Edge of the Enforcer

Chapter Fifteen

In the gathering twilight, deVries surveyed the outside of Lindsey’s duplex. Golden Christmas “icicle” lights hung from the roofline; red ones bordered the windows and door. The trees were outlined in blue. Multicolored lights ran up each side of the walkway. “Not bad.”

Next to him, Xavier brushed dirt off his hands. “Agreed. The ladies should be pleased.”

“You’re not doing your place?” deVries asked as he picked up the tools.

“Abby requested some decorations outside; however, since you can’t see the house from the street, we didn’t do much. Thanks for using Abby’s trimmings from last year—you made her very happy.” Xavier glanced at the trees. “I did happen to notice there are more lights than she mentioned.”

DeVries ignored the comment, because, yeah, he’d bought a few extra strands. He had a fondness for blue. And the trees looked fucking good. The whole place did. He’d never put up Christmas lights before—never had a house to decorate. It was surprisingly satisfying. “Let’s get this stuff put away. Want a beer?”

“I do.”

***

In her kitchen, Lindsey poured a measure of vanilla into the fudge, inhaling the fragrance of chocolate. The sound of the candy bubbling blended with the strains of “O Holy Night” drifting in from the living room. “Now we have to stir—and stir—and stir.”

“No problem.” Finished chopping up walnuts, Abby took a sip of wine and gestured toward the hearth, where Blackie slept next to a Santa doll. “I love the decorations.”

“I’ve been having fun.” Scavenging and crafting required ingenuity. Keeping Zander from buying her anything she wanted took even more. She’d relented and let him buy a Christmas tree, drawing the line at decorations. Paper ornaments would look just fine. “Somehow I wasn’t in the mood last week. Now…”

Humor lit Abby’s face. “Amazing how a relationship can affect a person’s spirits. You’re looking pretty settled in, though. Are you feeling like San Francisco is becoming home?”

“Home? No, Texas is where I belong and always will be.” She regretted her lapse when Abby frowned.

“Your ex is keeping you out of the entire state?”

“For now.” Until certain people are behind bars. I hope. “You know, when I was little, I used to dream about living on a big ranch filled with cattle and horses and children. And a gorgeous husband, of course.”

“Of course,” Abby said in a dry voice. She took the bowl from Lindsey. “My turn to stir. It sounds as if your dream changed…”

“A bit.” Lindsey poured more wine in Abby’s glass and her own. The buzz of the sweet ice wine hummed in her veins. “I found I don’t like cattle so much, let alone the fencing, culling, feeding, vaccinating and deworming and delousing, pasturing, and breeding.” She frowned. “Same with the horses. I enjoy riding, but I don’t want to do the work.”

“That makes sense.” Abby’s face pinkened as she worked at stirring. “How about living in the country?”

“I did love that.” Lindsey popped a walnut in her mouth. “Still, I love the city too. And how tolerant everyone here is.”

“Mmm, I bet that’s different, all right.” Abby smiled. “I’m glad—I’d miss you if you left San Francisco.”

“Me too.” She really would; however, it didn’t matter. “But Texas is home.”

DEVRIES STOPPED OUTSIDE the kitchen feeling as if he’d spotted an IED in front of his speeding Hummer. How had he not realized she still considered Texas to be home?

Maybe because he didn’t think of anyplace as “home”—something he needed to return to.

She had family in Texas.

She hadn’t talked about her people. Or her plans. Neither had he, but damned if he hadn’t just realized he’d been making some.

Unsettled, he walked into the kitchen, followed by Xavier and the black pup. “Lights are up.” He grabbed a couple of beers from the fridge and handed one to Xavier.

“All right!” Lindsey pumped her fist in the air in victory. “I need to see. But we have to finish the fudge first. Want to take a turn stirring?”

“Sure.” He swallowed some beer before accepting the bowl from Abby. “I only have to stir, right?”

“Right.” Lindsey gave the candy a glance. “It’ll be a while. The shine has to go away.”

“The shine? It’s a liquid, babe. It will stay shiny.”

“It’s fudge, and it will change. Trust me, Oh-Enforcer-Man.”

Knowing her ass was probably still tender, he swatted her and got a cute squeak. “Watch it, Tex.” He drank in her giggle. He fucking loved her laugh.

“That reminds me, Enforcer-man.” Xavier removed his jacket and set it on a chair. “Do you want me to stop drafting you to discipline submissives?”

DeVries stopped stirring for a second. “I’m not sure. We’ve never discussed it.” We. Had a nice sound to it. He’d always figured being part of a couple would strangle him. Instead, the time with Lindsey was comfortable. Calming. Fun. He glanced over at her. “You got a choice in this too, babe.”

She bit her lip. “Well…” Face flushed from the heat in the room, long hair tied up in a ponytail, wearing a flannel shirt over a tank top, jeans, and bright-red-and-green fluffy socks. Seriously cute.

“Spill it.”

“I feel small-minded, but it would bother me seeing you touch other women.”

Good. At least that was mutual, since anyone touching her would end up with busted fingers. “I’m okay with that. And men?”

Her lips curved. “I’d probably enjoy watching you beat on guys.”

“All right,” Xavier said. “Zander, I’ll save you for male discipline and give Ethan or Mitchell the females. Ethan might be a bit too soft-hearted, though.”

“Worthington is a nice guy,” deVries said, able to acknowledge it now.

“I had a chat with HurtMe,” Xavier continued. “And I referred him to one of the kink-friendly counselors in town. Apparently he wants a Master so badly he’s misinterpreting what happens during a scene.”

Abby nodded. “I think, now he sees it, he’ll be able to get straightened out.”

“That’s good.” Lindsey gave deVries an unhappy look. “In his case, I’d rather you—”

“I won’t.” Unable to resist, he handed Xavier the bowl and pulled her close. Her small body fit against his, and after a second of surprise, she snuggled into him.

Living in the moment was all very good. Nonetheless they were going to have a long chat about her future plans and Texas.

***

Midweek, Lindsey stared in horror at the video playing out on her laptop. A younger Victor walked across the screen toward a barely pubescent Hispanic boy, like the one who had escaped from the ranch building. The child was blindfolded and tied facedown over a stack of crates. Crying, then screaming in pain as—

Lindsey’s skin went clammy, too hot, too cold. As roaring filled her head, she swallowed convulsively, trying to watch, to finish, to—

Her stomach revolted, and she ran into the bathroom. And vomited again and again, endlessly, draining her strength, her sight, everything.

When the sickness finally eased, her clothes were damp with sweat, and her belly muscles ached. With a trembling hand, she closed the toilet seat and rested her cheek on her forearms.

How could she possibly have lived with the monster and been so blind to his evil? She swallowed again.

God, she was glad he was dead. She’d never get over the ghastliness of having shot him, but…she was glad he’d never hurt another child.

He couldn’t—both the others still could. Rubbing her face, she attempted to set aside her wrenching disappointment. She’d figured out a password, opened one flash drive, and found only nightmare. She needed incriminating documents showing Ricks and Parnell were bad cops. A film of Victor raping a boy, no matter how horrendous, wouldn’t help, except to show she had motivation to kill him. People would believe she’d murdered the police officer to escape arrest.

It would be her word against Parnell’s, and he’d been police chief for a decade now. If she testified against the border patrol agent, she’d have the same problem. Agent Ricks was well established.

If only she could tell Zander. Keeping things from him—anything—bothered her more and more. Filled her with regrets for what they might have had if she wasn’t in such a mess. But she was.

With a moan of exhaustion, she pushed herself to her feet. Maybe the other flash drives contained evidence she could use. Please, God, let them not have more rape footage.

Now that she’d hacked into a file, she knew how Victor had created one password, at least. He’d used his birthdate along with his middle name and a few random numbers. So she could restart the software to try variations on that theme. Unhappily the next success might take a long time.

Meanwhile, although Victor was dead, the smuggling of children into the United States wouldn’t stop. Ricks and Parnell were still using her ranch for those crimes. How could she let them continue? Fear slithered like an icy touch over her skin. I can’t fix that—I can’t.

She had to try.

With wobbly legs, she regained her feet. The video didn’t incriminate Victor’s brother or Ricks; however, maybe someone watching would realize the crates were boxes of smuggled weapons and see more than the perversion.

If she visited an Internet café and e-mailed copies to the various Homeland Security offices in Texas—customs and border security and ATF, surely some official would pay attention.

Hopefully, not so much attention they’d trace her back to San Francisco.

She held her hands out, watched them shake, and heard John Wayne, “Well, there are some things a man just can’t run away from.”

There really were.

***

DeVries unlocked the front door of the duplex. Every time he used the key Lindsey had given him, his mood lifted.

Trust. Hell of a thing. They both had suffered shit in their lives, and trust didn’t come easily. Nonetheless she’d started to let him in.

He smiled. And she was worming his secrets out of him in return. Sneaky little brat.

After tossing his jacket on the old-fashioned coatrack, he looked around. The house was silent. She wasn’t upstairs or in the kitchen. He headed out to the backyard.

And there she was, kneeling on a blanket next to a flowerbed. The sunlight streamed around her, glinting off the cute green-and-red streaks in her rich brown hair. As a breeze swirled dry leaves on the patio, the wind chime swayed and tinkled peacefully.

He started across the grass. Stopped. The little Texan was jumpier than a merc who’d blundered into a kill zone. So, staying put, he cleared his throat.

She startled, and the fear filling her face infuriated him…until she really saw him and relaxed. “Hey.” Her brows drew together. “Is it that late?”

“’Fraid so.” He crossed the small lawn and squatted beside her.

With an oddly unreadable expression, she laid her palm against his cheek. “I’m glad you’re here.”

The naked emotion in the sentiment shook him slightly. She looked whiter than normal, he realized. He put his hand over hers and kissed her fingers. “I am too, baby.” A seed packet lay on the grass. “Planting?”

“I thought I’d see how lettuce would do—it can pretend to be an edging plant and still give us salads.” She’d tilled a line in front of the taller plants behind. “It’s so pretty out, I wanted to get my hands in the soil again.”

He ran his finger over her cheek, brushing off the dirt. “Not used to being a city girl, are you?”

A flash of sadness crossed her face before she smiled. “Actually, I like living here. At least while I’m young enough to enjoy it.” She finished planting the seeds. “Having a backyard helps a lot. I hadn’t realized how closed in I felt in my condo.”

“Got that. I grew up in apartment buildings.” He sat beside her on a corner of the blanket. Tipping his head back, he looked up into the sky. Light blue with a few misty clouds. Pleasant day for the bay area, and he wouldn’t have enjoyed it without this backyard patch. “I didn’t know what I was missing.” A house and a bighearted, sociable, energetic, submissive woman to share it with.

“Really?” Her expression brightened. “You can share it anytime you want.”

“Thanks, babe.” Was that a timid way of inviting him to move in? Not her usual straightforward manner, but she hadn’t quite returned to her previous easiness level with him either. Needing more contact, he bracketed her with his legs. Time for the first assault. “You get lonely, being so far from Texas?”

“From home? Yes.” Her open joy faded slightly. Still, rather than pulling away, she put her elbows on his knees. Pleased the hell out of him she liked to touch and be touched.

So what was his competition back there? “Your mother still in Texas?”

“Yep. Mama and Melis—” She broke off to correct herself, “and my sisters.” With his body touching hers, he could feel her tense, a contrast to her light answer. “We don’t have anyone else.”

No one else. So, Melis-something. Melissa? Not many variations on the combination. Another item to include in his search. Tex answered to “Lindsey” so readily, he figured it must be her given name. Melissa and Lindsey. Tonight, he’d add the combo to the program.

Doing a search on a lover went against his personal credo. A pity she hadn’t given him a choice. Dammit, wouldn’t she ever let him in? “Who got your ranch in the divorce? Is one of your family running it for you?” And if she had property, why was she broke? Or here?

“It’s complicated.” With the noncommunicative answer, she tensed further before smiling. “No one would let Mama run a ranch. She has trouble managing a two-bedroom house. She loves us—God, she really does—but she’s not exactly practical.”

“At least she loves you,” he muttered. Even though he’d been married before, he’d never experienced true loving. In a myriad of small ways, Lindsey had been showing what he missed. Like doing his laundry with hers. Turning on the front door light for him if he was late. Buying the brands of groceries he liked and adding in other “treats” she thought he might enjoy. Cooking his favorite foods. Always having his favorite beer in the refrigerator. Saving up news tidbits to discuss.

His mother had done those things for him…before his father died.

“Your mama must have loved you,” Lindsey protested. Her fingers closed around his.

“She did.” He looked away, watching how the wind chime glinted in the sunlight. “And then she didn’t.” Her love had disappeared into the vacuum of a drug-driven life. “I knew she’d stopped when I was ten, and she sold me to get money for a fix.”

Lindsey’s mouth dropped open, and she snarled, “That bitch.” When her hand fisted, damned if he didn’t smile. Given the chance, his little submissive would probably start a knockdown fight.

Only Lindsey could make him smile when talking about his mother. “Easy, Tex.” He pried her fingers open. “I ran. Ended up in foster care, which wasn’t fun but was better than that.”

When he heard her growl under her breath, he couldn’t help but lean back, pull her on top, and kiss her until she forgot his past, her past, and they could both think about the present. The future would have to wait for a little while.

***

Where the hell did Lindsey keep her stamps? Friday afternoon, DeVries glanced at his watch and scowled. Simon would arrive any minute.

DeVries sure wasn’t pleased with the crazy transportation arrangements the women had arranged for the weekend at Serenity. That morning, Lindsey had picked up Dixon and Rona at the Demakis offices. The three had wanted to leave early to sightsee in Yosemite Park. Since deVries and Simon had work to finish up, they’d ride together.

He’d left the office thinking he was finished. Unfortunately, once home, he remembered paperwork he’d worked on here last night. It needed to go out today. If he could find a fucking stamp.

He detoured to the kitchen to open a red candy tin and grab a hunk of Lindsey’s fudge. He’d never understand women and their addiction to chocolate, but this shit was damn good. A shame she’d given most of it away to her favorite shelters. She’d taken another big tin to drop off for Mrs. Martinez when she picked up Rona and Dixon.

The girl liked her holidays. She’d talked him into helping decorate the pine tree. He’d managed to win the Christmas music war, so it was Ella Fitzgerald instead of Willie Nelson. Papier-mâché angels dangled in front of the kitchen window. The fireplace boasted the red felt stockings she’d sewn, and handmade cards from women and children at the shelters covered the mantel. The rooms smelled of pine and chocolate.

The delight she took in creating a holiday atmosphere made him feel odd. Maybe because he was enjoying it.

She’d giggled like a maniac when he gave her a fleecy tan hoodie with teddy bear ears on the hood. Later, she’d rewarded him by wearing only the hoodie while they’d watched TV.

Focus. He was supposed to be looking for stamps. He frowned. Probably in her desk. He went through the top drawer. Pens, pencils, scissors, brightly colored paper clips. The next drawer looked as if she’d locked it, but the wood was so warped a firm jiggle opened it. He found envelopes and stationary. Getting close. Beneath them were…printouts of newspaper clippings? He frowned at the heading for a San Antonio daily. Wasn’t she from Dallas?

Expecting to see graduation, wedding, or birth announcements, he realized the first article was about a woman who shot her husband. The responding officer was murdered by Lindsey Rayburn Parnell, the rancher’s wife.

Fuck. Yesterday, his search program had returned a hit for sisters named Lindsey and Melissa. Both born with the surname Rayburn.

A cop murdered? Feeling as if he’d been punched in the gut, he sank down into the desk chair. This was the secret Lindsey had been hiding? “No,” he muttered. No fucking way would she have killed anyone.

He dug through more of the clippings. One article insinuated the wife had been screwing a ranch hand. She and her husband fought, and she killed him. Maybe…maybe that scenario was possible. Not that she’d cheat. However if this was the pedophile husband, he deserved to die. So maybe she’d killed him.

He couldn’t visualize any circumstance where she’d murder a cop.

One clipping showed the murdered officer. Uniform bright and shiny. Idealistic. Probably younger than Lindsey. The girl couldn’t have hurt someone like that.

Piece by piece he went through the papers and found she had extensive background information about the police force in a small Texas town, the border patrol, and an agent named Ricks. She had e-mail addresses for ICE—Immigrations and Customs. What the fuck was she doing?

At the bottom, he found articles on password recovery and breaking into encrypted files. No reason for a little social worker to be reading those—not unless she wanted to hack into something.

His jaw was clenched tight as he shoved the clippings back in the drawer and shut it with a frustrated slam. She was in some seriously bad shit. And she’d damned well have to accept his help.

Babe, we’re going to have a chat. About everything.

The next drawer yielded a stamp. And he heard a car stop outside. Simon had arrived.

***

At the Hunt brothers’ Serenity Lodge in the mountains near Yosemite National Park, Lindsey stepped out of her rustic cabin and stopped to stare. After living in the misty bay area, the starkness here was visually astonishing. She was surrounded by a forest of black tree trunks and snow. Above them, the gray granite tops of the lower mountain ranges worked up to pristine white peaks.

“Brrrr.” Pulling her coat more tightly around her, she headed down the narrow footpath toward the main lodge. Hopefully Zander would be here soon. There wasn’t anything planned for tonight, and she looked forward to a quiet evening beside the fire with their friends. Tomorrow would be more exciting—a dungeon party.

She spotted Simon going into the adjacent cabin. “You’re here already?”

In the room behind him, Rona was shaking out a pair of pants from his suitcase.

He turned. “We’re just arrived. Did you get settled in?”

“Yep.” How many men could wear tailored clothing and still look perfectly at home in the wilderness? Only Simon. “I’m fixin’ to get something to eat in the lodge and talk Rebecca into letting me hold Ansel.”

Lindsey hadn’t seen the baby since he was born. Being the overprotective type, Xavier had insisted Rebecca have her baby in San Francisco where hospitals were available. To Rebecca’s annoyance, her husband, Logan, had heartily agreed. “Did you lose Zander on the way here?”

“He stopped down at the lodge to use Logan’s landline for a call.”

“Oh. Okay.” She’d already discovered her cell phone had no signal, and only a few of the cabins had a landline. “See y’all in a bit.” Lifting a mittened hand, Lindsey trudged her way down the mostly cleared path. Although the light snow from earlier in the day crunched under her boots, her feet stayed warm. Thank goodness secondhand stores could provide footwear, a hooded jacket, and mittens. To her delight, the knife sheath Zander had given her fit inside the snow boots.

Even better, with such good deals, she’d had enough money left to visit the mall and purchase the virgin-slut nightgown she’d wanted so badly. Zander would have a treat one night, especially since he’d gotten used to her wearing his flannel shirts.

The forest trail opened into a wide clearing. To the left was the two-story lodge, on the right was the road leading in, and at the far end, the parking area was half-concealed behind evergreen bushes. She detoured there to give her car a quick glance. Crime in such an isolated place was doubtful, but she still felt nervous.

Being uneasy at getting too far from evidence that might save her skin, she’d taken the flash drives from the fake smoke detector and hid half behind the car stereo, the other half inside the taillight area.

She gave the parking lot a careful scrutinizing. Everything looked fine, so she retraced her steps back to the log building.

In the lodge, Zander was standing beside the reception desk, talking on the phone. When she moved toward him, his eyes narrowed, and he gave her a long, somewhat uncomfortable perusal—almost as if he’d never seen her before. At last he smiled and held out his hand.

Lindsey went up on tiptoe to press a kiss to his jaw before nodding at the man sitting behind the desk.

Logan Hunt owned Serenity Lodge with his brother. Steel-blue eyes, small scar below his left cheekbone, face wind-and-sun darkened. Over six feet and all muscle, he had the same military bearing and indomitable aura as Zander.

Logan’s gaze ran down her body in an impersonal assessment and with enough power to remind her he was a well-known Dom in the area. “You dressed for cold. Good job.”

“Thank you.” She looked around. The room held several sitting areas with leather couches, dark red upholstered armchairs, and colorful rag rugs. A stone fireplace contained a roaring fire. On the mantel were carvings of wolves so realistic she could almost hear them howl. The far end had card tables in front of a wall of books and games. “Is Becca here?”

“She hoped you’d come over early. She’s in the kitchen.” He nodded toward a door on the left near the back.

“Got it.”

The country-size kitchen was fragrant with the scent of baking bread. Like Lindsey, Rebecca liked to bake, and last summer, they’d spent time exchanging their favorite old-fashioned recipes.

“Hey, you.” Rebecca held up a wooden spoon in welcome. She was browning hamburger in a skillet on the stove. “I’m making shepherd’s pie for your first night here.”

“Sounds perfect.” She spotted colorful Christmas cookies on a plate and, when Becca nodded, helped herself to one. Santa with sprinkles—who could resist? “I haven’t seen Jake or Kallie yet. Aren’t they here?” Logan’s brother and his wife had a house behind the lodge.

“Kallie lost a bet to her cousins and had to make a supply run to Modesto. Jake went too, since he’s giving her a surprise night on the town.” Becca grinned. “He likes to remind her she’s a pretty woman, so he had me pack her a suitcase of hot-night-out sexy clothes.”

“Now there’s a Dom for you,” Lindsey said. Since Kallie had been raised with boys, she tended to dress like them.

“Oh, he so is. They’ll be back tomorrow in time for the dungeon party.”

“Good.” Lindsey swallowed the last of the cookie and brushed her hands off. “Now, please tell me you have the baby here. I need some cuddles.”

“He’s always up for cuddles.” Rebecca tilted her head toward a corner. A cradle swing held a black-haired baby with a battered-looking German shepherd nearby.

As Lindsey approached, the dog rose to his feet. No wagging tail. No doggie smile. Someone took his guard duties seriously.

“Thor, right?” She held out her hand for him to sniff. “Becca says I can hold Ansel. S’okay with you, buddy?”

After a minute, Thor relaxed. The tail waved back and forth in permission.

“Good.” Lindsey lifted the baby out of his cradle. Look at those dark blue eyes. “You are totally going to break hearts when you get older, Master Ansel.”

A tiny fist tapped her chin as the baby gurgled back.

“Isn’t that the truth?” Rebecca said. “At least he will be able to have girlfriends. Can you imagine being Logan’s daughter? She wouldn’t be allowed to date until she was thirty.”

“Ha. First she’d have to find a guy brave enough to ask her out.” Lindsey cuddled the warm weight against her breasts, breathing in the fragrance of baby, and felt tears prickle her eyes.

“You okay?” Becca asked softly.

Lindsey bit the inside of her cheek to keep from crying. “My niece was this size when I left Texas.” Emily was turning one in a couple of months. I missed it all. Homesickness felt like someone had carved hollows into her chest, leaving it echoing with emptiness.

Becca frowned. “I’m sure Xavier would let you go home.”

Hell, betrayed by her own emotions. “I’m…staying away for now. Things were a bit riled up when I left.”

“Your ex-husband?”

Lindsey kept her gaze on the baby and nodded. Guilt tightened her mouth. In her world, friends didn’t lie to each other.

But her world had never included being accused of murder. Worlds change. She wouldn’t give her friends the dilemma of obeying the law or betraying a friend.

“I want to meet that ex of yours.” Zander’s rasping voice cut across the warm kitchen like a chainsaw.

Lindsey turned. “Hey. Business done for the day?”

“Yeah.” Mouth tight, he crossed the room with his predatory gait. He gave her a brief kiss…and stepped away.

Unease ran cold fingers up her spine at the way he studied her. What was with the odd stares today?

In her arms, Ansel kicked and chortled, obviously liking the newcomer. Maybe he too noticed Logan and Zander gave off the same dangerous vibrations.

Zander’s face gentled. “Cute little mite, Becca,” he said. “You do good work.”

“I’d say Logan put more effort into it than I did. Ansel’s nose looks like mine; everything else is pure Hunt.”

Zander ran a finger down the baby’s cheek—and the tiny fingers caught and held. “Tough bugger, aren’t you?”

“He really is.” Lindsey rocked back and forth. “What should I get a macho boy for his first Christmas? Maybe a rattle shaped like a hatchet or a baby bonnet Stetson?”

Becca laughed.

Ansel’s fingers still clung, and Zander hadn’t moved. What was there about seeing a big, powerful man with a helpless infant? Lindsey felt as if hands were squeezing her heart.

But Zander looked at her with an unreadable expression. “You’re gonna miss your family next week. For Christmas, maybe I should take you back to Texas. I can keep your ex from bothering you.”

“Hey, that’s a great idea,” Becca said, busily stirring the meat.

The hands squeezing Lindsey’s heart clenched, flattening it like roadkill. No blood was reaching her brain. Go back to Texas with Zander? Lindsey forced a snicker. “Nah, I’m not sure Texas is ready for the war you might start.”

“You think?” Zander said. “I guess, even in Texas, they’d frown if I murdered your ex.”

His comment was like a dash of cold water in her face, and she barely kept from gasping.

With the baby still holding his fingers, Zander stared at Lindsey. “I’d hate to have the cops after me.”

She couldn’t control her flinch.

His eyes narrowed. “Babe, it’s time for you to—”

“Here, Ansel, let’s see how you do with a rattle.” Her hands shook as she put Ansel in his crib. Were Zander’s comments offhand, or did he know something? Did she want him to know anything? Half of her wanted to run, the other half to bury herself in his arms and blurt everything out.

“DeVries, ready for some shooting practice?” Logan asked from the doorway. “Simon’s bringing your range bag.”

“Lindsey and I are—”

“Lindsey, you’re going to come?” Logan asked, jumping to conclusions.

Ugh. But if she went, she might avoid a discussion with Zander. She wasn’t prepared to lay everything out. Somehow, she couldn’t see him calling the cops on her. Unluckily that meant he could be arrested for not turning her in. God. Okay, go with, and once Zander was occupied, she’d break away. She wanted to talk to him—she did—however, she needed to think first. Somehow. “I don’t have a gun, but sure, I’d love to join you.”

“I’ll grab Becca’s revolver for you, sugar,” Logan said.

Zander lifted an eyebrow before nodding. “Let’s go.”

Already in the clearing outside the lodge, Simon handed deVries a dark bag. “Joining us, Lindsey? Good enough.”

A couple of minutes later, Logan returned and led the way up a trail.

Lindsey felt as if an internal blizzard had arrived, filling her bloodstream with ice. What was she thinking? She hated guns. Hated, hated, hated.