A Rural Affair

16

The Gloria was finally given an airing the following Saturday, but not, it transpired, for the couple who had originally chosen it to be sung at their nuptials.

‘Why not?’ I asked Angie as we slipped into the choir stalls together.

‘She dumped him, apparently,’ Angie told me rather too gleefully as we collected our hymn sheets. Angie was more than slightly anti-men at the moment.

‘Who did? The bride?’

‘Yup. Word is, she got cold feet. Called the whole thing off a week ago. The invitations had gone out, wedding presents had been opened – the whole bit. Takes some doing, don’t you think? The week before?’

Blimey. It did. And I remembered how close I’d got to it with Phil during that terrible final week; the overwhelming feeling of panic as the whole thing gained momentum, like a runaway freight train, without me behind it. My mouth getting drier, not sleeping, everyone thinking it was excitement. Dad, Jennie, all looking at my wide eyes and thinking they were starry, not seeing the fear. Jennie, telling me all brides lost weight before the big day. Only my dressmaker looking concerned, because every time I had a fitting she had to take the ivory silk in a bit more. I remembered having my legs waxed the day before and the young girl asking if I was excited, and me suddenly sobbing, ‘No!’ How it had come out in a horrible, choked voice. She’d looked terrified and ripped those strips away in silence, the fastest leg wax in the world, whilst I’d pretended the tears streaming down the side of my face were due to the pain.

I sighed, shuffling along the pew a bit as more people arrived. It did take some doing, and I hadn’t had the guts. Or the neck. Or the stomach. Or whatever part of the body it took to let a hundred and fifty people down – but not yourself. I was full of admiration for Miss Anna Braithwaite, as we gathered she was called, not a spinster of this parish, but yet another Londoner who’d wangled her way into our idyllic village church by dint of having a distant relative who lived nearby, where she’d lodged her suitcase for a couple of weeks, and become a bona fide country dweller. So yes, neck had been her particular body part; the one which had enabled her, first to swing the bucolic setting, and then to break a man’s heart.

Would I have broken Phil’s heart? I picked up the Gloria song sheet as Angus slipped in beside Angie on the end, Sylvia electing the row in front. I couldn’t exactly imagine him prostrate with grief, punching walls into the night in a Heathcliff manner. More tight-lipped and furious. Livid. Nonsense, Poppy; you’re rewriting history. He was actually very much in love with you. He just hid it well.

‘So who’s getting married, then?’ I asked Angie, thinking: never again. Never.

‘A local couple, apparently, which is much more satisfactory. They got engaged last week and wanted to get married immediately but were told they’d have to wait ages for a slot. They were about to get hitched in the registry office but then this came up, so they grabbed it.’

‘Good for them,’ I said admiringly.

‘No order of service sheets, of course, because it was too late to get it all organized, but when you think about it, how much nicer to get married just like that. Next week? Good friends will always just drop everything to come, and you don’t get any of the fuss. None of the usual pre-nup merry-go-round with lists at Peter Jones and bridesmaids getting the hump because they’re dressed as shepherdesses; just an incredibly spontaneous, romantic occasion. A really lovely joyous expression of … shit.’

‘What?’ I frowned. She’d ducked her head down and was furiously pulling her fringe over her eyes.

‘Bugger. It’s Pete. Passion-Fuelled. Back row of the church. Don’t look now. Don’t want him to see me.’

‘Why not?’ I said, nonetheless following her furtive glance to where Pete, blond and gorgeous in a dark suit, was indeed collecting a hymn book and joining the growing congregation.

‘Made a bit of a fool of myself,’ Angie muttered.

‘Really? When?’ I was intrigued. ‘You never said.’

I turned to stare at her in wonder. Pete was surely a harmless crush. A fantasy figure, like a member of a boy band, to pin on a bedroom wall and drool over. He was also a good ten years younger than Angie.

‘What did you do, wrestle him into the back of his mobile forge?’

‘Don’t be silly.’ Angie reddened.

I blinked. ‘Please tell me you didn’t rip off his leather apron? Have him over his anvil? Hammer hammer hammer?’

‘Oh, shut up, Poppy.’ She swallowed. ‘No, he just … Well, he sussed that I was getting him out on false pretences, that’s all.’

‘Getting him out? What d’you mean?’

‘Horses only need shoeing every six weeks or so. Pete was doing mine slightly more regularly than that,’ she said tightly.

‘Oh.’

It occurred to me that I did see Pete’s van go past my house most weeks, and if I wandered past Angie’s house with Archie, Pete was quite often parked in the stable yard round the side.

‘Of course I always had some spurious excuse up my sleeve, about how their feet grew quickly and needed trimming, or I was worried a shoe was loose. I even wrenched a shoe off myself in the middle of the night, nearly put my bloody back out, just so I could get him round.’

An image of Angie in her stables, under cover of darkness, with a startled horse and a pair of pliers, sprang to mind. My mouth twitched, but I was surprised too. Didn’t know she had it so bad.

‘What happened?’ I said gently.

‘One day he said he thought my horse was in danger of being over-manicured, and was there any particular reason I’d got him round. He looked me right in the eye and asked if there was anything else that needed servicing?’

‘No!’ I breathed.

I tried to imagine the shy, taciturn Pete saying that, but was aware I’d only seen him out of his milieu, at the book club, not handling a nervous horse, a red-hot firing iron in his hand.

‘Oh, Poppy, he was all strong and masterful. You should see him when he’s in his own environment,’ she said, echoing my thoughts. ‘It sort of … defines him.’

For some reason I thought of Sam, when I’d first met him: in his paper-strewn office, sleeves rolled up, files and books all over the floor. Not any more, of course. Tidy now.

‘So … you said?’ I prompted, tremulously.

‘I said yes.’

‘Angie, you didn’t!’

‘I bloody did. I looked him straight back in the eye and said yes, actually, I’d like him to do the same for me as he’d done for Mary Granger last hunting season, and gave him a terrific wink.’

‘He services Mary Granger?’ I gasped. Mary was a rangy, scary, foxy blonde, who rode horses professionally and relentlessly. She was always trotting past, stony-faced and in a hurry, one horse under her bony bum, another on a lead rein. She probably wouldn’t have time for the normal social conventions a boyfriend entailed. I could imagine her bonking a man like Pete before breakfast, as part of her horsy routine. Stable management.

And was it my imagination or was Sylvia, in front of Angie, leaning back, straining to hear?

‘Why are you so horrified?’ Angie looked defiant. ‘Not everyone wants a boyfriend, you know. I don’t. And I certainly don’t want another husband. But what I do, occasionally, feel the need for, is the touch and feel of a man and some basic human comfort. Preferably without a saggy stomach, dandruff or BO, and preferably the right side of forty.’ She raised her chin. ‘I’ve always liked sex, if you must know.’

‘Right,’ I said inadequately, wondering if I must know that in church and quite loudly too. Sylvia’s ears were as pricked as those of any horse on the hunting field.

‘Well, anyway, we went upstairs –’

‘Just like that?’ I tried but failed to keep the squeaky excitement from my voice.

‘Yes, just like that. He made the pretence of grabbing some tools, and then he asked where the bathroom was, which, frankly, I was pleased about, because don’t forget he shoes horses for a living. Fairly blue collar and all that. So when we got to the top of the stairs I showed him into my en suite. Then I went into the bedroom, took all my clothes off and got into bed.’

I felt my mouth fall open.

‘I had to,’ she confessed. ‘Otherwise I knew I wouldn’t do it. Knew I’d lose my nerve.’

I nodded dumbly, acknowledging the warped logic in this.

‘Anyway, he was ages in the bathroom, and after a bit he called out, “Mrs Asher?”, which was rather formal, I thought, and not quite what I was expecting, so I called back, “In here!” And in he came holding my shower attachment, and saying it was rather different to Mary Granger’s.’

I stared at her for a long moment. Then the penny dropped.

‘He does plumbing on the side,’ she said stiffly. ‘Unofficially. Just during the recession. Hasn’t got a licence so it’s hush-hush. He serviced Mary Granger’s shower, apparently.

‘Oh, Angie …’

‘So there I was, in bed, stark-naked, propped up on pillows and showing a great deal of cleavage. Near as damn it with a rose between my teeth.’

‘What did you do?’ I breathed.

‘Well, he went completely puce, naturally, and his jaw dropped – he nearly dropped the shower head too – and then I had to pretend it was the most natural thing in the world to be talking to my plumber-come-farrier supine and in the buff. I said it was probably best that he took it away and sorted it out at home, where he’d got the proper tools, and he agreed. To save us, I asked conversationally in what way my shower head differed to Mary’s and he said mine had bigger holes. Did I mention I’d lit a candle?’

‘No.’

‘Yes. By the bed. And a few on the dressing table. Diptyque. And squirted Jo Malone about too.’ She sighed. ‘Anyway, he fled. Thundered downstairs and out to his van and roared away in moments, no doubt to tell the entire village about the terrifying frustrated housewife at the manor. I should think everyone knows by now.’ Her face collapsed a bit. She looked older.

‘They don’t,’ I assured her quickly, but knew she was right. It was only a matter of time before it ricocheted around the village. ‘And anyway, you could say you always have an afternoon nap,’ I suggested. ‘Churchill used to. And a bath.’

‘I could,’ she agreed, ‘except it was ten o’clock in the morning and I wasn’t exactly marching the troops across the Rhine. Yes, of course you can, here.’ This, to Angus beside her, who’d asked to borrow her hymn book.

He then engaged her in animated conversation. The overexcited gleam in his eye, and the way he was staring down her top, worried me. Oh Lord, had he overheard? Sylvia, in front, turned to me, eyes huge. Right. They both had.

As Jennie slipped in beside me from the other end, I resolved not to say a word. Not yet, anyway.

‘Heard about Angie and Pete?’ she muttered as she took her coat off.

‘Yes!’ I breathed. ‘But don’t say a word.’ I swung round to glance, but Angie was still engrossed with Angus. ‘She’s terrified it’s all round the village.’

‘It is. Pete told his sister, who works with Yvonne in the shop, which is tantamount to putting it on the bush telegraph. Silly fool,’ she murmured, casting Angie a look.

‘It was a misunderstanding,’ I said loyally. Sometimes I found myself the glue between Jennie and Angie. Jennie occasionally found Angie a bit moneyed and spoiled, whilst Angie regarded Jennie as puritanical and over-principled.

‘As usual she thinks she can get what she wants simply by batting her eyelids.’

This was uncalled for, even for Jennie.

‘Oh, come on, she’s mortified.’

‘Oh, really? Not so mortified that she’s not throwing herself at the new master of the hunt too, I gather.’

‘Really?’ I was shocked. ‘Who told you that?’

‘Mrs Tucker at Countrywide, where I get Leila’s food. The first meet of the season’s next week, apparently, and Angie was in her shop yesterday, buying the tightest jodhpurs possible because some sexy new blood is leading the field. She’s out of control, Poppy.’

‘Right,’ I said wearily. If anything got Jennie’s blood up more than Angie at her most frivolous, it was Angie enjoying her expensive, privileged lifestyle. A wide streak of socialism shot right through Jennie, and she regarded the horsy crowd as arrogant toffs, particularly at this time of year. Personally I loved both my friends and found it all rather tiring.

‘We’re singing for a completely different couple today,’ I told her, changing the subject. ‘The bride got cold feet. Someone else has nabbed the spot.’

‘I know. It’s Simon.’

I stared at her. Her face was a mask. Calm; impassive.

‘Simon?’

‘Yes.’

‘Your Simon?’

‘He’s not my Simon, Poppy. Never was, never has been. I’m married to Dan, remember?’

I unstuck my tongue. ‘Yes, but …’ I was flabbergasted. Totally stunned. My mind flew to him walking her home from the book club a while back; saying goodnight rather tenderly, I thought, at the gate. No more than that, but still. He hadn’t looked like a betrothed man.

‘All rather sudden, isn’t it?’ I said, when I’d finally found my voice.

‘Very sudden. Last week.’

‘But, Jennie – it must be a hell of a shock! I mean, to you, surely?’

‘Not really. He rang and told me.’

‘Did he?’ I was amazed. But mostly because she hadn’t told me.

‘It’s more complicated than it sounds,’ she said quietly, finally letting me in, being more charitable. ‘And it’s not a whirlwind romance either. He went out with this girl years ago. Remember I told you? He was engaged to her, but she got involved with someone else. Simon just trod water. He looked about but never found anyone he liked as much. Loved as much, rather. He was always, unconsciously, waiting. They got engaged for the second time last week.’

‘He told you all this on the phone?’

‘We had a coffee, actually. He felt he sort of owed me an explanation. We had, after all, had lunch once.’

I felt my eyes widen. ‘You had lunch with Simon?’

‘Yes.’

‘Where?’

‘In London.’

I gazed at her. ‘Right,’ I said finally, faintly. Although I was staggered, I also realized that in some nebulous way I’d known. Realized at the book club there was a subplot; that they’d had private time together. Maybe even reached some sort of understanding.

‘What was it like?’ I was intrigued.

‘What, lunch?’

‘Yes.’

‘Dreadful.’

‘Oh! Why?’

‘Because I felt terrible. Absolutely ghastly. Couldn’t believe I was doing it. There I was, some silly, middle-aged woman, like Angie, making a fool of myself. Getting a cheap thrill out of having lunch with a man who wasn’t my husband. Suppose Dan had walked in? Or some mate of his? How hideous would that have been?’

‘Only lunch, Jennie,’ I reminded her. Jennie’s rigorous principles and high moral standards didn’t apply just to others, but to herself too.

‘Yes, only lunch. And a chaste peck on the cheek to say thank you, but by God I scurried home with my tail between my legs. Felt wretched picking up the children from school, listening to Hannah chatting away about her nature trip; wretched when Dan came in knackered from work and I guiltily fried him a steak. His eyes lit up pathetically when he saw it because these days he’s lucky if I throw sausage and chips at him. He gave me a delighted squeeze at the Aga. That made me feel even worse, I can tell you. Lousy. I almost broke down and told him.’

I hid a smile. Dan was a good man. And a worldly man. I didn’t think he’d kick his wife out for having lunch with someone.

She raked a despairing hand through her dark curls and threw her head back. ‘How do these women do it, Poppy? Sneak around deceiving people? I felt bad enough I hadn’t told you let alone my husband. Oh, look – here he is.’

The church was fairly bursting now – testament indeed to how one could have one’s big day at a moment’s notice and still fill it – and Simon, tall and striking in his morning coat, came down the aisle with his best man, an equally good-looking blade. He greeted people along the way, his face alight, looking the picture of happiness. As he came to take up his position in the front pew, his eyes found Jennie almost immediately. He gave her a lovely smile. She smiled back.

‘He likes you,’ I said, not exactly surprised, but genuinely struck by the warmth.

‘Oh yes, we like each other tremendously. He’s a very nice man. Just what this constituency needs, incidentally, by way of a representative. But let me tell you, Poppy, it’s one thing to have a quiet crush on someone you bump into at the village book club and quite another to invent an excuse as to why you can’t take year three on the nature trail as promised, then stand on Cherton station in a new skirt and full slap hoping to God no one sees you. I kept reciting in my head, “I’m going to the dentist,” in case they did. And I can’t tell you how sweaty my palms were as I went past Dan’s office in the Strand by taxi. By the time I’d got to San Lorenzo’s my face was shiny, my clothes, I’d decided, all wrong for London, and all the thrilling excitement had disappeared down the plug hole because I was so bloody terrified I’d be spotted.’

‘In San Lorenzo’s?’ I said doubtfully.

‘Well, quite. Not exactly Odd Bob’s habitual stamping ground, I agree. I didn’t really expect half the village to be propping up the bar and to turn around accusingly when I came in. But you know what I mean.’

‘Did you tell him?’ I knew Jennie well.

‘Simon? Yes. Almost immediately. Explained I simply couldn’t handle this and wouldn’t be doing it again. He was sweet. Said he liked me all the more for it, and, actually, he wasn’t convinced he could cope with the subterfuge either. He’d run into Dan in the local garage, apparently, as they were both putting air in their tyres. Found it surprisingly hard to make small talk.’ She smiled. ‘We both agreed we could do the sex but not the deceit.’

‘Oh. So … you definitely knew what you were there for?’

‘Well, ultimately, yes. Oh, you can kid yourself it’s “just lunch”, Poppy, but it’s tantamount to sitting there in your underwear. And don’t let anyone tell you any different.’

The overture to The Marriage of Figaro was crashing in quite loudly now, presumably with Luke at the helm. Luke. Single and uncomplicated, thank God.

‘The idea of running upstairs and taking my clothes off, like Angie did, is complete anathema to me,’ she said rather primly.

‘Angie’s separated, Jennie,’ I said quickly. ‘Single.’

‘Her husband walked out on her.’

‘Yes,’ I said, surprised and wondering what she meant by that. Surely that was morally better than the other way round? For complicated reasons, I knew Jennie was so shocked by her own behaviour she was taking it out on Angie. I was pretty sure she’d normally have roared with laughter at the Pete debacle; given her friend a comforting hug.

‘You’ve done nothing wrong,’ I said gently. ‘You had lunch with a man. Big deal. You couldn’t even get as far as the starter without blurting out that it was a big mistake. Relax.’

She nodded, but I saw her swallow. She was about to say something, then blinked and swallowed again.

‘Should I tell Dan?’ she managed eventually, in a small voice.

I was instinctively about to say: no! Then hesitated.

‘Could do,’ I said thoughtfully. She nodded, knowing I knew what she was thinking. That it might bring them closer together. Dan was no fool. He’d realize there had to be a very good reason for a woman like Jennie to put on her best bib and tucker and shimmy off to London. With no threat intended – or even apparent now – it might give him pause for thought. Might give them both pause for thought. And marriages sometimes needed that. A moment when, as you rattle along helter-skelter, helping with the homework, arguing about who’s picking up from ballet, or whether it’s your turn to entertain the Jacksons, you suddenly look at each other and go – oh, OK. A half halt, Dad would call it: when a moving horse is reined in, but not entirely stopped. Just asked to take a moment. To reflect. This might be Dan and Jennie’s moment.

Figaro was gaining momentum now, really building up a head of steam; then a dramatic change of key as Lohengrin seamlessly roared in behind it, signalling the arrival of the bride. It was prettily done, and as we all got obediently to our feet, Luke glanced over his shoulder. I gave him a smile and he grinned back, deliberately giving it some exaggerated wellie, hands raised like claws. My smile broadened. Funny. The other day I’d thought a damp church not terribly conducive to romance, but today I liked him in here. Found his particular brand of laddish humour rather infectious, probably since he’d made me laugh at the King’s Head. And perhaps Angie was right: perhaps a man shone in his natural environment. He was certainly making some prodigious music, despite the intended irony, I thought, looking at his amused profile. I glanced at Simon, the very picture of radiance, beaming in the front pew, waiting for his bride.

‘And Simon’s happy because he got the girl he always wanted,’ I murmured to Jennie, straightening the back of my skirt where I’d sat on it.

‘Exactly. And he doesn’t have to fool around with married women like me while he waits for her to make up her mind – which he wasn’t having again, incidentally. I gather there was an element of ultimatum from him about it. When she asked him to take her back, he said, “On one condition. We get married now.” ’

‘Gosh, how thrilling.’ I shivered. ‘Frightfully masterful.’ I was intrigued. Simon was quite a catch. ‘So who had she been going out with all this time, then, while he waited?’

‘Oh, some married man, apparently.’

‘Right. And what happened to him?’ I asked, as the door at the far end of the church swung open with a flourish.

‘He died,’ Jennie told me, as at that moment the gothic arched doorway filled with ivory tulle. It shimmied for an instant in the shaft of sunlight behind it, then steadied and moved towards us. Accompanied by some tiny attendants in matching ivory silk, and with lilies of the valley in a charming circlet in her blonde hair, white roses cascading like a waterfall from her bouquet, Emma Harding came gliding down the aisle.