The Trouble with Honor

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

THE BEAUTIFUL SUNSHINE of the afternoon had given way to rain, and the guests were in the foyer, filling the hallways and grand ballroom. It had been set for a night of gaming with card and casino tables, as well as roulette. The formal dining room was likewise set with tables, but for dining. At half past ten, a buffet would be provided.

Honor walked through the throng, pausing to accept the greetings of several guests and the compliments of more than one gentleman. She had dressed for the evening in anticipation of seeing Easton again. She wore a crimson satin trimmed with black lace and beaded embroidery that swirled about the hem of the gown and her train, and the front panel of the underskirt. The décolletage was scandalously deep, edged with more black lace. Around her throat she wore a choker of black obsidian stones, a gift from the earl on the occasion of her twentieth birthday. It was amazing to think that had been two entire years ago. Most of her friends that age were married now. Lucinda Stone was expecting her first child.

Honor felt a curious little draw of something when she thought of Lucinda that felt almost like regret.

But that was impossible. Honor didn’t regret anything. She’d lived her life as she’d wanted, taking advantage of every opportunity to be as free as she pleased. So why, then, had that freedom begun to feel a little like a noose? No, no, that was not what she believed.

She believed in her freedom when she wasn’t thinking of George Easton.

Speaking of Easton, where was he? She tried not to imagine him befriending any other woman here—the thought was a bit nauseating.

She could not see him in the throng.

A current seemed to run through the house; laughter crackled, the crowd’s jovial mood helped along by unimaginable quantities of champagne and wine, served by a team of eight footmen.

Even the earl had come down, Honor was pleased to see. He was dressed in formal tails, his neckcloth snowy white against the sickly pallor of his skin. He looked rather small in the large, upholstered armchair where he sat, a footstool under his feet, a blanket over his lap, Jericho standing behind him.

Honor’s mother was sitting beside him, beautifully regal in the silver gown. She was laughing at something Mr. Cleburne was saying. Mr. Cleburne was suddenly ever present, wasn’t he? She supposed Monica had seen to that.

Honor made her way to the earl’s side and crouched beside his chair, covering his hand with hers. “How do you fare this evening, my lord?”

He smiled at her, touched the back of his hand to her cheek. “I am fatigued, darling, but otherwise, I feel well enough, I suppose. You look beautiful.” He cocked his head to see the obsidian choker and smiled. “Look at your daughter, Joan,” he said, putting his hand on his wife’s hand. “Isn’t she beautiful?”

Honor’s mother turned a bright smile from the conversation with Mr. Cleburne, Augustine and Monica to Honor.

Honor smiled and touched the black choker. “Do you remember the necklace his lordship gave me on my birthday, Mamma?”

Her mother’s gaze dropped to the necklace a moment, then slowly lifted to Honor’s eyes again. “Of course I recall it. You’ve taken it from my jewelry box.”

Augustine chuckled and said to Mr. Cleburne, “There is never a moment’s peace with so many women, sir. But you will grow accustomed to it.”

Honor was so anxious to dispel any idea that she might have taken the necklace from her mother that she only vaguely wondered why Mr. Cleburne would need to grow accustomed to sisters. “No, Mamma! The earl made a gift of it to me, remember?”

“You stole it,” her mother insisted, her gaze suddenly dark and distant. Standing just on the other side of her, Monica’s gaze widened with surprise.

“She’s not stolen it, Joan,” said the earl. “I gave it to her.”

Her mother yanked her hand free of the earl’s. “Why would you lie to protect her?”

Stunned, Mr. Cleburne looked from Honor to Lady Beckington. “May I be of some help?”

Augustine was gaping in shock at his stepmother, and Monica... Monica’s gaze was fixed on Honor, neither surprised nor smug. She seemed only curious as to what Honor would say next.

God in heaven, she knew. She knew Honor’s mother was going mad.

Honor’s heart began to race. She quickly took off the necklace. “Here, Mamma. You are quite right, I have taken it without permission.” She held the necklace out to her mother.

Lady Beckington turned away from it, as if looking at it hurt her. “I don’t want it now,” she said, as if the necklace had been ruined. “Oh, there she is! There is my daughter Grace!” she said, and rose, almost pushing Mr. Cleburne aside as she reached for Grace.

Grace looked curiously at them all, but when her gaze met Honor’s, the color seemed to bleed from her face. “Good evening, Mamma,” she said, and kissed her mother’s cheek.

Her mother grabbed Grace in a tight embrace. “How thankful I am that you have come,” she said. “She stole my necklace!” She glared at Honor.

The earl very shakily reached his hand up to his wife’s arm. “Sit, Joan, sit, sit. I should like you near.”

Honor’s mother looked as if she meant to refuse her husband, but Mr. Cleburne put a hand on her elbow, guiding her into the chair. With one last glare for Honor, she smiled up at Mr. Cleburne as if everything were quite normal, as if she hadn’t just accused Honor of stealing from her.

But Augustine, Monica and Grace were all looking at Honor uncertainly, not knowing what to say. And what was Honor to do?

It was the earl who saved her. He subtly touched her hand. “Bloody women,” he said, his voice rough. “Always arguing over this jewel or that shoe, are they not, Cleburne?” he said with a dismissive flick of his wrist.

Mr. Cleburne laughed with anxious relief. “Quite so, my lord.”

“If you will excuse me, my lord, I should make sure the kitchen is in order,” Honor said, to which Grace’s eyebrows rose nearly to her hairline, seeing as how Honor rarely set foot in the kitchen. Nonetheless, Honor walked on, the necklace still clutched in her hand.

But as she moved away, she couldn’t seem to settle her heart, racing with fear.

She wished she knew what to do, she wished, oh, God, how she wished that she had taken her responsibility to marry more seriously. If she had married, she would be in a position to care for her mother without fearing what would become of her.

Honor needed air, a moment of quiet to think. She stepped out of the ballroom and into the crowded hallway.

A touch to her arm startled her; she looked up to see George Easton.

He gave her a subtle wink as he bowed before her. “There you are, Miss Cabot. I thought perhaps you had returned to London, as I’ve seen hide nor hair of you since I left all my cares behind to come to your aid.” He cocked a brow, a playful smile on his lips.

Her foolish heart skipped several beats at the sight of him. She suddenly didn’t feel quite so alone. “Perhaps you’ve not seen me about because you were well occupied?” She arched a brow right back at him.

“Indeed I was,” he said agreeably. “I spent the afternoon playing croquet with your future sister-in-law and charming her into submission. You do recall, do you not, the reason for our acquaintance?” he asked, gesturing back and forth between them.

She did not like to think he was here because of Monica. She wanted him to be here for her.

“It went exceedingly well, if you’re wondering,” he said. “Much like humoring a child—”

“Humoring a—oh!” Honor exclaimed. “It is comforting to know that your esteem for yourself never wavers!” She stepped around him, intending to stalk away before she said something she’d regret, but Easton was not content to let her go. He stopped her with a hand to her abdomen as she tried to pass.

“Don’t you dare flounce away from me in a snit, madam.”

“I am neither flouncing nor in a snit,” she said, pushing his hand away.

“Yes, you are. You’re angry that your little scheme is not working and are directing your frustration at me.”

That wasn’t it at all. Her frustration was too ill defined, directed at everything and everyone. “You are quite right, Mr. Easton,” she said imperiously. “I am directing my frustration at you. I truly believed you were the man for this, could turn any woman’s head—”

“I beg your pardon once more, but you claimed that. I never did.”

“I don’t want you to do it!” she blurted.

Easton blinked. “Pardon?”

What was she doing? Honor put her hand to her forehead and closed her eyes, trying to make sense of her feelings. “You were right. It was a ridiculous notion, and one that has failed miserably.”

“Have a care, love,” Easton muttered, and smiled reassuringly. “I’ve not given up, and frankly, I never thought you would. I’ve never met a more tenacious and stubborn—”

Honor lifted her head, her eyes narrowing.

“Pardon,” he said with an easy smile. “Determined person in my life.”

“I was. I am,” she quickly amended. “But this...this is folly. Childish folly. I don’t want you to do it. Please.”

“Well, yes, but... Good God, you are defeated,” he said, pretending shock. “Where is the swashbuckler?”

The swashbuckler had deserted her. She felt nothing but fear and uncertainty and a strong desire for the man standing before her. She shrugged halfheartedly. She felt torn and pulled in so many conflicting directions, everything twisted all around, and in the midst of it were her growing feelings for Easton.

“Dear God,” Easton muttered, his gaze sweeping over her face. “Stand right where you are, Miss Cabot.” He walked a few feet away to hail a passing footman with a tray laden with champagne flutes. He returned and handed a flute to her. “Cheer up. That’s a command,” he said. “I won’t allow the one shining star in this bloody ton to lose her flame. I’ll even dance if I must.”

That brought her head up with a swell of tenderness. “Really?” she asked hopefully.

He smiled at her earnestness. “Really.”

That admission gave Honor a new breath of exhilaration for reasons that didn’t seem prudent or even reasonable. She suddenly felt much lighter as she sipped her champagne. She looked into his pale blue eyes, filled with the warmth of his concern for her. “I need some air,” she said simply.

His eyes sparked in the low light of the hallway. “I thought you’d never admit it.”