Cry Wolf

Chapter Twelve

Jimmy Lee sat on the windowsill, feeling sorry for himself, wearing nothing but his dirty white trousers and a frown. Sweat trickled in little streams down his chest to pool on his belly. He sipped at a glass of brandy, brooding, reliving his humiliation in his mind, tormenting himself with it. He had had that crowd in the palm of his hand, he thought, curling his fingers into a fist. Then that damn Chandler bitch had ruined everything. Of course, he had managed to salvage the situation with his quick thinking, but the moment of glory had been spoiled, just the same.

Women were the bane of his existence. Sluts and whores, all of them. Some came in more respectable packages than others, but they were all alike underneath the wrapping. Wicked as Eve, every last one of them.

He laughed a little at the biblical reference and tossed back a gulp of brandy. Shit, he was even starting to think like a preacher.

The night was still and hot as hell, the air electric with something like expectation. A dark restlessness shifted inside him and he lifted his glass and tried to douse the feeling with the last of his drink. The quiet pressed in on him, irritating raw nerve endings like fingernails on a chalkboard. He longed for the noise of New Orleans, the sounds and smells of Bourbon Street, the dirt and dark alleys of the Quarter, the places the tourists never saw.

A man could get anything he wanted in New Orleans, any way he wanted it.

But he was out here, stuck on the edge of the godforsaken swamp. He had an apartment up in Lafayette, but he had chosen Bayou Breaux as the spot to launch his campaign, and so had rented this one-room bungalow at the edge of nowhere in order to have some privacy.

Bayou Breaux had seemed the perfect choice for his "War on Satan"-the heart of Acadiana, where good Christian people were as thick as ants on a watermelon rind, where times were a little lean these days because of the perilous state of the oil industry and the agricultural economy, where crime was pressing in and people needed something to grab on to and believe in. There were too many Catholics to suit him, but there were also busloads of fundamentalists fervent enough and gullible enough to believe anything. They were the core of his ministry. They would bankroll him into stardom and carry him there on their shoulders.

If Laurel Chandler didn't get in the way.

The screen door swung open with a creak and Savannah Chandler walked in, a seductive vision in her short flowered dress and red high heels. Her gaze scanned the shabby little room, taking in the dingy yellow walls, the cheap, mismatched furniture, the bottle of E amp; J on the battered coffee table, assessing the surroundings the same way she might judge a new boutique.

Finally she turned toward him, not saying a word, acting as if she had more right to be there than he did. She had eyes like a she-wolf-pale, translucent blue-and something in them sent a shiver of awareness down his spine. A white-hot flame that burned. A hunger that called to his own. A recognition of a common need.

"All dressed up and nowhere to go, Jimmy Lee?" she drawled.

"I could say the same to you."

She shot him a sly look from the corner of her eye. "No, you couldn't. I came here."

"What for?"

"For a while."

He said nothing as she skirted around the old iron bed, trailing a forefinger along the foot rail. She stared at him from under her lashes. He could feel the heat of her gaze on his face, on his bare chest, and he couldn't quite resist the urge to suck in his stomach. She came toward him, head down, her long wild hair tumbling over one shoulder, twining with the long strand of pearls she wore. Her hips rolled sensuously from side to side. The only sounds in the room were the click of spike heels against linoleum, the creak of the old ceiling fan as it turned, and the soft, seductive swish of fabric as it rubbed against skin.

Jimmy Lee held himself still as lust rose up inside him like a demon. She stopped a scant inch away. Her perfume mingled with the faint scent of brandy and the damp, earthy aroma of the swamp that drifted in through the window, and beneath it all lay the unmistakable musk of arousal-hers, his…

"Your sister made a fool of me today," he said, his voice low and whiskey-hoarse.

One corner of her mouth curled into a subtle sneer. "You oughta be used to that, Jimmy Lee."

He moved so quickly, she couldn't help gasping as his hand closed, tight and punishing, on her upper arm. "I'm gonna be a star," he said softly.

She didn't ignore the pain of his fingers biting into her flesh. Instead she drank it in, fed on it, smiled a little deeper. "You're nothing but a two-bit hustler."

"And you're nothing but a cheap piece of snatch," he said. "A whore without a price tag."

She slapped him so hard that the blow sang up her arm and her palm burned like live ash. In one explosive move, Jimmy Lee was on his feet, his hand thundering down to return the slap. It snapped her head back and the split that had knitted together along her bottom lip cracked open, instantly filling her mouth with the sharp, thick taste of her own blood.

As if a door had been suddenly thrown open inside her, all the restlessness, the recklessness, the wildness rushed out on a wave of hate. Hate for him, hate for herself, an all-encompassing, drenching, drowning hate that washed away control, compunction, restraint. And all of it-the need, the hate, everything-glowed in her eyes as she turned her head and looked up at Jimmy Lee Baldwin.

He stared down at her for a long while, feeling again that strange kinship between them. Something dark, something evil. And it stirred arousal like nothing else he'd ever known. Desire rose up like a beast inside him, wild, rabid, unchained. A sound of animal need rose up the back of his throat as he pulled Savannah roughly against him and crushed her mouth with his.

She fought his embrace-not to escape, just to fight-but all her hands could grasp was the fever-hot, sweat-slick skin of his chest and upper arms, and she groped and clawed and pinched as the ripe male scent of him filled her head and his tongue filled her mouth.

Behind her back, his fingers worked frantically at the zipper of her dress. He pulled the tab down a few inches, then curled his fingers into the opening and tore it the rest of the way. He worked it past her shoulders and lower as he dragged his mouth from her lips to her throat. He grasped the neckline of the dress in both hands and jerked it down, hunger snarling inside him like a wild dog as her breasts sprang free, full and firm. He bent over and caught one turgid peak in his hot, avid mouth, sucking hard, wringing a frantic sound from her… and another and another. Winding his hand into her pearl necklace, he rubbed the cool, satiny beads across her other aching point.

Unsure of whether she wanted to hold him to her or push him away, Savannah shoved at his shoulders, tangled her hands in his slicked-back hair and pulled. This was a battle for her mind, for her soul, and desperation gripped her throat at the idea that she stood no chance of winning. This is what you were born for, Savannah. Don't try to deny it…

For an instant she was back in her room at Beauvoir, and the man sucking greedily at her breast was her stepfather. She cried out, not at the assault of her body, but at the conflicting feelings that assaulted her. Her body responded to his touch, tingled and burned and ached. In the beginning she hadn't liked it, but over time she had come to see that Ross was right-this was what she was made for, this was what she was good at. But the pleasure that ribboned through her body brought with it a wrenching shame. She was a whore. That was all she would ever be. That was all any man would love her for-sex.

She sobbed a little, feeling trapped, but she cast aside the sensation and let Ross's words balm her ravaged heart. "You're so beautiful, Savannah. You're so much more woman than your mother. I want you all the time. Sometimes I think I'll go mad with need of you…"

Need of her. He needed her. He wanted her. The words gave her a sense of power, and she grasped it and hung on.

"You're wicked, Savannah," Baldwin muttered, trailing his mouth down the slope of her breast, over the quivering muscles of her stomach. "You're a witch the way you make a man want you."

A wild, bitter laugh tore from her. She braced her hands against the window frame as Jimmy Lee went down on her. He caught the hem of her dress and shoved it up past her hips, so that it bunched around her waist. The strand of pearls hanging down between her breasts, she teetered on her red high heels, feet braced apart, head swimming dizzily, drunk on a mix of need and hate and self-pity and self-loathing and rapacious, insatiable arousal.

Jimmy Lee devoured her, as greedy and ravenous as a glutton at a feast. His tongue teased and flicked and probed, bringing her to the edge of orgasm but never beyond, never granting her satisfaction, only pushing the pain of unfulfilled arousal to its outer limits.

"I hate you, Jimmy Lee!" Her voice was little more than a rasp, as tormented as the rest of her body, as seized by desire and frustration. "You're a son of a bitch."

He tumbled her back across the creaking, sagging mattress of the old bed, falling across her, pinning her arms above her head with one hand. She struggled beneath him as he reached down with his free hand and stripped his belt from his trousers.

"You're nothing but a pervert, Jimmy Lee," she taunted, her heart racing as he bound her hands to a rail on the iron headboard.

"It takes one to know one," he growled.

She laughed, a throaty, seductive laugh, her cool, she-wolf eyes glowing with hunger and anticipation as he sat back, straddling her thighs, and unfastened his trousers. He didn't bother to take them off, but he did bother to protect himself, pulling a condom out of his pocket and slipping it on with practiced efficiency.

"Can't be too careful these days," he said. He braced himself above her on his elbows and stared down at her, his breath coming in hard pants. "My adoring public wouldn't take it too kindly if I caught something nasty from some alley cat who spreads her legs for every man in town."

Savannah glared at him. "I'll be sure to tell them you said that."

"Who'd believe you?" he asked, contempt for her festering inside him like a boil. "I'm their savior. You're just a bitch in heat."

"Don't bother telling anyone, Savannah. No one will ever believe you… They'll see you for what you are-little slut, little prick teaser… You're a bad girl, Savannah, and everyone knows it… There's no use telling. We both know you seduced me…"

She closed her eyes as the voice played in her head. She raised her hips as Jimmy Lee thrust into her… and hated herself.

The midnight moon cast a silvery sheen down on the trees, and the mist crept, soft and white, across the surface of the black water.

A lot of women were afraid of the swamp. A lot of men were afraid of the swamp. It didn't frighten Savannah. She felt something other than fear out here. Something ancient. Something that called to her and stirred her blood.

This place had always been her escape. This was where she and Baby had run to get away from home and the unhappiness there. Out here she felt free. She felt like a part of the swamp, like an animal-a deer or a bobcat or a copperhead snake. She wanted to take her clothes off and be naked here, be a part of it, a creature of the Atchafalaya.

Giving in to that primal desire, she slipped off the dress the Revver had ruined for her, tossed it on the hood of the car, and slicked her hands down over the curves of her naked body.

For a moment she closed her eyes and imagined what it would be like to lie down here on the mat of dead leaves and welcome her lover into her body beneath the light of the bayou moon. They would mate as all animals mated, without guilt, without inhibition, glorying in the pure excitement of it. She would scream out in ecstasy, her cries mingling with the eerie cacophony that carried across the swamp at night.

The mental image wrung a low moan from her, made her ache with need, a need Jimmy Lee hadn't been able to assuage no matter how many ways he used her-and he had used her in every way a man could use a woman. This was a need no man could quench, a need that was rooted deep in the core of her.

She threw her head back, lifting her face to the moon, tumbling her wild hair down her back. The restlessness stirred harder, hotter. The wildness pulled at her, drew on something deep within. She needed… needed… needed…

Need drives the predator. Not the need for food, but for sustenance of another kind. A need for blood, a taste for death. A need to punish, a desire to inflict pain. To watch pain grow like a cancer, from a simple response into something all-consuming. A need to control. To play God.

To play. A game. The thought brings a smile. The smile brings a chill to the prey. For every game there is a loser. The one bound and held captive knows the outcome before the game begins. For the victim there is no game, only anticipation, pain, terror, and, she prays, death. Please, death. Soon…

No one hears her screams. No one comes to her aid. There are no saviors in the swamp. Cruelty here is a way of life. Death as commonplace as snakes. Danger hidden in beauty. No salvation. No justice. Life. Death. The hunter and the hunted.

The knife gleams silver in the moonlight. The blade cuts delicately, with skill, slicing like a bow across the strings of a violin. The song it plays high-pitched and eerie. Human. A prelude to death.

And in the end, the instrument will fall silent, the prey will succumb. She will die as the predator believes she deserves to die-naked and defiled. Another dead whore left to rot in the swamp. A fitting end, a fitting place. And the predator will glide away in the bâteau, silent, safe, the secret shared with only the trees and the creatures of the night…

Laurel sat up suddenly, shaking, cold, her skin slick with sweat, her heart pounding. The nightmare faded as she grounded herself in reality, but the sounds of the children's cries still echoed in her mind, driving her from bed. She crossed to the highboy and pulled out another oversize T-shirt, trying to crowd the last of the dream from her brain. She was trembling violently, her stomach knotting with residual anxiety, and she cursed a blue streak under her breath, battling the weakness.

Her hand brushed across the bottle of tranquilizers tucked in among her underwear, left over from her stay at Ashland Heights. Dr. Pritchard had told her to take them when she needed help sleeping, but she wouldn't. No matter how badly she wanted to, she wouldn't take any. They were a crutch, another weakness, and she was so damn tired of being weak.

She changed quickly and went out onto the balcony, hoping to rejuvenate herself with fresh night air, but the air was heavy and warm, without a breath of a breeze. Folding her arms against herself to keep from shaking, she padded down to the French doors of Savannah 's room and peeked in. The bed was unmade, the rich gold-and-ruby spread a tangled drift across the mattress, lace-edged satin pillows mounded along the ornate French headboard and tossed carelessly onto the floor. The rest of the room had Savannah's stamp of housekeeping draped everywhere in the form of discarded lingerie and articles of clothing that had been dragged out of the closet and abandoned in favor of something brighter, skimpier, sexier, trashier.

Fear cracked through the other emotions that were thick in Laurel 's throat as a medley of lines played through her head. "Murders?"… "Four now in the last eighteen months… Young women of questionable reputa-tion"… "She gonna come to grief, dat one."…

She chewed hard on her thumbnail as she wrestled with the urge to call the police. She was being silly, jumping to conclusions. There was nothing unusual in Savannah 's staying out past two-or all night, for that matter. She could have been anywhere, with anyone.

With a killer?

"Stop it," she ordered, her voice a harsh whisper as she reined in the irrational urge to panic. Dammit, she wasn't an irrational person. She was logical and sensible and practical. Wasn't that what had saved her when she was growing up in the poisonous atmosphere of Beauvoir?

That and Savannah.

Her gaze fell again on the bed, and she jerked herself away and headed for the stairs that led down to the courtyard, her stride brisk and purposeful.

She was feeling unsettled, skittish. The evening at Frenchie's had rattled her, from her encounter with Baldwin to Savannah 's fight to Jack's tirade to the role she had agreed to play for the Delahoussayes. Truth to tell, that probably had her the most on edge. Tomorrow she would have to go down to the courthouse and see about solving the problem of Jimmy Lee Baldwin. She would have to go to work as if she had never stopped, as if she hadn't left her last job in disgrace. She would go into the halls of justice and face the secretaries, the clerk of court, the judge, other attorneys, Stephen Danjermond.

She had been mulling over that prospect as she walked home from Frenchie's. With Jack nowhere to be found, and the last rays of day still seeping through the gloom of evening, she had set off for Belle Rivière on foot, hoping to walk off some of the anxiety and self-doubt. But after only two blocks, a bottle green Jaguar pulled alongside the curb, its passenger window sliding down with a hiss.

"Might I offer you a ride, Laurel?" Stephen Danjermond leaned across the soft gray leather seats of the car and stared up at her, his green eyes glowing like jewels in the waning light. He smiled, that handsome, perfectly symmetrical smile, tinting it with apology. "As much as I enjoy bragging about our diminished crime rate in Partout Parish, I hate to see a lady take chances."

"I could be taking a chance with you, for all I know," Laurel said evenly, keeping her fists tucked in the deep pockets of her baggy shorts.

Danjermond regarded her with a touch of disappointment, a touch of amusement. "I think you know me better than that, Laurel."

She looked at him blankly, trying to cover her confusion. They had only just met, but somehow she knew if she pointed that out to him, he would only be more amused. She felt as if he were a step ahead of her in time, that she was coming into a play already in progress and missing her cue. If he could rattle her this much with a simple conversation, he had to be hell on wheels in a cross-examination. A man destined for great things, Stephen Danjermond.

She pulled open the door of the Jag and sank down into the butter-soft seat. "I don't know you at all, Mr. Danjermond," she murmured, her tone as cryptic as his expression.

"I intend to remedy that situation."

He let the car ease along the deserted street, silent for a moment, the Jag as quiet as a soundproof booth. He had shed his tailored suit for a knit shirt the color of jade and a pair of tan chinos, but he still looked immaculate, perfectly pressed.

"Dinner with your parents was an interesting occasion," he said.

"They're not my parents," Laurel blurted automatically, a hot flush stinging her cheeks as he looked at her with one dark brow raised in question. "What I mean to say is, Ross Leighton isn't my father. My father passed away when I was small."

"Yes, I know. Killed, wasn't he?"

"An accident in the cane fields."

"You were close to him." He stated it as a fact, not a question. Laurel said nothing, wondering how he knew, wondering what Vivian might have told him. Wondering if he was privy to Vivian's plans for the two of them.

He shot her another steady look. "Your aversion to Ross," he explained. "I suspect you never accepted his taking your father's place. A child loses a beloved parent, resentment toward the usurper is natural. Though I should think you would have gotten over it by now. Perhaps there's something more to it?"

The answer was none of his business, but Laurel refrained from saying so. Her skills were rusty, but the instincts were still there. Danjermond's were honed to perfection. He didn't have conversations, he had verbal chess matches. He was never off duty. Every exchange was an opportunity to exercise his mind, sharpen his battle skills. She knew; she had been there. She had been that sharp, that focused. She knew an answer to this question would put her in check.

"I'm sorry about the scene my sister caused," she said casually. " Savannah does love to be dramatic."

"Why are you sorry?" He stopped the Jag for the red light at Jackson and pinned her with a look. "You aren't the one who caused the commotion. You have no control over your sister's actions, do you, Laurel?"

No. But she wanted to have. She wanted control. She wanted the components of her world to fit neatly into place. No messes, no unpleasant surprises.

Danjermond's gaze held fast on her. "Are you your sister's keeper?"

She shook off the thoughts and kicked herself mentally for not seeing the potential hazards of this subject she had diverted them onto. "Of course not. Savannah does as she pleases. I know she won't apologize for disrupting Vivian's gathering, so I will. I was merely taking up the gauntlet for etiquette."

"Ah," he smiled, looking out over the hood of the car, "the gauntlet. You might have been a knight of the Round Table in a past life, Laurel. Galahad the Good, adhering to your strict code of honor."

He seemed amused, and it irritated her. Did he think he was too urbane, too sophisticated for the quaint, provincial ways of Bayou Breaux-he the privileged son of old New Orleans money?

"Hospitality is the Southern way. I'm sure you were raised to have better manners than to, say, interrogate a guest," she said sweetly, shifting to the offensive.

He looked surprised and pleased at her parry. "Was I interrogating you? I thought we were getting acquainted."

"Getting acquainted is generally a reciprocal process. You haven't told me anything about yourself."

"I'm sorry." He sent her a dazzling smile that had doubtless knocked more than one simple belle off her feet. Laurel reminded herself she was no simple belle, had never been. "I'm afraid I find you such an interesting and enchanting creature, I lost my head."

The sincerity in his voice was too smooth, too polished to be real. Laurel had the unnerving feeling that nothing on this earth could rattle Stephen Danjermond. There was that sense of calm around him, in his eyes, in the core of him. She wondered if anything could ever penetrate it.

"False flattery will get you nowhere, Mr. Danjermond," she said, glancing away from him to her reflection in the mirror on the visor. "I hardly look enchanting tonight."

"Fishing for a compliment, Laurel?"

"Stating a fact. I have no use for compliments."

He turned in at the drive to the carriage house that served as Belle Rivière's garage and let the Jag idle in park. "Practicality and idealism," he said, turning toward her, sliding his arm casually along the back of the seat. "An intriguing mix. Fascinating."

Laurel 's fingers curled over the door handle as he studied her with those steady, peridot eyes. "I'm so glad I could amuse you," she said, her tone as dry as a good martini.

Danjermond shook his head. "Not amuse, Laurel. Challenge. You're a challenge."

"You make me feel like a Rubik's Cube."

He laughed at that, but his enjoyment of her spunk was cut short as his pager went off. "Ah, well, duty calls," he said with a sigh of regret, punching a button on the small black box that lay on the seat between them. "Might I beg the use of a telephone?"

He made his call in the privacy of Caroline's study and left immediately after, leaving Laurel feeling a mix of relief and residual tension. She had dreaded the prospect of introducing him to Aunt Caroline and Mama Pearl and having to sit through coffee and conversation. She had escaped that fate, but the tension lingered.

It lingered, still, as she wandered the cobbled paths of the garden in her bare feet. What a nightmare that Vivian saw them as a match.

Even if she had been in top form, Laurel wouldn't have wanted anything to do with him personally. He made her uneasy with those cool green eyes and that smooth drawl that never altered pitch or tempo. He was too composed when she felt as if she were scrambling on the side of a steep hill, scratching for a handhold. He was too intensely male, she supposed.

An image of Jack came to her, unbidden, dark, brooding, intense. Intensely male in a more basic, primal way than Stephen Danjermond… and desire stirred when she thought of him.

It made no sense. She had never been attracted to bad boys, no matter how seductive the gleam in their eyes, no matter how wicked their grins. She was a person who lived by the rules, stuck to them no matter what. There hadn't been a rule made Jack Boudreaux wouldn't go over, under, or around. She had always been one of the world's doers, tackling problems head-on. Jack's credo was to avoid as much responsibility as he could, to lay back and have a good time. Laissez le bon temps rouler.

It made no sense that she should feel anything toward him except contempt, but she did. The attraction was there, pulling at her every time he looked at her. Strong, magnetic, beyond her control. And that made her uneasy all over again. He was trouble on the hoof. A man with secrets in his eyes and a dark side he took great pains to camouflage. A man whose baser instincts ran just beneath the surface. Dangerous. She'd thought so more than once.

"Dreamin' about me, sugar?"

Laurel started, clutching at her heart as she whirled around. Jack stood just inside the back gate, leaning indolently against the brick gatepost. Shadows fell across his face, but she could feel him watching her reaction, and willed herself to relax and stand calm.

"You don't give a fig how much it sells," she said, dryly. "You write horror because you love to scare people. I'll bet you were the kind of little boy who hid in the closet and jumped out at his mother every time she walked past."

"Oh, I hid often enough." His voice came so softly, Laurel thought she was imagining it. Low and smoky and laced with old bitterness. "My old man locked me in a closet for a couple of days once. I never tried to scare anybody, though. Mais non. My sister, Maman, and me-we were pretty much scared all the time as it was."

His words, so casually delivered, hit Laurel with the force of a hammer. In just those few sentences he had painted a vivid and terrible picture of his childhood. With just those few words he had stirred within her compassion for a small, frightened boy.

He stepped out of the shadows, into the silvery light, his hands in his pockets, his shoulders sagging. He looked beat, drained. She had no idea what he had been doing in the time since he had stormed away from Frenchie's, but it had sapped his energy and etched lines of fatigue across his face.

"Oh, Jack…"

"Don't," he said sharply, shaking off her sympathy. "I'm not a little boy anymore."

"I'm sorry," she whispered.

"Why? You were Blackie Boudreaux in another life?" He shook his head again, took a step closer. "Non, 'tite ange. You weren't there."

No. She had been busy surviving her own nightmare, but she wouldn't say that, wouldn't share it… had never shared it with anyone.

"What are you doing here?" she asked. "What are you doing out at this hour?"

"Prowling." He smiled slowly, his gaze roaming deliberately down from the top of her head to her tiny bare toes. "On the lookout for ladies in their nightclothes."

Laurel had forgotten her state of undress. Now that Jack had so graciously pointed it out to her, she was acutely conscious of the fact that beneath a thin T-shirt that fell shorter than a miniskirt, she wore nothing but a pair of lavender panties. His grin deepened and he bobbed his eyebrows, an expression that clearly said "Gotcha."

She crossed her arms and scowled at him. "People can get shot creeping around backyards in the dead of night."

Jack let his gaze melt down over her again, lingering on the plump curves of her breasts. "Mmmm… you don' look armed, sugar, but you could be dangerous-to my sanity," he growled.

Laurel tried to scoot away from him and found he had backed her around into a position that trapped her between an armless statue of a Greek goddess and the bench where he had caught her reading his book.

"I wasn't aware your sanity was in question," she said sarcastically. "The general consensus seems to be that you're crazy."

He chuckled and inched a little closer to her. "You got a lotta sass, 'tite chatte. Come here and give me a taste."

He didn't give her a chance to say no, but closed the distance between them and stole a kiss, slipping his arms quickly around her. Laurel reacted with an unfamiliar mix of desire and pique. Temper overruled temptation, and she started to bring her knee up to teach him the wisdom of asking for permission. Jack reacted instantly, twisting out of harm's way, throwing Laurel off balance. Before she could realize what he was doing, she was sprawled on top of him on the stone bench, her chin on his chest, eyes round with astonishment.

He sat with his back propped against the wall, one foot planted on the bench, one on the ground. He grinned at her. "All right, sugar, have your way with me."

"I'll thank you to let me up," Laurel said primly, shoving against his chest.

"No," Jack murmured, holding her, pulling her back down when she would have shot to her feet and stormed away. He wanted to hold her, needed to feel her softness against him. He pulled her close and nuzzled her ear while he rubbed a hand gently over her back. "Stay," he whispered. "Don't go, angel. It's late, and I don' wanna be alone with myself."

His strength wouldn't have kept her there, but the need in his voice was another matter altogether. It was subtle, couched in threads of humor, but there nevertheless. Laurel stilled against him, her eyes finding his in the moonlight, searching, wondering, a little wary.

"I never know who you are, Jack," she said softly.

She wouldn't want to know who he really was, he thought. If she knew everything about him, she wouldn't stay. If she knew anything about him, she would steer clear, and he would never have the chance to hold her, to take some solace in the feel of her against him-never have the chance to lose himself, however briefly, in the sweet bliss of kissing her.

He couldn't run that risk tonight. He had spent too much time tearing up what was left of his conscience and flogging what was left of his soul. He felt too beaten, too battered, and she was too pretty and too good.

Too good for the like of you, Jack…

She stared at him, her eyes as dark as midnight, as uncertain as a child's. In spite of all she'd been through, an aura of innocence still clung about her like a fading perfume. Like Evie. God, what pain that thought brought with it! If he touched her, he would sully her innocence, destroy it as he had destroyed Evie. But he wasn't strong enough to be noble, wasn't good enough to do the right thing. He was a bastard and a user and worse, a man caught between what he was and what he wanted. And he was so damn tired of being alone…

"You don' trust me," he whispered, tenderly brushing her hair from her eyes. He grazed his fingertips along the delicate line of her cheekbone. "You shouldn't. I'm bad for you."

The warning was diluted to nothing by the sadness in his face. His mouth twisted into a half smile that was cynical and weary. His dark eyes looked a hundred years old. Bad Jack Boudreaux. The devil in blue jeans. Self-professed cad. Warning her away. He didn't see the paradox, but Laurel did. He was nobody's hero, but he would save her from himself.

She had spent too much of her life with people who claimed to be good and weren't. Jack claimed to be bad, but if he were truly bad, she would have known, would have sensed, wouldn't have wanted him to kiss her, to touch her, to hold her while the night lay warm and fragrant around them.

He's dangerous…

Yes, she had thought that. And if Jack himself wasn't dangerous, then what she felt when he was this near surely was. She couldn't fall for him, not for his body or his tarnished soul or his allure of the forbidden. There was no room in her life for a rogue. She couldn't have her heart broken again; she was still trying to glue the pieces back together from the last time she had come apart.

She could feel it beating, thumping against Jack's chest through the thin fabric of her white T-shirt and his black one. She held her breath and counted the beats, her eyes on his, wondering why she didn't take her own advice and walk away.

"Well, hell," he muttered, pulling her closer, "you don' wanna believe me, I might as well prove it."

The kiss was carnal from the first. Burning hot. Frankly sexual. He traced his tongue slowly around the inner edge of her lips, then slipped deeper, probing, exploring. Laurel tried to catch her breath and caught his instead, hot and flavored with the taste of whiskey.

He ran his hands over her back, chasing shivers, setting off new ones, sliding lower. Desire swelled inside her, pushing aside sanity, blazing a trail for more instinctive responses. She arched against him, losing herself in the kiss, in the moment. She tangled her hands in his hair. His hands slid over her buttocks, kneading, stroking. He caught the hem of her T-shirt and dragged it up, his knuckles skimming over the taut muscles of her back, skating along the sides of her rib cage.

Laurel felt as if she were tumbling through space, dizzy, hanging on tight to her only anchor. Then suddenly she was on her back with no roof but a sky full of diamond lights and branches strung with lacy moss, and Jack was at her breast, his tongue rasping against her nipple, his lips tugging gently. The sensation was incredible, setting off a flutter of something wild inside her, tearing away her self-control-

Control. Panic rose inside her. She never lost control. Couldn't lose control. She was no creature of passion like Savannah.

"No." The word came out as a puff of nothing. She swallowed hard and tried again, pushing at Jack's broad shoulders as guilt and fear and a dozen other emotions twisted in her chest and tightened like vines around her lungs and throat. "Jack, no."

His hand stilled as his fingertips were sneaking under the waistband of her panties. He raised his dark, glittering eyes to meet hers, his mouth poised just above the taut, swollen bud of her nipple. Laurel tightened her every muscle against the desire to just let go. She brought a chilling dose of shame down on her own head to cool the fire.

What the hell was the matter with her, succumbing to the charms of a rake like Jack Boudreaux? On a stone bench in her aunt's courtyard, no less. She barely knew him, didn't trust him, wasn't even sure she liked him.

Jack watched her, watched the flash of panic, the wash of guilt. "You want me, angel. I want you." He shifted his weight, pressing his erection against her hip as proof of his statement.

"I… I don't." Laurel bit down hard on the urge to panic. She kept her eyes locked on his, as if that contact somehow gave her a measure of control. Foolish. He outweighed her by eighty pounds. He could take what he wanted, as men had been doing since the dawn of time.

"Tu menti, mon ange," he murmured, shaking his head. "You lie to yourself, not me."

His eyes held fast on hers as he touched the warm, dewy cleft of her womanhood.

"I think you proved your point," she said bitterly.

"You're a bastard, and I want you anyway. You've made that fact very clear."

That age-old weariness crept into his expression again, seeped outward from some deep, dark well inside him. "Oui," he said. He slid his hand back up over her belly and pulled her T-shirt down, covering her. He smoothed the fabric gently, regretfully, his mouth twisting. "And now I have the whole long night to wonder why I made it at all."