Inked Destiny

Nine

I’m going fucking nuts, she thought, bracing herself against the sibilant sound of a foreign voice in her head saying, Look, against a compulsion to turn her hands so her palms would be pressed to Momma Lee’s.

Tension screamed through Cathal’s grip on her shoulders. His touch lightened as he prepared to lunge for her wrists and jerk her clear of Momma Lee before she could do any damage, while Liam remained several feet away, a bored audience though she suspected he could move incredibly fast if he chose to act.

Yesss.

Etaín didn’t flinch, but it was a near thing.

“I remember you doing beautiful work,” Momma Lee said. “Fourteen and using homemade ink and a sewing needle to start with, and already people coming around here, looking for you in particular so they could get tattooed. What you can do for me, for all those like me, is don’t do any work that supports gangs like the one Tyrone over there, trying to hush his mama, is so proud to be in, or clubs like the Curs, that only perpetuate the waste of a lot of lives.”

“The only time I touch that kind of work is to cover it up.”

Momma Lee squeezed Etaín’s hands. “I’m glad.”

They left a short time later, stepping from the house into thinning grayness as the sun burned through the fog. “Shelter still?” Cathal asked.

Etaín’s hand went to her pocket, habit taking it there to retrieve her phone with Anton’s number in it. The phone’s absence was a reminder of having been abducted by the Harlequin Rapist. She shivered, hastily blocking further thought of him, or their time together.

“Yeah, the shelter.”

Liam walked away, as if going to his car. Cathal grimaced. “I feel like my head could explode with all the weird shit.”

“Now there’s an image. I hope I’m not standing close to you when it happens.”

He cut her a look. “You want to tell me how he not only found us but seemed to arrive out of nowhere? I’m pretty sure I didn’t hear or see a car pulling in when we did.”

She distanced herself with a step to the side. He reeled her back by grabbing her hand.

“I’m afraid if I answer I’m going to witness the whole head-exploding thing.”

Cathal laughed, since meeting her he’d done a lot of it—that is, when he wasn’t consumed by lust or jealousy or fear for her life. “Funny, Etaín.”

“I get that a lot.”

“Are you going to answer my question about Liam?”

“I think somehow he can travel between shadows.”

Cathal felt an immediate tightness in his chest. “Okay. I think we can leave it at that.”

She gave him a smile and he answered with a long, slow kiss before they pulled on helmets and made the trip to the shelter, parking in the back, to find Liam casually leaning next to the door.

Fuck, Cathal thought. It seemed like a lifetime had passed since yesterday, when he and Etaín had arrived at the shelter for the fund-raiser, him to manage the music, her to manage the tattoo artists as well as to work as one.

The fog hadn’t come this far inland, and even if it had, it might not have mattered to the kids who now called this place home, along with their parents or in some cases, their grandparents—and were lucky to have a roof and beds rather than to be living in cars or split from their families and sent into foster care. There were some twenty boys and girls playing basketball or hopscotch or jumping rope on worn asphalt.

Many of those who sought shelter here were the working poor. That had been an eye-opener for him, this world so far away from the one he inhabited.

They entered the building, Liam a deadly shadow behind them. For a split second, Cathal considered asking him how he’d gotten there, to see if Etaín was right—only to remember Liam stepping into the room and having all illusion of being human melt away.

Why bother? He was a fucking Elf.

Uneasiness slid into Cathal with a glance to the side at Etaín. Because she was Elf too, already so fucking beautiful, and after the transition she would probably be more so, and able to do additional magic, or stronger magic. What if over time she became more and more like Eamon, and identified less and less with human concerns? Then what? Would she be the one with regrets, about him?

Fuck that. She needed him. And grudgingly, he could see she needed Eamon too.

He shook off doubts and dismissed Eamon from his mind. The shelter was crowded, because it was Sunday, he guessed, and the adults without childcare responsibilities weren’t required to spend the day either at jobs or out looking for work.

Justine was in her office. She rose from her chair at the sight of Etaín, crossing the room with the brisk pace of a woman who could have been a drill sergeant.

Cigar smoke saturated the air around her. It made a bold statement about the woman who had to be in her sixties. It gave advance notice that she was more than capable of taking names and kicking ass.

She pulled Etaín into a fierce hug and Cathal could swear he heard the sound of ribs cracking. “Don’t ever scare me like that again.”

Justine’s command was as rough as her embrace. Etaín returned the hug, Cathal seeing the way she kept her hands curled, as if she feared even the contact of her palms with clothing.

Releasing Etaín to give Cathal a bone-crushing hug, Justine said, “Your timing is perfect. I’ve been going over the numbers. The fund-raiser was a huge success thanks in large part to the two of you. If we do this again, maybe in six months, and have the same or better results, I think we could add more bed space. Can I count on you?”

“Etaín is not in a position to offer such a promise,” Liam said, startling Justine as if she hadn’t been aware of him.

Cathal wondered if Liam could actually hide his presence altogether. It was not a pleasing thought.

Justine’s eyes narrowed as she took in Liam, the look in them making it obvious she didn’t care for what she was seeing. A glance at Etaín, and Etaín made the introduction, deflecting the confrontation his statement invited by saying, “Things are a little unsettled in my life right now. Okay if we talk about another fund-raiser in a week?”

A week, corresponding with Eamon’s deadline. Aggravation rushed into Cathal with the reminder, followed by amusement as he imagined Etaín comparing him to one of Pavlov’s dogs, where thinking of Eamon or hearing his name took the place of ringing bells. He couldn’t believe Eamon had stayed away this long.

Etaín plopped down in a chair, guiding the conversation to what had happened in Oakland with a mention of Kelvin. Justine returned to her seat behind the desk, settling into it with a weariness that held decades of failure and disappointment, and worse, grief over lives lost after they’d been turned around to become shining examples of hope and accomplishment.

Like she’d done with Momma Leeona, Etaín worked back to her teen years, to the kids she hadn’t seen in a long time and didn’t know how they’d turned out. Not a request for a list as they’d set out to get when they left his place, but a subtle interrogation and collection of names because Liam’s presence changed the equation, and Cathal understood that Etaín feared what might happen to those who wore her ink if Eamon were made aware of what they were up to and why.

Ultimately Etaín worked Vontae’s name into the conversation as well as inquiring about those she’d tattooed at Justine’s request. Cathal made mental notes, but other than that moment of recognition they’d experienced in the dream, there wasn’t anything to identify the shooter.

He caught himself rubbing the back of his neck, anxious to come up with a list of names and turn that list over to Sean, to get back to some semblance of normalcy.

Right. And as if the lack of normal conjured him up, Eamon entered the room.

Cathal restrained himself from baring his teeth. Barely, and only because a glance from Etaín had a little bell going off in his head.

On yeah, very Pavlovian.

Time to go, Etaín thought, easing the conversation to a conclusion and saying goodbye to Justine with a hug, the mix of things she felt when she finally turned toward Eamon leaving her as jittery as a junkie in need of a fix.

How had she missed the brush of his magic against hers before today? She could probably get high just closing her eyes and soaking it in.

Yesss.

Not just high, totally hallucinogenic. She was not going there right now.

The draw of like to like and magic aside, desire pooled and spread through her, a hunger made sharper and fiercer by separation. Need solidified by visceral memories of what it was like to be with him. With them both.

She introduced Justine to Eamon and it occurred to her that maybe that’s what he needed, more contact with humans outside his insulated world. That maybe if he spent time with her and Cathal, he’d come to understand the whole Lord thing worked against him when it came to them. And that Elf or changeling, this was still who she was and she had no intention of walking away from the important things in her life: the shelter, Stylin’ Ink, the crime victims she could help, her friends, including Derrick, Bryce, and Jamaal, who were family in the way she wished Parker and the captain could be.

And the changes in her gift? The question sent her optimism plummeting.

Sssafe. The word came with a flash of fire through the inked bands at her wrists.

Hearing the Dragon’s voice in her head suggested the opposite. But…A new day, a new start. It was what Justine preached here, making this the perfect time and place to reach out and take Eamon’s hand.

His smile had need rippling through her, not just lust but a desire for peace, for a relationship that was fun instead of filled with anger and discord. “I want to give you a tour of the shelter.’”

A goodbye to Justine, and Etaín stepped from the office, her free hand capturing Cathal’s when he might have walked ahead of them, consciously or subconsciously denying Eamon’s presence with a turned back.

The hallway was empty, though sounds from the first floor filtered upward, several babies crying, an overlay to conversation and the laughter of children. The sound of pots and pans, of the cooking staff joking, the lingering scent of breakfast mingled with that of too many people in one building, not all of them freshly bathed.

“We lost our shadow,” Etaín said, noting Liam’s absence.

“He waits outside, along with Myk.”

Eamon halted near the stairwell, his hand tightening on hers, forcing her to stop walking. Cathal choosing to do the same rather than release her hand.

It amused Eamon, and in truth he had no objection to it. The magic had chosen Cathal, and there was no denying that the human’s presence heightened his own desire for Etaín. Lust and magic were inextricably tangled, as they had been from the first moment he’d looked down onto the terrace and seen the two together.

Turning to face her, Eamon cupped her cheek, the sultriness that slid into her eyes an indication she didn’t intend to avoid the touch of his lips to hers. “It was a long night. Unbearable even.”

“You brought it on yourself.” Bold challenge, not words spoken in anger.

His thoughts flashed to deadly ocean waters and another changeling. “You can’t know how important you are to me, to those who will call you Lady.”

He claimed her mouth, wanting a response other than spoken words from her, needing it far more than he intended to admit, though his body didn’t care if she knew his desperation.

A moan escaped in the first sharing of breath and taste and heat. Relief and satisfaction came with her tongue greeting his in a sensual, taunting slide.

Her pelvis pressed to his, the rub of her mound to his erection causing the fire that was his element to pool in his testicles and become a hot furious roar in his cock. Desperate for a deeper reassurance after the way things had ended the night before, he pushed her against the wall. His hand went to her breast, his pleasure doubled at encountering the hardened nipple, at having her whimper and arch her back.

He’d feared that Etaín would be greatly weakened after nearly dying at the hospital. Instead, raw, wild magic poured into him, changeling magic unfettered by any sense of control. And he, who understood well the danger of it, of her particular gift, allowed it to continue. Believing his protections would hold, he deepened the kiss until he forget where they were, his hand leaving her breast, but only to go to the front of her shirt and the buttons there.

A moaned protest and then the wrenching of her mouth from his stopped him, bringing grungy walls into focus along with the smell of hardship and despair, sweat and meals prepared in bulk, as well as the sound of a building crammed with humans.

“I won’t spend this night away from you.” The quick cooling of her eyes was a reminder that he needed to be cautious in his choice of words and tone.

“Careful, that sounds a lot like Lord Eamon talking.”

He hadn’t thought courtship would be such a tricky undertaking, but he was nothing if not a quick learner. He smiled, brushing his lips over hers, the slight turn of her head in denial only making it easier for him to nuzzle her ear, to caress the lobe and murmur, “If I’m not mistaken, Etaín, there have been times when you enjoyed going to your knees in my presence. Do you deny it?”

She laughed, his misstep forgotten, the husky, amused sound of her voice lightening his heart in a way only she was capable of. “I don’t deny it,” she said, rubbing subtly against his erection, fingertips brushing over the additional earrings he now wore and sending a spike of hunger through his shaft.

He rewarded the truth with the fuck of his tongue into her ear canal, with a quick suck to the lobe, and then another, at the tip still rounded, but an erogenous zone for her as it was for the majority of their kind. “Maybe Cathal would enjoy witnessing it.” A small sexual taunt as he stepped back and away from her.

It took less than a second for his curiosity about Cathal’s reaction to be satisfied. And Etaín the same amount of time before another man’s lips captured hers in a possessive, raw demonstration of a more primal magic, one every bit as potent as that defining what the Elven were.

Eamon, for his part, enjoyed the show, enjoyed knowing he wasn’t the only one who could be accused of a lack of control around her. His desire heightened in a wash of Elven pheromone and carnal heat, a dare forming, a challenge he might put to Cathal—which one of them could last the longest while pleasuring her.

The images accompanying the idea hardened him further, as did her husky, “Let’s shelve the competition until we get back to your place and the clothes can come off.”

Eamon caught the flash of Cathal’s teeth, a quick baring that had his own lips curving upward as he followed her down the steps, content that when she took neither his hand nor Cathal’s, it was simply to improve mobility.

He had not truly seen the humans he’d passed upon entering the shelter to find her. Now she forced him to as she stopped to chat with the workers, with the homeless she knew by name, asking questions about others who weren’t there and lingering in rooms that shouldn’t contain even one child, much less seem crowded by them.

If he had a weakness at all when it came to humans, it was the very young. But while there was no escape from this lesson Etaín seemed determined to teach him, and he understood it was a lesson, he wouldn’t undo his earlier successful efforts at courtship by telling her this would change nothing.

She could hold him hostage here during this grace period of freedom. His focus on her, and those she spoke to, would remain unwavering because she was changeling, seidic, and he intended to keep her safe from magic and gift. But at the end of the week, he would set the terms.

If she’s still alive.

He rejected the possibility she’d be otherwise though he couldn’t prevent himself from sliding his hand beneath the thick fall of her hair so his palm rested on the smooth, warm skin of her neck.

“Where next?” he asked, given that they were now at the end of their tour of rooms. “Cathal’s?”

The subtle tensing he felt beneath his hand was warning enough he probably wouldn’t like her answer.

“No. We’re going to visit a friend of his. We could hook up afterward though, at Cathal’s place.”

He elected to be amused rather than aggravated—or far more uncomfortable, hurt, giving her an easy smile and avoiding a reminder that her promise to spend a week with Cathal entitled him to be present too. “I think not, Etaín. So far I’m enjoying this outing among humans. It is proving enlightening, as you no doubt intended. Would you have me cut it short?”

“No.”

He leaned forward, his lips claiming hers in an acknowledgement of just how thoroughly she enthralled him. It was a kiss interrupted by the sound of heavy footsteps.

Irritation flared when he lifted his mouth from hers and saw the muscled Cur he’d found Etaín dancing with days earlier, and that hostility was returned. “You still with this motherfucker, Etaín? That the reason you’re not taking calls from your friends?”