then she saw the trail of sand on the hardwood floor just inside the deck doors that shouldn’t be open. She yanked her cell phone off her waistband as she grabbed the handle on the slider and pulled. The door caught in the warped frame, screeching like an animal in pain. Ignoring a surge of panic, she shoved harder, but the force just deformed the bent track further and she couldn’t get the slider to open far enough for her to squeeze through. Through the thundering of her heart, she heard footsteps pounding above her. Pushing Reese’s number on speed dial, she raced across the room toward the outside door.

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v

Reese tossed her hat onto the dashboard and settled behind the wheel with a satisfied sigh. She’d actually managed to reduce the stack of paperwork on her desk by several inches. Even more importantly, she’d convinced the town council to allocate emergency funds so she could approve overtime for her officers and schedule the work that had to be done. And after several strategic phone calls to collect on a few favors, she’d gotten the official go-ahead to hire Carter Wayne. Not bad for a day’s work, even if she did have a headache. As soon as she was home with Tory, that would be history.

Her phone rang as she turned left onto Bradford, and she muttered a curse under her breath. It wouldn’t be the first time she’d barely been out of the station house before she had to turn around and go back.

When she glanced at the readout, she relaxed and pressed On.

“Hi, love,” Reese said. “You need me to—”

“Reese! Someone’s in the house!”

“Get out of there, Tory,” Reese snapped, jamming her foot down on the accelerator as she hit the lights and siren.

“I…oh God…”

“Tory? Tory!” Reese’s vision went completely blank. The road disappeared. The sky turned black—blacker than a starless night. The black of an endless void. Pain slashed through her chest and she cried out. She couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t breathe.

“No,” she shouted, sucking in a huge breath. The road ahead shot into focus as the cruiser rocketed over the narrow, two-lane road.

She jerked the mic off the dashboard and shouted for backup. Then she dropped it, leaving it to dangle by its curling black cord, as she unholstered her weapon. Twisting the wheel viciously with one hand, she careened into her driveway and slammed to a halt.

It couldn’t have taken more than a minute for her to get home, but sometimes a minute could change a lifetime. Tory lay face down on the ground a few feet from the stairs. Time stopped for Reese. The world ground to a halt. Life as she knew it hovered on a precipice.

“Tory!” Reese tumbled from the car, racing forward, her weapon raised, her eyes scanning the area by instinct. Nothing moved. She anticipated the flare of incendiary devices and the smell of burning flesh,

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braced herself for the hail of bullets, waited stoically for the agonizing pain. Nothing came. She dropped to her knees on the crushed-shell driveway, her weapon falling uselessly to the ground. “Tory. God, Tory.”

For the first time in her life, Reese was paralyzed. In the midst of battle, with death all around her, she’d acted. Instinct, a lifetime of training, had won out over fear and suffering and horror. She’d protected, she’d defended, she’d saved lives at the risk of her own.

Now she couldn’t move. She heard a car screech into the driveway behind her, dimly registered radio static and voices shouting. She couldn’t move.

Tory moaned, rolled onto her side, and reached for her. “Reese.”

The earth shifted back onto its axis. Reese’s mind cleared as if someone had changed the channel on a television set. Sights, sounds, smells became suddenly razor sharp. She touched Tory’s cheek. She was warm. Alive.

“Lie still, love. You’ve got blood on your forehead.” Never taking her eyes from Tory’s face, Reese shouted, “We need an ambulance.”

“No, we don’t,” Tory said, her throat dry and her voice scratchy.

“It’s my leg. I fell down the stairs. God damn it.”

Tory tried to sit up and Reese gently pressed down on her shoulder.

“No. Stay there until the EMTs can check you out.”

“Reese,” Tory said urgently. “There was someone in the house.

Upstairs.”

“Did he touch you?” Reese’s guts twisted when she asked the question.

“No. No, I think he ran away, but I’m not sure.”

Reese looked up and met Allie Tremont’s wide eyes. Bobby Strope, a part-time officer who worked the swing shift, stood behind her, red-faced and breathing hard. “Tremont. Take Strope and clear the house.”

“Yes ma’am,” Allie said crisply. She motioned to Strope and headed up the walk to the side door, her weapon out in front of her. She looked rock steady.

The EMT vehicle angled off the side of the road at the head of the driveway and two techs raced toward them, each carrying a red equipment box.

“I’m all right,” Tory told them as they knelt on either side of her.

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She recognized the sandy-haired man. “Dave, I’m okay. I just…it was stupid. I fell.”

“We’ll just take a look at you, Doc,” Dave said affably while expertly wrapping a blood pressure cuff around her upper left arm.

“You meet my new mate, Flynn Edwards?”

A blonde with cornsilk gold hair and eyes as blue as the July sky grinned down at her as she grasped Tory’s wrist and took her pulse. “Dr.

King. Good to meet you.”

“BP’s one-forty over eighty-two,” Dave said.

“Pulse is eighty-eight. Nice and strong,” Flynn reported. She flipped open her tackle box and pulled out a clean pair of gloves. After extracting a four-by-four gauze pad, she soaked it with saline and dabbed Tory’s forehead. “This is just a scratch. Probably from one of the shells when you fell.”

“I’ll put some antibiotic ointment on it later.” Tory gripped Reese’s arm and pulled herself upright. “Listen, you two. I’m okay. Let me sign your release so you can get back to doing serious work.”

Dave eased back on his heels. “Would you mind if I took a look at your leg, Doc?”

“If you take the splint off, it will swell,” Reese said sharply. She shifted positions, slid her arms behind Tory’s shoulders and under her knees, and pushed upright, cradling Tory against her chest. “She needs to be in bed before we take it off. I’ll see to it as soon as the house is clear.”

Dave and Flynn exchanged a look.

“I’m fine, really,” Tory said gently, stroking Reese’s cheek.

“Sweetheart, I’m fine.”

Flynn put her head down and began busily storing her equipment.

Dave cleared his throat and said, “I’ll get the paperwork.”

“All clear, Sheriff,” Allie called as she exited the house, holstering her weapon. Her lips parted in surprise when she took in Reese standing with Tory in her arms, and then her expression went carefully blank. “I sent Strope out to check the perimeter. You’ll need to document whether anything is missing…after you get Dr. King squared away, that is. If it’s okay with you, I’ll dust for prints too.”

“Thank you, Officer,” Reese said, settled and calm now that Tory’s heart beat close to hers. “Once you’re done here, canvass the surrounding houses. Check with any owners who are home to see if

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they’ve had any problems with vandals. Look for any signs of forced entry in any houses that are empty.”

“Yes ma’am.”

“Fill me in when you’re done, Tremont.”

Allie saluted. “Yes ma’am.”

Reese smiled briefly. “Well done, Tremont.”

v

“She didn’t sign the release form,” Dave muttered.

“Give it to me,” Allie said, holding out her hand as she watched Reese climb the stairs as effortlessly as if she weren’t carrying a hundred and thirty pounds of woman in her arms. No wonder everyone thought she was hot. She was hot.

“Impressive,” a husky female voice said beside her.

“Understatement,” Allie murmured. She glanced at Flynn and laughed. “How are you doing?”

“Busy, but getting settled.” Flynn flipped a shock of blond hair off her forehead with long, slender fingers. “You?”

“About to get a lot busier.”

“Yeah.” Flynn glanced toward the house. “What do you think?

Vandalism?”

Allie shrugged. “Maybe. Looting has been a problem, what with so many places standing empty. There’s also a lot of new faces in town.

Disaster always draws a crowd.”

“Yeah, I saw that after nine-eleven.”

“You were there?”

Flynn colored and glanced away. “I volunteered with a…uh, group of people. Got there just a couple days after. It was…it was bad.”

“I believe it. How long were you there?”

“Two months.”

Allie was impressed. “That’s pretty amazing.”

“Not so much. No big deal.” Clearly embarrassed, Flynn looked over her shoulder where Dave waited by the truck. “Listen, I’ve got to get back to work.”

“Me too,” Allie said.

“So how about we get together for drinks some night. Tonight, maybe,” Flynn said quickly.

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Allie hesitated, and for no good reason at all, flashed on Ash standing naked in a room on Bradford. “I’ve got a couple more hours of work here at least. But yeah, later. Later would be good.”

“I’ll call you,” Flynn said, backing away, her eyes sparkling.

“Tonight?”

“Tonight.” Allie called out her cell number. “Can you remember that?”

Flynn patted her chest. “Already etched on my heart.”

Laughing, Allie shook her head and watched Flynn climb into the truck. It felt good to laugh. It felt a lot better than crying.

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My cane is right over there,” Tory said, pointing toward the counter. “You can put me down, sweetheart. I can walk with that.” “No,” Reese said gruffly. She couldn’t put her down. She was afraid, afraid in some animal part of her being to relinquish her protective hold on her mate while there was still the slightest possibility of danger.

Struggling not to let her fear bleed over to her lover, she started toward the stairs. “We should see to your leg. I’ll take you to the bedroom.”

“Stop. Wait a minute.” When Reese kept walking, Tory grasped a fistful of Reese’s starched uniform shirt and tugged on it to get her attention. “Reese. Look at me.”

Reluctantly, Reese paused, one foot on the lower stair, Tory resting in the cradle formed by the curve of her body. She didn’t want to meet Tory’s eyes because she couldn’t hide what was in her own. She didn’t want Tory to see her fear or her fury. “You’re hurt, baby. Let me take care of you.”

“You are. You do.” Tory smoothed her hand over the wrinkles in Reese’s shirt, caressing her chest through the thin barrier. She understood Reese’s need to safeguard her, and she would never try to change that. Reese’s sense of duty, her loyalty to her family and her friends, her need to defend those she loved was fundamental to her life. Tory loved her for it. But she’d seen the haunted look in Reese’s eyes just a few minutes before, heard the pain in her voice. As strong as Reese was, she’d been hurt in more than body in that desert horror, and she wasn’t completely healed. “Put me down on the couch. We’ll wait

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together for Allie to report in.” She kissed Reese’s neck above the crisp line of her collar. “I love you.”

Reese shuddered and buried her face in Tory’s hair. She took great gulping breaths, purging the bitter taste of loss from the back of her throat with the sweet fragrance of Tory’s shampoo. “I saw you there on the ground and…for a second, I thought…” Reese’s legs suddenly felt weak and she abruptly sat down on the stairs, pulling Tory tighter to her chest, bracing Tory’s injured leg on her thigh to cushion the damaged ankle.

Tory threaded her arms around Reese’s neck and twisted in her lap so her breasts were pressed to Reese’s chest. She kissed her, and when she heard Reese moan, she caressed the back of Reese’s neck and murmured against her mouth, “I’m all right. I’m right here with you.

Right where I’ll always be.”

“I love you so much,” Reese whispered.

“I know, darling. I know.” Tory feathered her fingers through Reese’s hair and kissed her gently. “I love the way you love me. Don’t ever change.”

v

On his way up from the beach to the darkened house where he’d been staying after forcing the rear door a few days before, he caught a glimmer of light flashing through the scrub pines bordering the property.

Slowing, he eased his way cautiously through the brush until he could see the rear deck. A figure moved slowly from window to window, shining a flashlight into the house. He slid his hand to the waistband of his pants and gripped his H&K. The moon came out from behind a cloud, bathing the deck in silver. He saw a woman, young, and with a body that even the drab uniform couldn’t camouflage.

Pity. Such a waste. He extended the gun and cradled his right hand in the palm of his left, sighting on her head. In the distance, the crackle of police radios and the flashing light bars on top of the cruisers cast a red glow through the trees, lighting the sky as if the night were on fire.

The sound of the shot would carry, but he would be just another shadow by the time anyone arrived.

She reached for the back door handle and he drew in a long, steady breath in preparation for squeezing the trigger. He didn’t have to kill

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her. He hadn’t left behind anything of consequence. He just wanted to.

He was tired of being hunted. Tired of being driven from safety. Tired of watching from the shadows.

“Hey, Allie,” a male voice called just as an arc of white light cut a swath over the trees where he crouched. A man made his way along the flagstone path from the street toward the back of the house.

“Anything?”

“Not sure,” the woman replied. “There’s a trash bag in the middle of the kitchen floor. It looks like it’s almost full—food trash, looks like.

Doesn’t that seem weird to you? I mean, if you were evacuating, would you leave that stuff inside the house when you didn’t know when you’d be back?”

“Huh.”

“And I think the door’s unlocked,” the woman said.

The officers drew their weapons.

Calculating the possibility of taking them both out, he judged the odds of clean kills to be low. He could not risk one or both of them returning fire. He heard a grinding sound and realized it was his teeth, and he forced his jaws to relax. He saw the woman’s face in the reflected light of her partner’s flashlight. She was beautiful and young. So many to choose from.

Next time. Next time he might have her. She would do, while he waited.

v

Reese reclined in the corner of the couch with Tory nestled in her arms, Tory’s legs stretched out and her injured foot propped on several pillows. She stroked Tory’s hair and listened to her slow, even breathing. Her service weapon rested on the arm of the sofa millimeters from her right hand. She trusted Allie, but she wanted to clear the house herself and until she did, she wasn’t leaving Tory’s side. Some things were too important to leave to anyone else.

As each minute passed, her focus sharpened. She didn’t doubt that someone had been in the house. Tory was as levelheaded and objective in a crisis as anyone she’d ever met. After she had a chance to look around, she might have a better idea of exactly what happened. She considered the possibilities. Random vandalism was certainly an option,

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although any local resident would know she lived here, which ought to make the house less of a target. However, criminals did not tend to be the most intelligent members of the population, and everyone in town knew that Tory was a doctor and Reese the sheriff. Whoever had broken in might have thought there were drugs or guns and ammunition in the house. There were also a higher than usual number of strangers in town, having been drawn by the disaster as seemed to be the case whenever misfortune struck. The final possibility was that the house and its contents were not the target, but that some member of the household was.

She was the sheriff, which wasn’t always a popular position, although she couldn’t think of anyone in their small village who she’d arrested for anything more serious than car theft. Except for the man who had molested Bri Parker. She’d broken his arm, and had contemplated worse. He must have felt how close she’d come to pulling the trigger of the gun she’d held to his head. She’d bested him hand-to-hand and humiliated him. For some men that was enough to exact payback. She made a note to check his whereabouts. He’d received the maximum sentence for the attempted rape and assault on a police officer, but he might have gotten early parole.

Tory saw dozens of patients every day, and although Reese doubted that anyone would be angry enough over a diagnosis or some other perceived slight to want to hurt her, the possibility of a stalker was very real. In her capacity as a physician, Tory was intimately involved in people’s lives, often making the difference between life and death. Some unstable individual could easily fixate on her. Just the idea of anyone getting close to Tory, harming her, froze the breath in her chest.

“What are you thinking about?” Tory murmured.

“Nothing,” Reese whispered, kissing the top of her head. “Go back to sleep.”

“I wasn’t sleeping. I was just lying here thinking how much I love lying here in your arms.”

Reese’s stomach tightened and heat shot through her. Adrenaline and desire tangled and pulsed. She sucked in a breath, her hips lifting almost imperceptibly. She forced herself to breathe evenly. “How does your leg feel?”

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“Your body just got tight as a drum. So don’t tell me you weren’t thinking about anything important. What’s worrying you?”

“I’m concerned about your leg,” Reese said, which was true. “You wouldn’t have fallen down the stairs tonight if you hadn’t already put too much strain on it. You need to take it easy, baby. You’re working too much.”

“I’m not working any more than anyone else, and I can’t leave Nita to handle it all on her own.” Tory shifted until she could look up into Reese’s face. “The medical problems never go away, and now we’re seeing a lot more minor trauma, and some of it that’s not so minor, because of all of the recovery efforts. We’re swamped, sweetheart.”

“I know. But you still need to leave at a reasonable hour.” Reese tapped Tory’s chin. “That doesn’t mean ten o’clock at night.”

“I left early tonight. I had big plans for you, you know.” Tory sighed. “Dinner and then sex. Lots of sex.”

“In a little while I’ll take care of dinner. The other…” Reese grinned. “I’ll take care of that in a couple of days.”

Tory’s eyebrows shot up and she laughed incredulously. “The hell you will. I have no intention of waiting a couple of days.” Then just as quickly, her face grew serious. “What about the baby? Do you think we should have Jean and Kate keep her at their place for a few days? What if I’d been here alone with her?”

“Let’s see what the investigation turns up tonight.” Reese smoothed her thumb over the worry lines on Tory’s forehead. “This will probably all turn out to be nothing.”

“Probably.” Tory struggled to sit up and Reese swiftly moved the pillow to the coffee table. Tory eased her leg onto the pillow and said,

“So what do you really think happened?”

“I don’t know yet. I need to look around the house. In the meantime, I want you to think about anyone you’ve seen at the clinic in the last three months who’s been acting strangely.”

“Strangely how?”

“Paying too much attention to you, maybe calling on the phone with bogus complaints or asking for special appointments. Anything that seems excessive or inappropriate.”

“You think someone is stalking me,” Tory said quietly.

Reese shook her head. “I don’t think anything at all just yet.

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But that’s on my list. I have a few other things to look into as soon as Allie—”

“I know you need to talk to Allie tonight,” Tory said. “But after she reports, I don’t want you to go back to work. Not tonight.” When Reese said nothing, Tory took her hand. “You need to be here with me.

And I need you here.”

Reese brought Tory’s hand to her lips and kissed it. “I’ll be right beside you, all night long.”

v

“Hey,” Bri said to Allie as she walked into the locker room at the station house shortly before ten thirty. “Smith said something happened out at Reese’s. What’s going on? How come no one called me?”

Standing in front of her open locker, Allie shot a look over her shoulder. She’d already changed into her jeans and, except for her scanty black lace bra, was bare from the waist up. She saw Bri’s gaze drop and laughed. “Eyes up, Parker.”

Bri blushed. “Sorry. Reflex.”

“Yeah yeah.” Allie slipped into a tight, scoop-necked black top and tucked it into her jeans, then pulled on her black cowboy boots.

“Tory walked in on someone in the house. She’s fine. And I didn’t call you because I took the call and you weren’t on duty. I handled it.”

“Jesus, Allie. It’s Reese and Tory!”

Allie patted Bri’s chest. “I know, baby. But I was going to call you when you came on shift and fill you in. There wasn’t anything for you to do.”

“You think I should go out there?” Bri paced in a small tight circle, her hands jammed into the pockets of her low-slung black jeans.

“No. Strope and I checked the whole neighborhood. It looks like someone might’ve been squatting in the house right next door. We did a quick check inside when I found the back door unlocked, and there was fresh trash in the kitchen. And someone had probably been sleeping in the living room.” Allie pulled a black leather bag out of her locker and slid her holstered weapon into it. “Nothing to identify who it might’ve been. We stayed while Reese checked through their house again, and she didn’t come up with anything.”

“It doesn’t feel right,” Bri muttered. “Just doing nothing.”

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Allie straddled the narrow wooden bench between the lockers and propped her bag against her leg. Bri sat down facing her, their knees touching.

“I don’t like it either,” Allie said softly. “The whole thing just feels creepy.” She rested her hand on Bri’s thigh. “But there really wasn’t anything for you to do, and I didn’t think Reese and Tory needed all of us showing up at their house.”

“I’ll do some extra drive-bys tonight,” Bri said.

“Good. I figured you would.” Allie grinned. “You’ve got an awesome hickey on your neck, by the way. I guess you probably know that.”

Bri tried to frown while rubbing the sore spot, but her smile came off self-satisfied. “Well, I had the afternoon off.”

“Yeah, well,” Allie said, squelching a surge of envy, and maybe a little jealousy. “Maybe I’ll get lucky tonight. I’m on my way to the Pied to meet Flynn.”

“That was fast!”

“We ran into each other at Reese and Tory’s.” She stood and lightly swatted Bri’s shoulder. “Don’t be giving me that look. We’re just having a drink. And then, if…” She shrugged. “We’re both legal.

And I haven’t had any since Deo, and that was weeks and weeks ago.”

“Well, it’s not like it’s a terminal illness or anything.”

“Oh yeah, like you go what…more than a day without it?”

Bri swung her leg over the bench and straightened up. “That’s different. I’m married.”

“You’re supposed to get less when you get married.”

“Says who?”

“Says everyone. That’s why I prefer variety.”

“Just be careful, okay?”

Allie frowned at her. “What do you mean, be careful? You know I don’t go in for drugs or anything like—”

“That’s not what I’m saying.” Bri placed her fingertips gently on Allie’s chest, at the top of her left breast. “I’m talking about this, Al.

About getting hurt in here.”

“Don’t,” Allie said softly. “Don’t get all sweet and gentle on me.

It makes me want to kiss you.”

Bri snorted and shook her head. “Jesus, you make me crazy.”

“I can’t help the way I am, especially when you pull that fierce

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butch stuff. It just does something to me.” Allie smiled tremulously.

“It’s just a date. Nothing to worry about. Promise.”

“Okay. Look, I’m sorry.” Bri shrugged. “I just… Well, you know, with Ash in town and—”

“Walker has nothing to do with anything,” Allie said curtly.

“Nothing at all.” She ruffled Bri’s hair and strode toward the door. “I gotta go. Flynn is really hot, and I don’t want to keep her waiting.”

“Yeah, right. I hear you.” Bri turned and watched the door swing closed behind Allie. She might have believed her, except she’d seen the hurt skate across Allie’s face at the mention of Ash’s name.

v

He watched her turn the sign in the window of the shop door to Closed. When she came out and turned right to walk down Commercial Street, he fell in behind her.

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Do you need more ice on that?” Reese repositioned the pillow under Tory’s ankle.

“No, it feels much better now.” Tory took in Reese in her faded regulation-green boxers and T-shirt. The shrapnel wound on her leg and the burn scars on her arm and shoulder were still red and angry. She’d gained back a little of the weight she’d lost while deployed, but she still appeared wraithlike in the dim light cast by the lamp on the far side of the room. Reese had been nothing but gentle and tender and attentive all evening, but she vibrated with a violent energy Tory knew she was struggling to hide. Tory patted the bed beside her. “Stretch out next to me.”

Reese frowned. “I thought I would make you some tea. Or maybe a glass of wine?”

Tory smiled. “Wine. In a few minutes.” She pushed the sheets down. “Come here, first.”

“I’m just going to keep you awake,” Reese muttered as she slipped under the covers. “You need to rest and I’m not tire—”

“I’m going to sleep like a baby tonight, I promise.” Tory traced Reese’s lower lip with her index finger, then leaned over and kissed her.

In the middle of the kiss, she worked her hand underneath the bottom of Reese’s T-shirt and caressed her abdomen. The skin felt stapled to the ridges of muscle underneath, stretched tight and humming with tension. She flicked her tongue over Reese’s lip and murmured against her mouth, “But first, I have unfinished business.”

“Tory,” Reese groaned, partly in frustration and partly with anticipation she couldn’t conceal. Tory knew her body better than she

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did herself. Tory knew what she needed, when she needed it, how she needed it—Tory knew what to do so her tension would ebb, her mind clear, and her dreams become comfort rather than torment. But not tonight. Tory had been taking care of her for months, although they both pretended otherwise. But not tonight. “You need to be careful of your leg.”

When Reese started to roll away, Tory slid her hand higher, between Reese’s breasts, and held her down. “You’d be surprised what I can do without moving very much at all.”

“No, I wouldn’t be.” Reese pulled Tory closer and kissed her again. “I know exactly how talented you are, but that still doesn’t mean I want you to wear yourself—”

“Sweetheart,” Tory said lightly, “shut up.”

Reese couldn’t answer because Tory was kissing her again, kissing her and massaging her chest, brushing her palm over her nipples, scraping her nails down the center of her abdomen and then stroking to smooth the thin trails of fire left behind. When Tory’s tongue plunged deeper into her mouth, Reese automatically lifted her hips, her thighs turning to iron.

“Be very good now,” Tory whispered as she drew back and leaned on one elbow, “and do exactly as I say.”

“Be careful.” Reese fixed on Tory’s gaze. In the yellow glow of the lamplight, Tory’s green eyes danced with flecks of gold, and although Reese was reminded of sparks escaping flames, she didn’t hear the roar of artillery or feel the scathing pain as fire consumed the earth. She saw strength and desire and safety. Here, in the one place only Tory could take her, she did not have to fight.

Tory skimmed her hand down the center of Reese’s body and underneath the waistband of her boxers. Reese arched and sucked in her breath. Smiling, Tory watched Reese’s face as she slowly and unerringly found her clitoris and began to stroke. “That’s right, darling.

Let me have you.”

“Tory,” Reese murmured, drifting on Tory’s smile. “You always have me.”

“Mmm. But not like this.” Tory nipped Reese’s chin. “Helpless.

At my mercy.” She squeezed and Reese hissed, her stomach muscles rippling under Tory’s forearm. “So hard and so hot.” She picked up speed and Reese’s breath followed suit, coming faster and harsher

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with each passing second. The muscles along the edge of Reese’s jaw bunched, and she groaned. An urgent warning. Instantly, Tory released her grip, cupping Reese in her palm as she claimed her mouth with another deep kiss.

Reese twisted on the bed, desperate for Tory to stroke her. Tory’s tongue danced over hers, teasing and tormenting. She throbbed under Tory’s hand, teetering on the edge. She grasped a handful of Tory’s hair and tugged Tory’s mouth away from hers. “Do it, baby. Please. Keep going.”

Tory’s vision wavered and arousal swept through her so brutally she couldn’t get enough air to talk. She loved this moment, when Reese needed her and only her for everything. Reese was hers, completely, just as she was Reese’s. “No. Not so soon.” She circled the slick, smooth prominence with just her fingertip, thrilling to the sight of Reese’s fierce blue eyes losing focus as pleasure stole through her. “Just me. Just feel me.” She kissed her, caressed her. “Mmm. Yes, like that.”

“You’re going to make me come,” Reese gasped.

Tory stopped.

“Oh Christ,” Reese moaned, her entire body stiff and quivering.

She clamped her hand around Tory’s wrist inside her boxers and tried to press Tory’s fingers where she needed them. “I can’t.”

“You can.” Tory kissed Reese’s damp temple, then her eyelids, then her mouth, infinitely tender. “Trust me. I know what you need.”

“Okay. Okay,” Reese said breathlessly. She forced herself to relax her grip on Tory’s arm. “Did I…hurt you?”

“Oh, sweetheart, no. Never.” Tory’s head pounded with the effort not to move, not to climb on top of her, not to push inside her. She pressed her forehead to Reese’s shoulder, shaking with need. “I want you so much.”

Reese wrapped her arm around Tory’s shoulders and tried to turn her onto her back.

“No,” Tory said quickly. “No no no. You are not taking charge, Sheriff.”

“Let me please you.”

“You do.” Tory dipped into Reese’s wetness and massaged her clitoris. “This pleases me.”

Reese rocketed toward orgasm. Her hips bucked under Tory’s fingers. “Close to coming. Close. ”

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“Mmm. I feel it.” Tory sped up—circled, pressed, stroked and squeezed. She listened for the hitch in Reese’s breathing, waited for the sudden stiffness beneath her fingers, and then she stopped. Reese broke out in a sweat and moaned against Tory’s breasts. She started, she listened, she stopped. Again and again.

“Beautiful,” Tory breathed as Reese trembled in her arms. Reese was so close now her clitoris never softened, even when Tory stopped touching her. She took her hand away completely and caressed Reese’s abdomen. “I love you.”

“Please, I need you.”

“I need you.” Tory kissed her gently, a brush of lips, a soft caress of tongue and teeth. “I need you more than I will ever be able to show you. But I’ll try.” She slipped under Reese’s boxers again.

“This time,” Reese groaned when Tory resumed stroking. “Need to come this time. Please don’t stop this time, baby.”

Tory kissed her forehead and picked up speed. “All of it, darling.

Give me everything.”

Reese’s body bowed, her breath halted in her chest, and Tory took her surely and certainly to the edge, and beyond.

v

Bri cruised past Reese and Tory’s darkened house, slowing to check that no one loitered around the driveway or in the neighboring yards. “Everything looks quiet around here.”

“The guy is probably miles away by now,” Carter said to her new partner. Bri had been quiet since they’d met at the station house.

After a short briefing, Bri had palmed the keys to the cruiser on their way out, and Carter didn’t even consider asking to drive. Right now, her first night on the job, all of her experience meant nothing. Not in the delicate hierarchy of her new posting. She didn’t mind needing to earn her stripes, and she didn’t mind not driving. She preferred to ride shotgun because she could watch the streets more carefully. Given a choice, she’d rather walk the streets than ride them, but right now, she went where she was told.

“Yeah. It doesn’t make sense he was local,” Bri muttered, slowly heading west on Commercial. In the East End, the galleries and restaurants were all closed for the night. As they drew closer to

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MacMillan Wharf, activity picked up. More people on the street, making the rounds of the bars and clubs along Commercial and tucked away in narrow alleys. “You’d have to be crazy to break into the sheriff’s house!”

“Can’t rule out that possibility,” Carter said quietly. “Crazy, I mean.”

“Yeah. I hear that.”

“So what’s the routine?” Carter asked.

Bri shot her a glance and then looked back to the street. She was used to riding with Allie. They had a rhythm. They didn’t have to talk about what they’d do, how they’d handle a situation when they took the call, how the shift would spin out. Thinking about it now, she realized that she’d kind of fallen into the role of shift leader, not because Allie wasn’t capable, but because Allie really didn’t care who was in charge.

And that suited Bri fine. She couldn’t take any of that for granted with Carter, but it seemed as if Carter was handing her the ball. “We’ll cruise for a while if no calls come in, and then when the bars start to close, take a walk through town. Check for trouble.”

“Drunk and disorderlies?”

“We can always count on a few fistfights, some lewd and lascivious that’s so in-your-face we can’t ignore it. Once in a while a drunk gets rolled and we’ll need to get the EMTs out.”

“Much trouble with DUIs?”

Bri nodded. “Yeah. We’ll need to head out to Six when the ones who aren’t staying in town start heading back up Cape.”

“And there’s what, one other car out?”

“Smith and one of the seasonal guys—Girelli. They’ll mostly stick to the highway and out around the beaches. Since the storm, there hasn’t been much action out that way, but we’ve had problems with boats bringing drugs in.”

“For a sleepy little town, there’s a lot going on here,” Carter remarked.

Bri laughed and then quieted abruptly as the radio crackled.

“Charlie five, copy?” the officer manning the desk back at the station asked.

Carter grabbed the mic. “Charlie five, go ahead.”

“Auto burglary—parking lot at Bradford and Standish. Female motorist needs assistance.”

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“Charlie five, affirmative. Suspect in the vicinity?”

“Negative. Requested motorist wait with vehicle—break…”

“Go ahead.”

“Gray Lexus, Massachusetts license Victor Bravo three-sevenone.”

A lead weight dropped into Carter’s stomach. “That’s Rica’s car.”

Bri leaned forward, flipped on the sirens and light bar in one fluid motion, and floored the gas pedal.

v

Ash wasn’t sure why she’d come out to the Pied. She hadn’t had more than a few hours’ sleep a night in almost two weeks and had logged over ten thousand miles driving up and down the eastern seaboard from one devastated area to another. But sleep wasn’t what she wanted. Her head buzzed with stress and her skin tingled with restless energy, so she’d changed into a navy shirt and jeans and sought out the one place where she might find a diversion. She’d never been much of a drinker, but she seemed to be leaning on alcohol a lot lately to soothe her nerves and dull the constant low-level ache of loneliness that threatened to mushroom into the unrelenting pain of despair. When she thought about it, which she tried not to, the last eight months had been pretty much a blur. She worked as much as she could, until she was physically exhausted and mentally too weary to think about the direction her life had taken. When work wasn’t enough to keep her from questioning the decision she’d made, she tried to block out her unhappiness with transient trysts. Frantic couplings in no-name motels with women whose faces all ran together. There hadn’t even been much of that lately because she couldn’t muster enough interest to pretend she cared about the women she was with, and she couldn’t tolerate the self-loathing in the morning. Even a one-night stand deserved to be seen.

“Is this seat taken?”

Ash looked up from her beer at the slight, curvaceous blonde in the very short skirt and low, tight top who stood with one hip canted and a smoldering look on her face that said she knew exactly how sexy she was. She had to be a dozen years younger than Ash, if not more,

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and the irony was not lost on her. The same twelve years separated her and Allie. Shaking her head, Ash said, “The seat’s free, but you don’t want to sit here.”

Surprise flashed across the blonde’s delicate features and she tapped one manicured nail on the tabletop. “What makes you think so?”

“I’m halfway drunk and I can’t offer anything except a quick fuck and good-bye in the morning.”

Laughing, the blonde pulled out a chair and sat down. She was braless and when she leaned toward Ash her pert round breasts swayed invitingly. “So you think you’ve got it all figured out? What makes you think I want any kind of fuck?”

“My apologies.” Ash lifted her beer bottle and when the woman reached out to take it away, she let her. “I’m afraid my conversational skills are impaired at the moment as well.”

“What about a dance? Can you manage that?”

Ash frowned and focused on the music. “If it doesn’t get any faster.”

“If it does, we’ll pretend we don’t notice. My name is Lisa.”

“Ash. Ash Walker.”

Lisa stood and held out her hand. “Then come along, Ash Walker, and dance with me.”

v

Allie waved to the women on the door at the Pied and some of the locals she knew as she made her way through the late-night crowd toward the bar. She hadn’t been out in weeks. The last woman she’d dated had gone and fallen in love with someone else. As every weekend rolled around, she’d kept telling herself she’d go out, relax, find a woman to play with for a few days or a few weeks, but she hadn’t.

She’d always found something else she needed to do that kept her from spending a night with a stranger. And before those few weeks with Deo Camara, who was the first woman since Ash she’d thought she might be able to get serious about, she hadn’t been to bed with anyone for a few months. So to say the last six months had been a dry spell was an understatement. She was twenty-three years old and she liked sex, and

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even more than that, she liked to wake up to the feel of a woman in her arms. She was lonely and she was horny, and she was tired of being both.

Flynn was easy to pick out, leaning against the bar. She wasn’t wearing her navy blue EMT jumpsuit now. Taller than Allie by a head, with her thick blond hair slicked back from her strong, bold face, she looked lean and sexy in tight black pants, a white open-collared shirt, and black motorcycle boots.

“Wow. You look hot,” Allie said as she sidled up next to Flynn.

Grinning, Flynn ducked her head and kissed Allie’s cheek. Her gaze drifted down Allie’s body, taking in the rich fall of ebony hair, the full breasts straining against the stretchy top, and the hiphugger jeans accentuating a tight round butt. “And you look gorgeous.”

“Thank you.” Allie smiled and waved at the bartender. “Sammy!

Draft?”

“Got ya covered, baby,” the husky dyke called back. “One minute.”

“So how was the rest of your night?” Flynn asked.

“Quiet.” Allie paid for her beer and took a sip. “You?”

“A couple of minor callouts. Nothing serious.”

Allie liked the way Flynn leaned with one elbow on the bar, her eyes fixed on Allie’s face, as if they were alone together and not in the middle of a packed bar. “Where are you from?”

Flynn looked momentarily taken aback, as if the question had thrown her somehow. Then she quickly said, “Chicago.”

“This place must seem like a big change,” Allie said lightly, having noticed Flynn’s hesitation. Okay, so she didn’t want to talk about her past. Fair enough.

“Yeah.” A look of relief tinged with sadness passed over Flynn’s handsome features. “I’ve only been here a few weeks, but it already feels like home.”

“I know what you mean.” Allie ran her fingers down Flynn’s arm and squeezed her hand. “I hope that means you’ll be staying.”

“Don’t worry,” Flynn replied, the mischievous light returning to her eyes. “Now that I’ve gotten your attention, you won’t get rid of me so easily.”

Allie laughed, enjoying the flirtation. “Believe me, you’ve had my attention all along.”

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Flynn eased a little closer and settled one hand on Allie’s hip. She ducked her head and whispered in Allie’s ear, “Well then, I want to be sure to keep it.”

“You’re doing pretty good so far.” The pressure of Flynn’s hand on her hip, the tease of warm breath in her ear, stirred a tingle of excitement low in Allie’s belly. She tilted her head just a little to bare her neck to Flynn’s mouth. Flynn’s lips were so close she could almost feel the kiss about to drop onto her skin. Enjoying the pleasant anticipation, she let her gaze drift over Flynn’s shoulder out to the dance floor, and thought she glimpsed a familiar face. She blinked, not quite believing, as Ash’s face came into sharp focus.

Flynn kissed her neck and murmured, “How about now? Still good?”

Allie wanted to look away but she couldn’t. Ash stared into Allie’s eyes, her mouth twisting sardonically. Then Ash buried her face in the neck of the slinky blonde who was plastered against her body, her hands sliding down to cup the woman’s ass.

“Even better,” Allie said, her voice sounding flat to her own ears.

She tugged on Flynn’s hand. “Let’s get out of here.”

Flynn lifted her head, clearly surprised, but she smiled and let Allie pull her hurriedly through the crowd and out into the street.

v

“There she is!” Carter pointed to Rica standing next to her Lexus, parked halfway down the outer row of cars. The huge parking lot was separated from the street by a thicket of trees. Despite the late hour, the lot was still half full, but the attendant’s booth was at the far end, around a bend. The section where Rica had parked was isolated, and the street lamps, mounted on poles every thirty feet or so, left substantial areas in darkness.

“Man, this place is a setup for robberies and assaults,” Carter said, bolting from the cruiser before Bri had even pulled to a stop. She reached Rica in three long strides and slipped an arm around Rica’s waist. Hustling her back to the cruiser, she pulled open the rear door.

“Wait inside, babe.”

“Carter,” Rica began, but Carter just shook her head, guided her into the vehicle, and closed the door.

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Bri came around the front of the cruiser and together they approached Rica’s car. Carter scanned the lot but saw no sign of anyone else. The driver’s side window of the Lexus was smashed, glass littering the ground.

“The perp was most likely gone by the time she got here,” Carter said, her mouth dry and her stomach twisting. “Christ, if she’d walked up on him—”

“It was probably a smash and grab,” Bri said, shining her Maglite into the front seat. “Radio’s still there. We’ll need to find out if she left something in the car.”

“Maybe, but Rica is usually careful.” Carter took a breath, clearing her head. “We should walk around, see if any of the other cars have been broken into.”

“You take the back half, I’ll canvass up here,” Bri said. “Check back with me in five.”

“Got it.”

They separated, slowly wending their way up and down the rows of cars.

v

He’d checked his watch when she’d discovered her car and made a call on her cell phone. Less than three minutes passed before the police had arrived. He could accomplish a lot in three minutes. There was plenty of light for him to make a body shot. Even a head shot, although he didn’t think they were wearing vests. Not in this town, not for routine patrols. And of course, she was completely unprotected.

Vulnerable to anything he wanted. Just like all of them. He slid his fingers over the smooth length of the knife in his pocket. Of course, if he got close to her, he could get much more personal. Much more.

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chapteR seven

When the music switched to a faster tempo, Ash started to pull back, but Lisa tightened her arms around Ash’s neck and murmured, “No, I like your hands on my ass.”

“Sorry,” Ash murmured, realizing she’d been blatantly feeling Lisa up on the dance floor. And the reason she’d done it had nothing to do with Lisa. She’d been dancing with Lisa but watching Allie. Watching Allie flirt and play with a good-looking butch her own age. Just exactly what Ash had told her she should do. Except when Allie had tilted her head back so the woman could kiss her neck, Ash had tried to block the hard pain by fondling the woman in her arms. Not a response she was proud of. She jerked her hands back up to the center of Lisa’s back and repeated, “Sorry.”

“Baby, I just told you I liked it.” Lisa undulated seductively. “You can put your hands anywhere you want.”

Ash tried to lose herself in the kind of mindless arousal that didn’t really work for her even when she wasn’t thinking of Allie. Now she couldn’t think of anything else. Lisa was a few inches shorter than Allie and fuller breasted, and although her body was tantalizing, she didn’t fit in Ash’s arms the way Allie had. Allie. Allie apparently didn’t have any problems fitting into someone else’s embrace. Ash could still see the way Allie offered her neck, that smooth ivory column that was so responsive to a kiss or the scrape of teeth, to the stranger. The stranger who’d left the bar with Allie. The stranger who was probably kissing that neck right now, sliding her hands under the tight skimpy top that had displayed Allie’s ripe young breasts so teasingly. Caressing her,

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making her whimper softly, plaintively, the way she did when she was getting excited…

“Fuck,” Ash whispered, not intending to speak out loud.

“I was thinking the same thing.” Lisa leaned back in Ash’s arms and rolled her pelvis against Ash’s. Her eyes were liquid, her lids heavy, as her gaze drifted over Ash’s face and came to rest on her mouth. “Are you as ready as I am?”

Ash gripped her ass again and, under cover of the darkened dance floor, pumped her crotch once, hard, into Lisa’s. “What do you think?”

“Oh yeah.” Lisa flicked her tongue over her full lower lip. “I think you’re ready. I think you’d love to put your mouth on my—”

“Come on,” Ash said gruffly. “Where are you staying?”

“With two other girls at the Boatslip.” Lisa grabbed her purse from the chair at their table while Ash downed the rest of her beer.

“Are they going to be home?” Ash held Lisa’s drink out to her, and when Lisa shook her head, she finished that too. She could tell from the hungry look in Lisa’s eyes it was going to be a long night.

“They won’t be back for quite a while, and I’ve got the single bedroom.” She smiled and tugged on Ash’s fly. “But I don’t mind a crowd if you don’t.”

Ash grinned grimly. “Maybe some other night.”

Right now, all she wanted was to get rid of the movie playing inexorably in her head, one starring Allie. First she saw herself making Allie scream with pleasure, only to be replaced by an image of the muscular blonde, her mouth at Allie’s breast, her hand between Allie’s legs. A sharp pain shot through Ash’s head and she gritted her teeth.

Swiftly, she grabbed Lisa’s arm, jerked her close and kissed her, willing the heat of Lisa’s mouth and the lush pliancy of her body to burn the unwanted pictures from her brain.

v

“We’ll follow you home,” Carter said to Rica after she and Bri had checked the parking lot and found nothing else amiss. She wasn’t sure how to interpret the absence of any other breakins. In crimes of opportunity, the perpetrators wanted to get as much merchandise as they could, so more than one vehicle was usually targeted. But only

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Rica’s Lexus appeared to have been vandalized, and Carter wondered uneasily if her car had been singled out intentionally.

“You don’t need to do that,” Rica said quietly. “I’m fine. It’s only a mile.”

Carter shook her head. “No. I want to be sure there’s no further problem.”

What she didn’t say was she wanted to check the house. There was no reason at all to think that Rica was in danger, but Rica was not an ordinary woman. She was the daughter of one of the most powerful organized crime figures in the country, and even though Rica steadfastly repudiated her heritage, she could not deny it. She was her father’s daughter, and as such she was a potential target for men who might want to influence or retaliate against him. Pareto had pulled back Rica’s bodyguards at Rica’s insistence, and although Carter was glad, right now she wished one of them were around.

Bri joined them by the side of the cruiser. “Was there anything lying in plain view on the front seat or the floor?”

Rica shook her head. “No. Nothing. I never leave anything of value visible.”

“I checked under the dash,” Bri said, “and I didn’t see any sign that the wiring had been tampered with. No one hotwired it in an attempt to steal it. The sound system connections are all intact. Looks like the broken window is the only damage.” Bri glanced at Carter and hooked one thumb over her gun belt before focusing on Rica again. “Have you had a run-in with anyone lately? An irritated customer, maybe?”

“No, no one,” Rica said quickly. “Why?”

Carter cleared her throat and Bri said immediately, “Just running the list of possibilities.”

“Oh, bullshit,” Rica said irritably. “Don’t you two pull that cop stuff on me. You think someone was trying to send me a message? A warning of some kind?”

“It’s possible,” Bri said. “And it’s just as possible this was a completely random act. Plenty of kids get drunk and show off for their friends. Someone may have just tossed a rock at the window to prove how bad they are.”

Carter took Rica’s hand. “Right now there’s no reason to think it’s anything more than what Bri just said. But be careful, okay? If you notice anything at any time that seems the least bit off, call me.”

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“I will, baby,” Rica murmured. “Right now, I just want to go home.”

As they followed Rica’s Lexus down Bradford, Carter automatically checked for a tail. A single car followed at a distance but turned off before they reached their street. Rica would probably say Carter’s years undercover had made her paranoid, but being paranoid was what had kept her alive.

“You don’t think her car being hit was an accident?” Bri asked.

“I don’t know.”

“I don’t like the feel of it.”

“No,” Carter said. “Neither do I.”

v

He waited, watching, until the police cruiser followed the Lexus out of the parking lot. It was late, well after midnight, but he wasn’t tired. He felt invigorated. So many choices. He could follow her home.

She’d be alone for the rest of the night. He could watch her undressing through the windows, from the safety of the dunes. He could slip in through an unlocked window or an unattended patio door. He might be able to see her through the misty glass of the shower doors or watch her sleep with moonlight slanting across her face. Or he might visit one of the others. Which one would be first? Whistling, he made his way down the narrow twisting streets to Commercial Street and imagined all the possibilities. Finally he was in charge.

v

Allie moaned quietly, clutching Flynn’s shoulders as Flynn leaned over her, pressing her back into the soft sofa cushions. Allie had guessed from Flynn’s slightly cocky manner and to-die-for-body that she would be good at this, and she hadn’t been wrong. Flynn really, really knew her way around a woman. Right now, Flynn was doing an awesome job of kissing her. Flynn’s second-story, one-bedroom apartment faced the harbor in the far West End. The sofa, where they were currently entangled, sat in front of double sliding glass doors, which were open to the cool early-September breeze. The air outside could have been frigid for all the effect it had on her, because Flynn was stoking her

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fires like no one had done in far too long. God, Flynn’s tongue felt good playing inside her mouth, making her tingle and tighten in so many places at once she couldn’t think of anything else. She couldn’t think.

She couldn’t remember. She couldn’t ache for what she didn’t have.

This was good. This was so good. This was good enough.

Allie grabbed the back of Flynn’s shirt and yanked it out of her jeans, then dipped a hand under the waistband. Her whole body tensed when she encountered nothing but bare skin, and she dug her fingers into the hard muscle. Flynn groaned and worked a thigh between Allie’s legs. Allie whimpered with the sudden pressure.

“You’re so hot,” Flynn muttered, massaging Allie’s breast through her top. “You’re making me crazy.”

“Good.” Allie arched beneath her and gripped her ass even harder. Flynn pushed her hand under Allie’s clothes and palmed her breast. Flynn’s fingers were dry and warm, and Allie’s breasts ached wonderfully as Flynn worked her way back and forth between them, fondling and massaging. “Yeah, really good.”

“Want you so bad,” Flynn groaned.

“Then kiss me.” Allie dragged Flynn back down and opened her mouth to pull her in. Flynn shifted fully on top of her, punctuating each thrust of her tongue with a hard hip pump. Allie opened her legs wider.

Dry humping had never gotten her off, but the way she felt right now, so desperate to let go of the last fragments of awareness, so frantic for just a few minutes of pleasure, of not hurting, she thought she might come. God, she would explode if Ash would just squeeze her nipple a little harder, the way she liked it. The way she always did when she wanted to make her come. She murmured breathlessly, “Please…” Ash, please… Ash.

Allie jerked back into the moment and felt every ounce of blood drain from her head. She pulled out of the kiss, turning her face away.

Gasping, she said, “Wait, please.”

Flynn went rigid. After a few seconds of silence, she eased some of her weight off Allie’s body, bracing herself on her arms with their lower bodies still touching. “Allie?”

“Oh my God, Flynn. I’m so sorry. I…I just…” Allie took a shuddering breath. What the hell was happening? She’d been about ten seconds away from an awesome orgasm. This had never happened before. Not that long ago she’d made love with Deo, more than once,

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and she’d been fine. All systems go. She hadn’t had the slightest problem coming, and she hadn’t thought of Ash once. Not really. All right, maybe sometimes, but never when she’d been with Deo. Well, never when Deo had been making love to her at least. Flynn was an amazing lover. Flynn had been making her feel terrific. Flynn had been about to make her come. “I don’t know what happened.”

Liar. You do know what happened. God damn it. She doesn’t want you. Stop thinking of her!

“It’s okay.” Flynn, breathing hard, rolled off until they were half sitting up, side by side on the sofa. She stroked a few strands of hair off Allie’s cheek. Her eyes glittered in the moonlight, and her smile seemed a little rueful. “We might’ve been moving a little fast. I kinda lost it there.”

Allie threaded her fingers through Flynn’s and held their joined hands in her lap. “Believe me, I was right there with you.” She laughed and shook her head. “Actually, I was probably a little ahead of you.”

“I thought you were going to come,” Flynn murmured quietly.

Allie’s face flamed hot. “You’re pretty amazing. I was really worked up.”

“Yeah, me too.”

“Oh God, I’m sorry. You must think I’m an enormous tease.” Allie thought of how many times Bri had accused her of being a tease. She was a tease, sometimes. Sometimes teasing girls was just a form of foreplay. But nothing about what had just happened was intentional.

“I’m sorry.”

Flynn straightened and turned so their eyes met. “Allie! Don’t be crazy. I meant it when I said maybe we were fast-forwarding a little too much. It’s our first date, and…” She shrugged. “I’d been thinking about you ever since we ran into each other earlier, so I was pretty revved up when you walked into the bar. And then you just looked so hot and you felt so good, and I stopped thinking about anything except… Well, you know. But I don’t usually have sex with a woman the first time we hook up.”

I do, Allie wanted to say, because it was true. Most of the last year at least, when she’d gone out at all, the only thing she’d wanted from a woman had been hard, hot sex and as much of it as she could get.

But she didn’t say it because she didn’t want Flynn to think that’s what tonight had been all about. Maybe it had been mostly about sex, right

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up until a few minutes ago. But it wasn’t about that anymore. Flynn was nice. Too nice to just be a convenient mouth and pair of hands.

“I think this might be the most insane thing to ever come out of my mouth,” Allie said, “but would you mind if we just took things a little slower for a while?”

“So does that mean I get another date?”

A date. Allie thought about that. Flynn was gorgeous. Flynn was smart and funny. Flynn had amazing hands and an incredible mouth and a killer body. Well, duh. Allie kissed her, and Flynn’s tongue skating over hers was like a power surge electrifying every atom in her body.

She pulled back before she short-circuited completely. “Yes. Definitely, yes.”

Flynn grinned and pulled her to her feet. “Come on, I’ll walk you to your car.”

“That’s probably a good idea.” Allie wrapped her arm around Flynn’s waist. “Because believe me, restraint is not my strong suit.”

“You won’t hear me complaining.”

Allie laughed, strangely relieved to be going home, even though she still wasn’t sure why she was saying no. Maybe it was because as she and Flynn walked hand in hand down the dark quiet streets, she kept wondering where Ash was, and with whom.

v

“Oh baby,” the blonde panted as Ash worked her nipple roughly between her teeth, “you’re going to make me come. You’re going to make me come.”

Again. The woman didn’t quit, and Ash didn’t want her to, driving her with her mouth and her hands and her tongue and her teeth from one peak to the next. She wanted to make her come, needed to make her come, desperate for her cries of ecstasy to block out the sounds of another woman’s climax from her consciousness. Still, despite the pain of nails raking down her back and teeth sinking into the muscles at the base of her neck, she couldn’t obliterate the pictures, couldn’t erase the memories. She groaned and pushed her hand deeper, thrust harder and faster.

“That’s it. That’s it! Here I go again. Oh God!”

Ash squeezed her eyes shut, unable to endure the chasm that

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threatened to swallow her up when she stared into a stranger’s eyes.

During a moment when she should have felt most connected, she felt nothing. Empty. Adrift. Lost. Her muscles quivered with unrelieved tension, her head ached, her heart pounded so hard her chest hurt.

When the woman…Linda…Laurie…Lisa…tugged weakly at her jeans and murmured, “Take these off so I can do you too, baby,” Ash thumbed the woman’s still pulsating clit to distract her. Lisa writhed under her and went back to chewing on her neck. After a few more pumps, Lisa forgot all about pleasuring Ash, which was exactly what Ash wanted.

“Fuck me, baby. Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me!”

Ash did, until the woman finally stopped coming and just drifted off into an exhausted sleep. Trembling, Ash sat on the side of the bed until her legs would hold her. Then she found her shirt on the floor, missing a couple of buttons, and pulled it on. She still had her boots and jeans on, and after checking to make sure she had her wallet, she let herself out. As she stumbled home, exhausted and a little high, she became aware of the uncomfortable pressure in her groin and the painful press of her swollen clitoris against the rough denim. She didn’t know how long she’d been with the blonde—hours, she thought. She hadn’t come once. Hadn’t wanted to. She knew if she went home and tried to come, she wouldn’t be able to. If she was lucky, a shot or two of whiskey would let her sleep. And if she couldn’t sleep, it was only a few hours until morning.

Morning. And she’d see Allie again. For the first time since she’d left the bar, she felt something besides numb. And no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t kill the sweet surge of anticipation.

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chapteR eight

Alittle after five a.m., Reese slipped out of bed, grabbed her clothes, and carried them downstairs to shower and dress in the guest bathroom so she wouldn’t wake Tory. Then she settled on a stool at the breakfast counter and called the station house.

“It’s Reese. Is Officer Wayne there?”

“They just came in a few minutes ago, Sheriff,” Smith said. “Hey, Carter. Phone for you.”

“Hello?” Carter said.

“Carter, it’s Reese. I need you to run a check on an inmate—

William Everly. He should be doing time at Cedar Junction. If he’s out, get me his last known address and a number for his parole officer.”

“On it.”

“And, Carter, keep it quiet for now.”

“Yes ma’am.”

“I’ll be in for shift change. Anything I need to know now?”

“Nothing I can put my finger on, but…”

When Carter hesitated, Reese said, “Trust your gut, Carter.”

Carter sighed. “Rica’s car was broken into in the lot on Bradford last night.”

“Is she okay?”

“Yes. There was no one there by the time she found it.”

“You don’t figure it was random.”

“I don’t know,” Carter said. “That’s what’s bugging me.”

“I’ll put some extra cars in your neighborhood and make sure street patrol checks Rica’s gallery frequently.”

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“Thanks. I’ll get on this other thing right away.”

“Good. I’ll check with you when I get in.” Reese disconnected and swiveled around at the sound of footsteps behind her.

Tory, barefoot except for her ankle brace and wearing only a thigh-length pale green sleep shirt, slid between Reese’s legs and wrapped her arms around Reese’s waist. She kissed the corner of her mouth and said, “Good morning, darling. You’re up awfully early.”

“And you should still be asleep. How’s your leg?”

“I’ve got some numbness on the side of my foot. More annoying than any kind of functional problem.” Tory sighed. “It’s from the swelling, which is pretty bad. I’ll need to elevate it as much as I can.”

Reese raised an eyebrow. “You don’t usually admit it when anything’s bothering you this much.”

“You’d see it. You’d know.” Tory rested her cheek against Reese’s shoulder. “And I can hardly expect you to come clean with me if I don’t do the same.”

“Can you stay home today?”

Tory shook her head silently.

Reese closed her eyes and breathed in Tory’s scent, a combination of coconut and fresh salt air. “Half a day?”

“Maybe. I’ll try.” Tory leaned back, searching Reese’s face. She looked tired. “What about you? You didn’t get much sleep last night.”

“Yeah, but I had a hell of a bedtime sedative.”

Tory laughed. “Mmm, that was nice.” She kissed Reese again. “In fact, now that I think of it, we’ve got time for a repeat.”

“I’m already dressed for work!”

“That’s what buttons are for, darling,” Tory said, swiftly opening Reese’s uniform shirt. “They open and close so you can take your shirt off and put it back on again.”

Reese slid her hands up the back of Tory’s thighs and underneath the lower edge of her sleep shirt, encountering bare skin all the way up to her ass. She groaned and pulled Tory tighter into her crotch. “Love, I really need to go to work.”

Tory slid her hand inside Reese’s shirt and toyed with her nipple through her undershirt. “I know what time your day starts. They don’t need you right away.”

“I’ve got Carter running a check for me on the guy who assaulted Bri. I need to meet her before shift change.”

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“You think it was him last night?” Tory slipped her hand out of Reese’s shirt.

“I don’t even know if he’s been released yet. Just covering the bases. If he is out, I want to know about it. I don’t want Bri and Caroline becoming targets.”

“Or you. He has every reason to go after you, but, of course, you’ll worry about everyone except you,” Tory said with an edge.

Reese had been home from Iraq for less than half a year. While she’d been deployed, she’d nearly died. Tory tried not to think about that. She tried very hard to erase the utter desolation she’d felt during the days when she hadn’t known if Reese was ever coming home. She’d mostly learned to live with the inherent danger of Reese’s job, but the fear still rode close to the surface. Especially when she was reminded that Reese never put her own safety before that of others.

“Hey, hey! Love, we’re getting way ahead of ourselves.” Reese ran her hands up and down Tory’s back, soothing caresses meant to calm rather than excite. She kept it up until she felt Tory relax. “One step at a time, okay?”

Tory nodded and pressed her face to Reese’s neck. “There’s something I need to tell you. I was going to do it last night, but then…”

She sighed. “I know how much work there is to be done in the next few weeks with the recovery in town, and now with this…who knows when we’ll ever have time to ourselves.”

Reese’s heart jumped into overdrive. “Is something wrong? What’s the matter?”

“Nothing. Darling, nothing’s the matter.” Tory caressed the back of Reese’s neck and smiled. “I want to have another baby.”

“Another…” Reese’s head pounded and her vision dimmed, the way it had in the middle of the firefight in the desert, the way it had last night when Tory had called her on the phone and said there was someone in the house…

“Reese,” Tory said gently. “Reese, how do you feel right now?”

Shuddering and trying to hide it, Reese forced a smile. “Just surprised.”

“No. Something else.” Tory took Reese’s hand. “Come sit down and tell me what just happened.”

Reese shook her head. “It’s nothing. I’m all right.”

Tory stroked Reese’s cheek. “Do not do this. I’m a doctor, Reese,

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but anyone could have seen you turn pale and your pupils dilate. Right now, you’re shaking. Tell me how you feel.”

“I’m okay now,” Reese said. “For just a second, maybe two, there was a roaring in my head and I couldn’t focus, couldn’t hear. Goes away really fast if I just hang on for a few seconds.”

“How often?” Tory asked, ignoring the churning in her stomach, keeping her voice level and quiet. “How often has it happened?”

Reese shrugged. “I don’t really know. Just a couple of times in the last few weeks. Before that, nothing felt right, so I can’t even remember if it was happening then.” She gripped Tory’s hand. “Look, I’m okay. It was just a second. Let’s talk about you and us and another baby.”

“Has it happened on the job?”

“No,” Reese said quickly.

“I want you to come in for a physical. Today.”

Reese grimaced. “Tory, I don’t have time—”

“Do it today, Reese, or I’ll rescind your medical release to return to active duty.”

“Jesus, Tory.” Reese rubbed her forehead. “You wouldn’t—”

“I would. I’d do anything to protect you.” Tory turned abruptly, but Reese still held her hand and she couldn’t escape. She didn’t want Reese to see her fear. Or her anger.

“I wasn’t intentionally keeping anything from you. I just didn’t think it was important.”

“No, when it’s about you, you never do.”

“That’s not fair, Tor,” Reese said quietly. She stood and gently gripped Tory’s shoulders. “I’m trying.”

Tory spun back around and slid her arms behind Reese’s neck.

“I know, darling. I know you are. I’m sorry. Sometimes, I just get scared.”

“I’m sorry too. For ever making you frightened.”

“Shh.” Tory kissed the base of Reese’s throat, then her neck, then the corner of her mouth. “It’s not your fault. I love you. You can’t possibly know how much.”

“I do, love. I do know.” Reese kissed Tory, a deep lingering kiss.

“I’ll come by the clinic as soon as I can get away today, okay?”

“Thank you,” Tory murmured against Reese’s mouth, the kiss filling her with warmth and calm.

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“About the other thing—”

Tory pressed her fingers to Reese’s lips. “We’ll talk about it later.”

Reese frowned. “No, Tor, this is important. If you—”

“Later.” Tory leaned against Reese. “I think I need to get off my leg. Will you help me up the stairs?”

“I’ll do more than that. Put your arms around my neck.”

“I think carrying me up the stairs once this week is enough.”

Reese laughed. “I don’t get enough exercise behind the desk. Hold on to me.”

And because she needed her, because she needed to feel surrounded by Reese’s solid strength and unwavering love, Tory let herself be carried. Talk of another child would need to wait. Right now, all she cared about was finding the cause of Reese’s symptoms.

v

Carter cruised through her neighborhood a little after seven thirty, noting that many of the early-morning joggers were absent. She didn’t recognize half of the cars and vans parked on her own street. Most of the unfamiliar vehicles were probably those of workmen who had come from up Cape or inland to start repairs on damaged homes. Determining who belonged and who didn’t was impossible. Still, she took her time, working street by street, looking for anything or anyone out of place.

At eight o’clock, she pulled into the driveway in front of Rica’s hilltop home, their home now. Surrounded on three sides by pine and beech trees, the house commanded a sweeping view across protected wetlands and dunes to Herring Cove. Rica’s Lexus was in the garage, and when Carter walked through to the spacious eat-in kitchen, she heard Rica talking on the phone outside on the deck.

“I need you to tell me the truth, Papa,” Rica said, leaning against the railing. Her hair was loose, still damp from the shower, and she wore only the short black silk robe that Carter loved to slowly take off her. “No one?”

Carter halted, not wanting to eavesdrop. Rica had spent her whole life struggling to reconcile her love for her father with her repulsion for his “business.” She and her father rarely spoke of it directly, but their

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relationship had been even more strained since Rica became involved with Carter. Alfonse Pareto tolerated Carter, a cop, so close to the seat of his empire for only two reasons—he believed that Carter loved Rica and would protect her, and he knew that Rica would cut off all ties to her family if he attempted to keep them apart. Carter did not want to make Rica’s life any more difficult. She started to back out of the room just as Rica turned and saw her.

Rica waved Carter out onto the deck while listening to her father interrogate her as to why she wanted to know if he had assigned any of his men to shadow her. She wasn’t used to seeing Carter in a uniform.

The night before, Rica had been working late at the gallery and Carter had dropped by in her regulation khaki pants, tab-collar shirt, and dark tie before her shift. Rica had been sorely tempted to drag her into the back room and divest her of said uniform. Now she could, since she didn’t have to worry about making Carter late for work.

“I know you said you wouldn’t, Papa.” Rica slipped her arm around Carter’s waist and pulled her close. “But sometimes you change your mind and forget to tell me.”

At Carter’s raised eyebrows, Rica shook her head, rolled her eyes, and gave her a kiss. When Carter tugged her a little closer and nipped at her lower lip, Rica stifled a moan.

“I need to go, Papa. I have another call.”

“When will you be home for a visit, cara?”

“I don’t know. Soon.”

“I miss you,” Pareto said. “Ti amo.”

“I love you too, Papa.” Rica fumbled for the Off button, wrapped her free arm around Carter’s neck, and blindly set the phone down on the top of the railing. “Mmm, I missed you in bed last night.”

“Sorry,” Carter muttered, kissing her way up Rica’s neck to her ear. “I won’t have the night shift forever.”

“I think I might like you coming home in the morning when I’m all rested and you’re a little rumpled and tired. It’ll make it easy for me to have my way with you.”

“Like you don’t always.” Carter laughed and pulled Rica over to one of the cushioned lounge chairs. She tugged her down and wrapped her in her arms. “How’s your father?”

“The same.” Rica unbuckled Carter’s belt, pulled her shirt up, and caressed her abdomen. “How tired are you?”

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“Not tired at all.” Carter opened Rica’s robe and cupped Rica’s breast.

Rica murmured her approval and pressed closer, nibbling Carter’s ear. “I think I’d like it if you made love to me out here. I’ve been thinking about it since I woke up. I’m already wet.”

Carter groaned. “Are you?”

“Why don’t you see for yourself?” Rica flicked her tongue along the edge of Carter’s jaw, then kissed her. Carter smoothed her palm down Rica’s abdomen and caressed between her legs. Rica’s hips flexed and she whimpered softly against Carter’s mouth.

“Jesus,” Carter muttered. “Baby, you’re so ready.”

“Then don’t make me wait,” Rica said, breathing quickly, her dark eyes turning glassy as Carter stroked and stroked. “I think if you just go inside me, I’ll…”

Carter pushed deeper and filled her.

“…come,” Rica gasped, closing her eyes and burying her face against Carter’s neck. She quivered, her fingers trembling against Carter’s face as she came in long, undulating waves of exquisite pleasure.

“I love you, baby,” Carter whispered.

“I love you.” Rica sighed, melting bonelessly into the lean, hard planes of Carter’s body. “And I really love this uniform.”

Carter chuckled and ran her fingers through Rica’s silky hair. The midnight waves sparkled in the early morning sunlight. “You’re so beautiful, Rica. So beautiful.”

“I never thought I could be this happy.”

“Neither did I.” Carter closed her eyes and luxuriated in the unbelievable pleasure of having everything in her life she’d ever wanted. This woman, this one woman, was everything that mattered.

“In a few minutes I’ll be able to move again,” Rica murmured lazily. “So be patient. The other thing I’ve been thinking about since I woke up was you coming in my mouth.”

Carter jerked, the muscles in her stomach dancing. “Rica, baby.

You’re killing me.”

Rica smiled and ran her fingertips over Carter’s lips. “Good.”

“So are you going to tell me why you called your father first thing this morning?”

“I wondered when you’d ask me that.”

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“Did something happen?” Carter knew Rica would try to shield her from anything that might have to do with her father’s business. “I don’t need you to protect me.”

“No? But it’s all right for you to protect me?”

Carter sighed. “I didn’t mean it that way.”

“How did you mean it?”

“I’m not investigating your family—it’s not like it was when I was undercover before. Plus, Reese knows about your father. My job is not in danger because of your father’s business dealings, so you don’t have to keep things from me. That’s all I meant.”

Rica tucked her head under Carter’s chin and slid her hand under Carter’s shirt again. “I’m sorry. I know. It’s just, they hurt you the last time. I couldn’t stand it if—”

“Nothing is going to happen to me.” Carter caressed Rica’s face.

“If you called your father, you’re worried about something. What is it?”

“I got to thinking about the car last night. I know it was probably just some kids or something, but—on my way to the parking lot, I had this weird feeling. I forgot all about it until I got home.”

Carter tensed, then forced herself to relax. She didn’t want her worry to influence Rica. “What kind of weird feeling?”

“Like someone was…I don’t know…watching me, maybe.”

“Did you see anyone?”

“No, which is why I’m sure it’s just my imagination, but I thought maybe Papa had sent another one of his men to keep an eye on me. You know how he is.”

“What did he say?”

“He said he didn’t.”

“You believe him?” Carter didn’t trust Rica’s father, for many reasons. The don was not above lying to his daughter if he thought it was for her own good.

“I do. If I really thought he had men watching me, I wouldn’t have let you ravish me out here—even if only the seagulls could possibly see onto this deck.”

“What about the shop? Has anyone been in who seemed out of place? Someone who might have been inappropriate, pushed you to go out with them?”

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Rica laughed. “No. No! I would have told you.” She sat up and braced her hands on Carter’s shoulders. “I’m sorry I even brought it up. You’re going to worry, and there’s no reason to. I just had this…

feeling.”

“Sometimes it’s those kinds of feelings that keep us alive.”

“I’m not an undercover police officer, darling. I’m not in danger.”

Carter didn’t agree with her, but she wasn’t going to frighten her by enumerating all the reasons why someone might want to hurt her.

“Just promise me you’ll be careful, and tell me if you have any more of these feelings. Promise me that.”

“I promise.” Rica tipped her head and kissed Carter. “Now that I’ve regained my strength, it’s time to take you upstairs and put you to bed.” She kissed her again. “And I know just how to do it.”

Carter let Rica take her upstairs, but she put her weapon in the dresser next to the bed before she finally surrendered to Rica’s plans for her.

v

“You wanted to see me, Sheriff,” Bri said.

“Come on in and close the door.” Reese leaned against the front of her desk, her arms folded over her chest.

Bri carefully closed the door and stepped forward, unconsciously standing at attention.

“Relax, Bri,” Reese said softly.

“Is there a problem, Sheriff?” Bri didn’t know how to act. Reese was usually pretty cool and distant at work, the way a commander should be. But Reese was looking at her now with a kind of tenderness in her eyes that made her heart flutter a little bit and her stomach get queasy. Reese looked like something was hurting her. Something bad had to be wrong. “Is my dad—”

“No, Nelson is fine.” Reese clasped Bri’s shoulder. “William Everly is out. He was released on parole a little over a month ago. He hasn’t checked in with his parole officer for the last three weeks.”

Bri shivered, trying to process what Reese had just said. She hadn’t heard anything after his name. “I’m sorry. I…what did…” Bri

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felt Reese’s hand tighten on her shoulder, felt the warmth of her touch, and something deep inside her shifted, steadied, and she took a breath.

“Okay. He’s out and he’s gone off the grid. You think he’s here?”

“I don’t know. But we’re going to find out. He’s got family and friends and we’ll be checking with all of them.”

“Give me the list. I’ll check—”

“No,” Reese said. “You won’t be looking for him, Bri. I’ll do it with Tremont or Wayne. Not you. If he turns up, you stay away from him, understood?”

Bri stiffened. “You don’t think I can handle him?”

“I know you can handle him. But I don’t want you to have to handle him. That’s an order, Bri.”

“Why? Just tell me why?” Bri searched Reese’s face, needing to know that Reese trusted her. Believed in her.

“Because he hurt you and no amount of jail time will ever make up for that,” Reese said quietly. “And I don’t want you to have to choose between justice and your badge.”

“I think I understand,” Bri said, her voice cracking. “But just so you know, I’d choose the badge.”

Reese pulled her close and cradled the back of her head. “I believe you. I should probably tell you that if he went after you, I might kill him myself.”

Bri closed her eyes, letting herself be held by one of the only people in her life she trusted completely. “Okay, I won’t go looking for him. I don’t want you getting in trouble.”

Reese laughed quietly and stroked her hair before letting her go.

“Thanks.”

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chapteR nine

Allie watched Bri come out of Reese’s office and head down the hall to the locker room. Bri looked shaky, her eyes not quite focused. After a minute, Allie set aside the reports she was scanning and followed her into the locker room. Bri sat on the long narrow bench between two rows of lockers, her hands between her knees, staring at the floor. Allie sat down beside her, leaving an inch of space between them.

“You okay?” Allie asked.

“Yeah. Sure.” Bri grinned weakly. “Never better.”

“You in trouble with the boss?”

Bri shook her head.

“You want me to go?”

Bri hesitated. “No. Stay. Reese will probably brief you this morning anyhow.” She grimaced. “Hell, everyone will hear about it sooner or later.”

“Hear about what?” Allie rubbed Bri’s leg just above her knee.

Bri’s muscles tensed and jumped. She was really wired. “Bri? Honey?

What’s going on?”

Bri tried to figure out how to tell her what she’d never talked about to anyone except Caroline, and Reese and Tory. She’d been a lot younger when it had happened, and not as strong. William Everly had only been a few years older, but he’d been twice her size. She didn’t think about it much anymore, and it rattled her that just the mention of his name could throw her. She thought she was stronger than that. She had to be stronger than that. She was a cop now. And Caroline needed her to be strong.

“When Caroline and I were in high school, a guy stalked Caroline.

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Stalked us both, sort of. He figured she should be with him instead of me.” Bri laughed bitterly. “Most people did.”

“Not Caroline,” Allie whispered. “Smart girl.”

Bri laughed, a little of the tension draining away. “Crazy girl, maybe.”

Allie nudged her shoulder. “What happened?”

“He came after her one night, but he got me instead. He put me in the hospital.”

Allie fought down a wave of fury and steeled herself to the pain that instantly settled around her heart. She hurt for Bri, but her pain was far less then Bri’s. Bri needed to talk, and wouldn’t if she knew Allie was hurting. So Allie said with as much cool as she could fake, “How bad was it?”

“Could’ve been worse.” Bri gave Allie a fleeting smile, a shadow of her usual cocky grin. “He broke my jaw. Few ribs. Pretty much beat the crap out of me.”

“Motherfucker.” Allie hesitated, wondering if she should ask the obvious question. With another girl, she might not have, but this was Bri. If she didn’t ask, Bri would figure Allie didn’t think she could handle it. Crazy turned-around thinking, but that was Bri. Allie had recognized the first day they were together in the academy that Bri’s tough-guy attitude was all about needing to prove to other people that she was strong. That she could handle herself. The only way Bri would ever let anyone take care of her was if she believed they believed in her. Somehow, Caroline figured that out about Bri years ago, and that was the big reason why Caroline was the right girl for Bri. But Bri was Allie’s friend, and Allie loved her, so she didn’t shy away from the hard stuff. “Did he rape you?”

Bri jerked, then straightened her shoulders. “No. He tried. I fought, but he was bigger. God, he was strong. But when he got on top of me, I broke his nose. And then I guess he just got pissed and beat me some more. But not that.”

“Did they get him?”

“Reese did.”

“Good,” Allie said through gritted teeth. “I hope she kicked the shit out of him.”

“He resisted a little and she took care of him.” Bri sighed.

“Anyhow, he’s out and he’s in the wind. He’s local, so he might turn up back here. Reese will fill you in.”

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“How are you feeling?”

“Okay, I guess. I just didn’t expect it. I don’t know why not.

Nobody goes away for very long for that kind of thing. Because he resisted, and probably because I was a cop’s kid, he got the maximum.

Better than I could have hoped.”

“Do you think he’ll bother you again?”

“I don’t know. A lot of times these guys do. You know that. They get fixated on a girl, or they blame her for going to jail.” Bri turned on the bench, her blue eyes dark and cloudy. “I’m worried about Carre.

She’s the one he wanted, and she’s not going back to school until the spring semester. She’s going to be home alone while I’m working.”

“Look, we’ll find this guy. And until we do, all of us will keep an eye on her.” Allie put her arm around Bri’s shoulders and kissed her cheek. “Don’t worry, okay?”

“Yeah. Okay.”

“And as far as people knowing about what happened? You stood up. You hurt him. You’re a hero, baby.” Allie ruffled Bri’s hair. “Now go home and let your girl take care of you.”

Bri laughed. “You think sex cures everything.”

“Don’t you?”

“Yeah, most of the time.” Bri stood, opened her locker, and unbuttoned her uniform shirt. “So how did things go with Flynn last night?”

“Oh God, she is so fucking hot.”

Bri rolled her eyes. “Yeah, you said that before.”

“Seriously, she just kissed me and I almost came in my pants.”

“For real?”

“Believe it,” Allie said, her face flushing. “And I never do that.”

Almost never. She squashed the memory of the last time she had—when she’d been making out with Ash and Ash had played with her nipples so long and so hard she’d climaxed. Not going there. Not. Not. Not.

“Okay—major stud points,” Bri said, impressed. “So I take it your dry spell is over?”

Allie looked away. “Not exactly.”

Bri rolled up her shirt, tossed it into the laundry hamper, and pulled on her T-shirt. As she unbuckled her belt, she cut Allie a look. She’d heard something in Allie’s voice she’d never heard before. Regret.

Longing. More than a little sadness. “What’s going on?”

“Nothing, really,” Allie said with forced brightness. “Hey, just

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because I don’t put out for every girl who looks my way doesn’t mean there’s something wrong.”

“Yeah yeah. This is me you’re talking to. I saw her cruising you the first time she saw you. And you were already sizing her up before you even went out. Now you tell me she’s so hot you’re losing your stuff just kissing. So—if you didn’t get it on with her, why not?”

“She’s nice, Bri,” Allie said softly. “She’s somebody I might like to have as a friend, you know? Sometimes sex messes things up.”

Bri pulled on her jeans and her boots, closed her locker door, and leaned back against it. “What the fuck, Al? You’ve never minded fucking friends, and you’ve never had any trouble being friends with women you’ve have sex with—look at Deo.”

“Yeah. Look at Walker,” Allie said bitterly.

“Oh.”

“Oh what?”

“Are you still hung up on her?”

“No!” Allie glared. “It’s got nothing to do with her. She’s ancient history. I just didn’t feel like fucking Flynn last night!”

“Okay.” Bri held her hands up in surrender. “Okay. So take things slow with Flynn if that makes you feel better.” She tapped her boot against Allie’s foot. “But Jesus, don’t wait too long. I can’t stand it when you’re horny. You get bitchy.”

“Fuck you, Parker.”

Bri grinned. “See? Proves my point.”

“Oh, go home already.” Allie rose. “About that other thing. If anything breaks, I’ll let you know.”

“Thanks.”

Allie walked Bri to the side door, waved good-bye, and headed back into the bullpen.

“Well, fuck me,” she muttered to herself. Ash Walker was sitting at her desk.

v

Ash stood up quickly as Allie, doing a pretty decent impression of a thundercloud, stomped toward her. Allie obviously wasn’t looking forward to seeing her, not that she expected anything different.

“I just stopped by to go through those files,” Ash said.

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Allie pointed to a stack on the corner of her desk. “Those are all open—mostly alleged vandalism, breakins, or arsons. We still have to sort out what’s storm damage and what isn’t. The ones with the red stickers have not yet been cleared to enter by the fire marshal. Those you can’t investigate yet.”

“I am certified for fire investigation, Allie,” Ash said quietly.

“Oh, I know your qualifications. You were evaluating a fire claim the first time you blew in.”

“If you’ve got a spare desk somewhere, I’ll go through these files and cross-reference them with my list.” Ash was too tired and too queasy for a fight. She’d only been partially right the night before. When she got home, she’d stripped and immediately climbed into the shower to wash away the sex sweat and try to clear some of the alcohol from her brain. With the hot water beating down on her neck and shoulders, she’d closed her eyes and tried to blank her mind. No luck. All she’d been able to see was Allie—not Allie in a bar with a stranger’s hands all over her, but Allie lying under her, teasing her with light kisses and taunting her with whispered dares. I dare you not to come while you’re fucking me. I dare you not to come when I go down on you. I dare you not to come when I fuck you. I dare you, baby. I dare you.

The pressure in her pelvis got so bad she’d tried to get off, picturing Allie’s teasing smile, hearing Allie dare her not to come in her mouth while she sucked her. She wanted to come, but she couldn’t.

She got close a couple times, so close she kept trying, but she couldn’t hold on to the feel of Allie’s lips long enough to push herself over. She worked at it until the water ran cold and her legs wouldn’t hold her up anymore, and then she stumbled into the kitchen, found the bottle of Johnny Walker, and took a slug. Thirty minutes later she was still awake, tossing and turning and working up another kind of sweat.

Fatigue and frustration and futility. She drank a bit more and finally her body just quit on her, and she slept. When she woke a few hours later, she felt like crap. Another shower, a cold one this time, cleared her head some but didn’t do much for her stomach.

Allie cocked her hip and folded her arms beneath her breasts. “You look like total shit, Walker. And you’ve got fucking teeth marks all over your neck. Did you even get to sleep or did you come here straight from spending the whole night fucking that blonde with the big tits?”

“Don’t, Allie,” Ash whispered.

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“You know what? You’re right. It doesn’t matter at all,” Allie said coldly. “Give me your list. I’ll do the cross checks. You’re not fit to work. Go home and get some sleep.”

Ash stiffened. “I’m fine.”

“I’ll come by and pick you up at noon.” Allie held out her hand.

“Give me your goddamned list.”

Ash would have argued, but Reese stood in the doorway of her office watching them. If she put up a fight, Allie would get caught in the middle and she didn’t want that. She opened her briefcase, found the folder with the local cases, and handed it to Allie. The papers shook in her trembling hand. “I’d like to start in the West End where the damage is the worst. It will help me set up an assessment scale for the area.”

“Fine. I’ll see you at noon.”

“Okay.” Ash turned, nodded to Reese, and quickly left.

Allie watched her go, thinking now she knew where Ash had been the night before. She’d gotten it on with the blonde she was pawing on the dance floor at the Pied. From the looks of her neck, they’d been going at it hard. While she hadn’t even been able to let a sweet, hot, sexy woman make love to her, Ash had spent the night fucking her brains out. Nice.

And stupid for you to care, she muttered . Really stupid, Allie.

v

“Nita,” Tory said when Nita came out of one of the examining rooms. “Can I talk to you for a second?”

Nita finished making a note in the chart and left it in the file holder next to the door. “Sure.”

Tory led the way back to her office and closed the door behind them. She gestured to one of the chairs in front of her desk and took the other one. Facing Nita, she said, “Reese is on her way over. I’d like you to examine her for me.”

“Of course. What’s the problem?”

“That’s just the thing. I’m not sure there’s anything wrong.”

Tory told Nita about Reese’s episode the night before. “She looked disoriented. Her eyes were unfocused. She said she had trouble seeing.

It was all very quick. Anyone else might not even have noticed.” Tory

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sighed. “The thing that bothers me is that it’s happened more than once.”

“What exactly were the extent of her combat injuries?” Nita asked quietly.

“She was in a firefight. Their convoy was hit in the middle of the night with rocket fire. Several of the trucks exploded. She doesn’t remember all of the details, but she had a forehead laceration from being struck with a rifle butt. Shrapnel in her leg. Her clavicle was broken. Burns to her…” Tory stopped, her throat closing.

“I’m sorry. That was thoughtless of me.”

Tory shook her head. “No. It’s necessary. I keep thinking I’m past it. She’s home. She’s fine. But when I think of what happened, how close she came to not coming home…” Tory smiled unsteadily.

“I’m just thankful she’s not going to be deployed ever again. Because honestly, I don’t think I could stand it.”

Nita squeezed Tory’s hand. “You could stand whatever you had to stand. But I’m glad she’s home for good too.”

“What else…” Tory forced her mind into doctor mode. “She was captured, beaten. She can’t remember if she was unconscious or for how long, but I’m certain that she had some head trauma.”

“And how has she been since she’s been home?”

“About how you would expect. From all the reports I’ve seen, more than two-thirds of returning troops have signs of PTSD, even the ones who weren’t injured in combat. She’s had trouble sleeping, nightmares, hypervigilance—some hyperreactivity.”

“Depression?”

“No. Reese is a Marine. She’s incredibly strong, psychologically.

She’s trained for what she went through. It’s the things that she can’t control that have been the biggest problem.”

“Aggression?” Nita asked gently.

“No,” Tory said, her gaze steady on Nita’s. “Never.”

“Okay,” Nita said briskly. “Let me know as soon as she gets here.

Do you want to observe?”

Tory laughed. “Of course I do. But I think it will be better if I don’t. Reese might be more comfortable. She might tell you something that she doesn’t want me to know. And I never think it’s a good idea for us to treat family.”

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“Are you okay?”

“I don’t mind telling you, I’m scared.” Tory hesitated. “There’s something else too. I told her this morning, right before she had this episode, that I wanted to have another baby.”

Nita’s eyebrows rose, then she smiled broadly. “Really! That’s terrific.”

“My timing was probably terrible, but…” Tory grinned ruefully.

“I’m almost forty-one years old. I don’t have any more time. I’d like Regina to have a sibling by the time she’s two.”

“What did Reese say?”

“Nothing. When I told her I had something I wanted to talk to her about she jumped to the conclusion that something was wrong, and then she had the reaction.”

“Immediately? So you think it was triggered by stress? Fear?”

“Maybe. An adrenaline surge could have produced those symptoms.” Tory stood and started to pace. “God, I hadn’t thought about that. Nita! What if it’s endocrine? An adrenal tumor or…”

“Whoa. Whoa. Remember, you’re not Dr. King right now. You’re Tory, Reese’s partner. And my advice to you is to wait and not play what-if. Okay? Is that a deal?”

“Yes. Yes. Deal.” Tory slumped into the chair. “Lord, I’m a mess.”

Nita smiled fondly. “You love her. That’s messy sometimes, but wonderful.”

The phone rang on Tory’s desk, and she leaned over to answer it.

“Yes?”

“Reese is here to see you,” Randy said. “I already told her you’re double booked the entire day.”

“It’s okay, Randy, send her back. And would you bring Reese’s chart to Nita.”

“Certainly,” Randy said immediately, his voice sobering. “Right away.”

Nita rose and brushed Tory’s shoulder with her fingertips. “Don’t worry. I’ll take care of her.”

“Thanks.” Tory schooled her features to hide her anxiety. She didn’t want Reese to know how frightened she was. Rationally she knew her worst fears were probably unfounded, but that didn’t help calm her frayed nerves. Reese was everything to her. Everything.

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chapteR ten

Allie parked the patrol car halfway up on the sidewalk in front of the Crown, got out, and followed the winding flagstone path, flanked with the last valiant flowers of the season, through the side gate to Ash’s suite. The blinds were drawn and the room was silent.

She tapped on the door.

“Walker,” she said, “it’s me.” She waited a minute and knocked again. She didn’t try the knob. She didn’t want a repeat of yesterday’s unexpected view of Ash naked. Especially not after knowing what Ash had been doing all night. The last thing she wanted to feel was even a reflex attraction to her. She was about to walk away when the door opened. Ash didn’t look much better than she had earlier. Her white shirt was rumpled and her eyes red rimmed. Allie’s stomach twisted with an unexpected surge of concern and, whipping her gaze to a point past Ash’s shoulder, she said, “You ready?”

“Yes,” Ash said hoarsely and followed as Allie abruptly about-faced and stalked away. When Ash reached the patrol car, Allie was already behind the wheel. Ash slid into the front seat across from her.

She hadn’t been able to sleep, but she had managed to get down a little breakfast, and after a couple of cups of coffee, her head was clear.

“Let’s start on the harbor side of Commercial in the far West End. I’ve got a lot of claims down there.”

“Fine.” Allie stared straight through the windshield, one hand on the wheel, the other resting on her right thigh. She recognized the familiar spicy Dolce & Gabbana cologne Ash was wearing, because she’d given it to her. She remembered laughing while Ash opened the package, telling Ash she had gotten that particular scent because it

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smelled like something she wanted to eat. Ash had unbuttoned her shirt and dabbed a little just below her belly button.

Hungry now? Ash said.

Allie had met the challenge in Ash’s eyes and immediately dropped to her knees, unzipped Ash’s fly, and gone down on her, savoring the aromas of fine cologne and even finer woman. Ash had come hard and fast, and considering that they were standing next to Ash’s car in the parking lot on Bradford, that was probably a good thing.

Allie gunned the motor and pulled out into the street so fast that Ash slammed back in her seat. Ignoring Ash’s grunt of surprise, Allie snatched her radio off the dash and reported her destination.

Ash gripped the armrest and gazed out the window. About half of the businesses on Commercial were open, although many had sheets of plywood covering shattered front windows. Rubble was piled along the edge of the sidewalks, waiting for removal. Here and there portions of roofs were missing and big yellow warning signs were stapled to the doors, forbidding entry by order of the fire marshal.

“You took a heavy hit,” Ash murmured.

Allie said nothing. She wasn’t in the mood for casual conversation.

What she wanted, more than anything else, was to be able to look at Ash and not remember anything. So far, that wasn’t working so well, and that just pissed her off.

“You happy with the job?” Ash asked.

“I like my job, I love the town, I’m dating a hot woman. That’s my story. Can we stick to business now?” Allie said.

Ash sucked in a breath. What did she expect? She’d been the one to break off the relationship because when she’d felt herself falling in love, she’d panicked. She’d been convinced that Allie was too young for a long-term relationship, and even if Allie had been ready for a commitment, she was too young for Ash. More than a decade Ash’s junior, and a big decade. The difference between forty-two and fifty-five was light-years away from the difference between twenty-two and thirty-five. Ash knew from painful experience how hard it was to build and keep a relationship. She’d failed herself a couple of times and seen her sister’s marriage fall apart after eight years and three kids. Hell, not a single one of her friends from college had managed to make a go of their marriages. She’d looked at Allie and couldn’t imagine her being satisfied with Ash when there were so many women waiting in

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her future. Allie was like a supernova, shining so bright that everything in her path burned with her. She was smart and vital and embraced life with a carefree sensuality that Ash envied. She would gladly have incinerated in Allie’s blaze. She feared not immolation, but that she would survive, forever scarred, forever wanting. So she’d walked away, and damned herself to exactly the future she had tried to avoid.

“You can let me out here,” Ash said when Allie slowed the cruiser in front of a barricade blocking off a flooded portion of the street.

“I told you, Reese wants me to go with you to clear our open files.”

Ash opened the door when Allie halted the cruiser. She stepped out, leaned a forearm on the roof, and peered back in. “If I see anything suspicious, I’ll tell you. Otherwise, you can clear your cases as I go through them. I’ll give you a list at the end of every day. I know you’re all pulling double shifts. You don’t need to do this.”

Allie jammed the car into Park and hopped out with the engine still running. She glared at Ash across the roof. “What part of orders don’t you understand? Reese assigned me to work with you. So I’m coming with you. Now move the barricade so I can get the cruiser through.”

“Allie, there’s probably three feet of water down there in some places. You’ll stall out.”

“Fine.” Allie reached in, cut the ignition, and pocketed the keys.

She slammed the door. “Let’s walk.”

Ash winced, the shock shooting up her arm and into her head.

“Okay. Jesus. Take it easy.”

“Maybe if you weren’t hungover, you wouldn’t be so sensitive.”

“Look, can we declare a truce here?” Ash asked quietly. “I know you’re pissed off at—”

“You don’t know anything about me,” Allie said succinctly. “You never bothered to look at me, Ash. You just saw what you wanted to see. Nice tits and a pretty face.”

Ash jolted with shock. “Allie. Baby,” she whispered, “that’s not true. I nev—”

“Don’t you dare call me that,” Allie said furiously. “I’m not your baby. I never was. That was just your first mistake.”

“Okay,” Ash said, feeling the earth tilt under her feet. She pressed her palms flat against the top of the car to fight the wave of dizziness.

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The core of pain she always carried in her chest expanded until every breath felt like a knife piercing her heart. “I apologize. I won’t do it again.”

“Let’s go.” Allie strode around the front of the car and sloshed through six inches of water to the sidewalk. She’d seen the pain arc across Ash’s features and settle in her eyes. She’d wanted to hurt her, and she had. She just wished she felt a little bit better about it. Payback wasn’t nearly as satisfying as she’d imagined.

v

“Hi, love,” Reese said as she walked into Tory’s office.

Tory closed the door, put her arms around Reese’s neck, and kissed her. “How is your day going?”

Reese took a moment to kiss her back. “Everly is out on parole, and he’s missing. I told Bri this morning.”

“Oh, darling. Damn it. How is she?”

“It rocked her a little, but she’s okay.” Reese grinned fondly.

“She’s tough.”

“Do you think we have a problem?”

“It’s premature to say that.” Reese squeezed Tory’s hand. “We’ll need to run him down, if we can. If we find him, that will solve the problem, because he’ll go away again on the parole violation.”

“What about fingerprints? Didn’t Allie check our door and upstairs? His prints would be on file, right?”

“Oh, they’re on file all right. But trying to isolate a foreign print in a family residence is really difficult. And chances are whoever was in the house was wearing gloves. We’ll run random samples, but…” She sighed. “Honestly, Tor, we’re not likely to find anything, and trying to sort through hundreds of prints is just too expensive.”

Tory laughed ruefully. “Darling, you don’t need to explain cost-effectiveness to me. That’s all medicine is about these days.” She rubbed Reese’s arm. “You will be careful if you go looking for him, though, won’t you?”

Reese kissed her forehead. “It’s been my experience that men who attack women are cowards. He’s not going to put up a fight if I find him.”

“Just the same—”

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“Just the same,” Reese said, “I intend to be very careful.”

“Thank you.” Tory gestured toward the hall. “Are you ready? I asked Nita to look at you.”

“Yes. Whatever you need me to do.”

Suddenly all Tory needed was right there within arm’s reach. She wrapped her arms around Reese’s waist and laid her cheek against Reese’s chest. “This. This is what I need.”

Reese stroked her hair. “Done.”

“Kate called,” Tory murmured. “They should be back around four.”

“Do you want me to swing by and get Reggie and the dog on my way home?” Reese asked.

“Call me. Whichever one of us is free can do it.” With a sigh, Tory let her go. “Come on. Let’s get you checked out.”

v

“Darling,” Rica called from the bedroom when Carter stepped out of the shower, “didn’t you pick up the dry-cleaning the other day?”

Carter briskly toweled her hair and walked naked into the bedroom. “Uh-huh. Last Tuesday. That was everything we brought in before the storm. Why?”

“Oh, nothing.” Rica frowned and sorted through her clothes again.

“I can’t find my red silk shirt.”

“It’s in there. I saw it the other day.”

“That’s what I thought too. But it’s not here.”

Carter strode to the closet and scanned Rica’s section. She had a good memory for details. Most cops did. On the job, she had maybe a second to take in the position of potential assailants or make a judgment call as to whether a man crouched in the shadows with a gun was a cop or a perp. She noticed things. And she remembered. “It was here a couple of days ago. Have you noticed anything else missing or out of place?”

“I don’t think so. But—”

“Not just clothes. Anything.” Carter yanked a pair of jeans off a hanger and stepped into them. As she zipped her fly, she crossed to the bedside table, extracted her holstered weapon, and clipped it to the waistband. “Jewelry? Personal items of any kind?”

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“You think someone stole my shirt? You think someone was in here?”

“Someone was in Reese and Tory’s place last night. Then your car was broken into.” Carter shook her head. “I don’t like coincidences.”

“I’ll have to look through my jewelry box.”

“Do it. I’m going to check the rest of the house.”

“Carter. Darling. Put on a shirt.”

Carter looked down, then grinned sheepishly. “Oh.”

“And be careful.”

“I’ll be right back. Then maybe I’ll take my shirt off again.”

Rica smiled. “Maybe you will.”

v

Reese sat on the examining table waiting for Nita. She kept her pants on but had stripped from the waist up. After checking out the paper gown, she tossed it aside and put her uniform shirt back on, leaving it unbuttoned. She didn’t wait long.

“Hi, Reese,” Nita said as she entered and closed the door behind her. “How are you doing?”

“Tory’s worried about me.”

Nita dropped Reese’s chart onto the small pull-down desk attached to the wall, then leaned against the counter that held the sink and cabinets. “What about you? Are you worried?”

“I haven’t been.”

“How do you feel?”

Reese sighed. “That’s a really tough question.”

Nita nodded. “I get that. I really do. There’s no right answer, or even one answer. Let me ask some questions and we’ll see if we can get to a few of them. Does anything bother you physically?”

“No,” Reese said immediately. “No pain.”

“Fatigue? Weakness? Generally just not feeling up to par?”

“I haven’t noticed any change since I…got back.” Reese frowned.

“You know, I can’t really remember what I felt like before I went.”

“Sometimes the experiences that change our lives reset our entire worldview. Even of ourselves.”

“I’m not much of a philosopher, Nita,” Reese said ruefully. “I used to be a Marine. Now I’m a cop. I’ve got three things in my life that

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matter to me. Tory, our daughter, and my job. Nothing will ever change that.”

Nita smiled. “How are you sleeping?”

“A little erratically. I have nightmares sometimes. I’m sure Tory told you.”

“What about when you’re awake? Are you having flashbacks?”

“Brief ones. Not as often as I did.” Reese grimaced. “A couple of times I’ve had sort of mini-flashbacks.” She described the episode she’d had when Tory had called to say someone was in the house.

“Can you remember any physical symptoms associated with that?

Severe headache, a strange smell? Numbness or tingling in your hands or feet? Weakness in your arms or legs?”

“No,” Reese said with certainty. “Nothing like that.”

“Have you had any chest pain, the sensation that your heart was racing out of control?”

“No.”

“Night sweats?”

Reese hesitated. “Sometimes, yeah.”

Gently, Nita asked, “Have you ever had these symptoms while you were making love?”

“No.”

“Okay.” Nita pulled the blood pressure cuff out of its metal holder on the wall. “I’m going to examine you and then draw some blood for a battery of tests. Would you take your shirt off, please.”

“Will you do me a favor?” Reese asked as she shrugged off her shirt.

Nita nodded, taking in the scars on Reese’s shoulder, arm, and abdomen. “Of course.”

“If you find something wrong with me, will you tell me before you tell Tory?”

“Will you promise not to keep anything from her?”

“Yes. But I don’t want her to find out alone. I don’t want her to be frightened without me there.”

“Let’s not get ahead of ourselves, okay?” Nita pulled her stethoscope out of the pocket of her white coat. “You’ve made a rapid and impressive recovery from a series of severe traumatic events.

You’ve returned to a very high-stress job in record time. You’re functioning exceptionally well. The symptoms you’re experiencing

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may be variants of posttraumatic stress. They’re not typical because you are a very unusual woman.”

“They could be something else, right? A brain tumor or something?”

“It’s possible, but with such isolated symptoms, not as likely.”

Nita paused after wrapping the cuff around Reese’s arm. “Are you concerned about that?”

“Only for her.”

“Tory can handle anything, Reese. Trust her.”

“I do.”

“Good,” Nita said casually, watching the pressure on the gauge.

She let the cuff down all the way, then inflated it again. “I understand you might be having another child.” She felt Reese tense and took her blood pressure again. Both her pulse and blood pressure had jumped dramatically. “How are you feeling right now?”

“Nervous.”

“About what?”

“You weren’t here when Reggie was born. Tory almost died.”

“I remember her telling me. She had preeclampsia. That can come on fast and get out of control quickly. They’ll be looking for that next time.”

“But there’s no guarantee they can prevent it,” Reese said, her voice gravelly.

“No, there isn’t.” Nita reached for the ophthalmoscope. “You and Tory will have to have some frank discussions with your obstetrician.

I’m sure that will help.”

Reese didn’t say anything. She would give Tory anything she wanted, if she could. She would do anything to ensure Tory’s happiness and well-being. But she couldn’t face the possibility of losing her, not even for something that Tory wanted as much as she wanted another child. And she didn’t know how to tell her that.

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chapteR eleven

When Reese returned, Carter was waiting in her office. Reese closed the frosted glass door, hung her hat on the spindly wooden rack next to it, and walked around behind her desk.

“Sorry to bother you in the middle of the day,” Carter said, dressed in jeans and a loose gray sweatshirt with her weapon on her hip. She was supposed to be off duty but something was clearly up.

“What’s going on?” Reese waved a hand for Carter to sit, but Carter just shook her head and paced a step, then caught herself. She looked about ready to ignite.

“Someone’s been in our house.”

“Run it for me.” Reese settled into her chair, folded her hands in her lap, and listened as Carter resumed pacing and told her about a missing shirt. “That’s it. Just the shirt?”

“As near as we can tell. Look, I know it’s not much—”

“Carter, if you say someone took it, then someone took it. The question is, why?”

“I’ve got a lot more questions than that.” Carter couldn’t stay still. She was angry and agitated and confused, and worried. She didn’t know what was going on, and if she didn’t understand it, she couldn’t do anything to prevent a problem. “Somebody’s messing around with Rica. The car last night. The shirt. Someone is targeting her. God damn it. God damn it.”

“Someone was in my house too.”

“I know. And that doesn’t make any sense. Messing with cops?

That’s just plain stupid.”

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“We don’t know the events are related. Could be a thrill seeker.

Could be kids acting on a dare.”

Carter snorted. “You don’t believe that.”

“I’m not discounting it, but I’m not looking for an easy answer either. Not when so much is at stake.” Reese told Carter about William Everly, his history with Bri, and the fact that he might also factor into the mix.