The Break-Up Artist

21

My family is about twenty years behind the times. We don’t have caller ID, among other once-cool-now-commonplace inventions, so when I’m forced to answer the phone, I have to take my chances that it won’t be some chatty relative like Aunt Lisa. Love her, but not the half hour’s worth of questions she shoots at me—at least one of which is always if I’m “dating any boys.”

I hear the phone ringing as soon as I come inside the house. I drop my shopping bags and pick up the kitchen line. Diane eats Wheat Thins at the table while flipping through a magazine. She never answers the phone. She has no interest in talking to whoever is calling, except telemarketers. Because when they ask “How are you doing?” it’s not out of pity.

“Hello?”

“Hello? Becca?”

As if on cue, my throat becomes a dried-up lake, and I have to almost cough to get my words out. “Hi.”

“It’s Erin.”

“And Marian, too!”

I yearn for Aunt Lisa’s nasal voice, asking me where I’m planning to apply to college.

“How are you?” Erin asks. She tries to sound cheerful, but she’s just as uncomfortable as me. “It was really good seeing you, despite the circumstances.”

“Thanks.”

“Is Diane there? We really want to talk to her. Did she change her cell phone number?”

I keep wondering why they are calling together. Two against one again. Always. “Let me see if she’s home.”

I hold the phone against my chest and mouth who’s calling. Diane shakes her head no and turns back to her magazine. “She’s not home. Can I take a message?”

“How is she doing?” Marian asks. “She won’t answer any of our calls or emails.”

“Sankresh and James are still friends, and we didn’t think she was coming. Becca, I feel horrible about what happened.” Erin’s voice catches, and it shakes something deep within me. “We hope she’s okay.”

“Yeah, how is she doing?”

“I’ll give her the message. I gotta go.” I hang up on them and cradle the phone in my hands for a few seconds. Diane watches me as I put the phone back. “Maybe you should talk to them. They seemed sincere.”

“They just want a laugh. If they really care, then why haven’t they come to see me?”

Why doesn’t Diane try to see them? I think to myself. She has a car. She’s able-bodied. But then I remember how they all just stood there at the birthday. Watching the car wreck instead of preventing it. They let Diane and me get stared at like circus freaks. They don’t know what Diane has been through.

“They don’t care,” Diane says. “Trust me.”

And I do because she’s my sister.

I wouldn’t say that Huxley gave me a makeover. I wasn’t some unfortunate-looking girl with acne who wore baggy T-shirts and ankle-length jean skirts to school. Rather, she merely tweaked and highlighted some of my preexisting features. So my first day at school with this new look isn’t some game-changer in my social profile. Time doesn’t stop, and some soft-rock song doesn’t blare in the background. I get a smattering of double takes and overlong stares, but overall, the effect is negligible. I’m still that girl in your class, just in a sleeker dress. Only those who know me make any mention.

“Becca?” Val spots me from down the hall after first period. She pulls Ezra down the corridor with her.

“Becca, wow,” she says. There’s little enthusiasm in her voice. She sounds deflated, almost hurt. “You look good.” She musters up some excitement. “I can’t believe it!”

“Yeah. I made some minor adjustments.” I try to catch Ezra’s reaction, but there is none.

“You went shopping and didn’t text me?” Val asks. I doubt she would’ve come, not if she was with Ezra.

“Huxley took me.”

“Oh. I didn’t know you guys were friends again.” Val’s voice has a twinge of jealousy in it. Now she knows what it’s like.

“Yeah. We’ve really bonded during SDA.”

“Great.” Val leans her head on Ezra’s shoulder. “Doesn’t she look great?”

He runs his fingers through his puff of hair and shakes his head. “Meh.”

I know he’s joking, but it still hurts. It would’ve been nice if he responded like the guys at the store.

Val elbows him in the ribs. He throws his arm around her waist and pulls her in close.

“You don’t think she looks beautiful?”

“She always has. A new dress doesn’t change anything.”

“I gotta go.” I walk to second period, blushing the whole way.

My lunch mates openly gawk at me, which I take as a compliment.

“Wow,” Quentin says. “You look great.” I can tell his eyes are struggling to stay north of my cleavage.

Fred blushes as he attempts to rip open a ketchup packet. I must really look nice, or they must really never talk to pretty girls.

My phone buzzes with a text message from Huxley. Rebecca, come sit at my table. And throw out that cookie.

She needs to join the CIA right now. Her observation skills are too perfect. I take my food and walk across the cafeteria. I pass the row of garbage cans and toss away my cookie. Val shoots me a quizzical look from her and Ezra’s love nest. She’s surprised about where I’m going as much as I am.

I pass Bari’s table, and instead of Derek next to her, it’s Calista. They have what looks to be a heart-to-heart while sipping on Diet Cokes. Bari rubs Calista’s hand soothingly. It’s just two people talking, but I can only imagine what—or who—they’re talking about.

Sunlight fills Huxley’s corner table. Her friends and their food gleam. Some part of me cares about sitting with Huxley and her friends. It’s the same part that’s intrigued like a science experiment. It will be something different.

“How’s the salad?” Huxley asks me. She bought the same one.

“It’s what you’d expect.”

“Is there a rule that says cafeteria food has to be inedible?” she asks.

I stand next to the full table, feeling more awkward by the second.

“Addison,” Huxley says. “Get up.”

Addison looks up from her magazine. She’s prettier than most of the models in it. Her curly red hair bounces on her shoulders. “What?”

“You’re in Becca’s seat.”

“What are you talking about, Hux?”

“You don’t sit here anymore.”

Addison laughs it off as a joke, but Huxley continues to glare. She waits patiently for Addison to stand.

“Are you kidding?”

“No. I’m not. You don’t sit here anymore.” Huxley is statue still, poised to attack if she needs to.

“I thought we were friends,” Addison says.

“Me, too. But when things I tell you in confidence happen to spread throughout the school, it makes me question our friendship. I thought I could trust you, but apparently, I can’t. How can I continue eating lunch with you when looking at your face makes me lose my appetite?”

Huxley doesn’t flinch or misspeak. I feel like I’m the one in trouble.

“This is crazy. I have never said anything to anyone. I swear.”

Steve squeezes his girlfriend’s hand in support. The rest of the table is riveted.

“Raise your hand if Addison ever told you any personal stories about me and Steve, or Steve and Angela,” Huxley says.

Slowly but surely, every person at the table raises a hand. Addison scrunches her face up, feigning outrage.

“This is a witch hunt! Don’t worry, Hux. I have plenty more stories to share.” Addison stacks up her books and flees out of the cafeteria. She leaves her tray on the table.

Huxley grins at me and motions at the empty chair. “Sit!”

The conversations at Huxley’s table are mundane, yet because popular people are saying them, I somehow find it more interesting. These are the celebrities of my school, and I’m seeing them in their natural habitat. I know it sounds dumb, but I feel sort of cool for joining them. Who knew being popular could be so easy? All it took was some lying, manipulation and moderate dance skills.

The girls talk about fashion and celebrities; the guys talk about sports. They play their gender roles well. My seat is in the middle, so I toggle between both discussions.

“Steve-o, what do you think about armadillos this time of year?” Greg Baylor says through a mouthful of mac ’n’ cheese. He’s burly with shaggy blond hair. You might mistake him for a caveman.

“What are you talking about, dude?” Steve asks.

“This scout at Chandler University called me last night. He wants us to come down and check out the campus for a weekend.” Greg shoves down another forkful of food. I wish I could eat mac ’n’ cheese without thinking of the caloric consequences.

“Us?” Steve asks. Huxley’s ears perk up. She checks out of the girls’ conversation.

“Yeah, man. He’s still interested. Are you going to eat that?” Greg points to my salad roll. I nudge it over. He takes it in one bite.

“Really?”

“You gotta come. Chandler University made it to the Sugar Bowl last year. And I heard that campus is wild.” He raises his eyebrows quickly, as if we didn’t already know what he meant.

“He’s still interested?” Steve asks.

“I just said that.”

Steve gazes at the rapidly diminishing mac ’n’ cheese while he thinks it over. I’m sure he’s picturing multiple scenarios of the weekend, all of them like a Girls Gone Wild video. The corners of his mouth turn up in a smile.

“I bet he’ll bring up that scholarship offer again,” Greg says.

“He’s too late. Steve’s already going to Vermilion,” Huxley says.

“Is that a done deal?” Greg asks.

I remember Steve’s talk with the coach. If he can’t pay for Vermilion, then nothing’s a done deal.

“Pretty much,” Steve says. Huxley rubs his shoulder.

“Pretty much? Come check out the school with me. One weekend won’t kill you, Steve-o.”

“I don’t think it’s a good idea,” Huxley says. “It wouldn’t be fair to waste the school’s time and money when he has no intention of going.”

She rests her head on his massaged shoulder. Steve thinks it over and taps his fork against his empty plate.

“It’s up to you, man.” Greg licks his disposable plate clean, then crumples it into a ball.

“I’ll pass. I already know where I’m going to school.” Steve turns his head to a beaming Huxley, and kisses her smack on the lips.

I make a quick dash for my locker before sixth period. Since we can leave lunch a few minutes before the bell rings, I usually can zip down to my locker then all the way to health class without being late. I round the corner of the science hallway. Formaldehyde fills my nostrils. I stop dead in my tracks when I come to my corridor.

Val leans against my locker. She’s crying.