Jinxed!

7

AFTER DALLYING AWAY the entire afternoon-eating, shopping, then drinking at the exuberant Papas and Beers bar-a much healthier Erin finally agreed to go back to the ship an hour before it set sail again.

Why return early? She didn’t know. After last night’s fiasco, she had no doubt that the curse was going to mess up any attempt at nookie anyway. And that had brought her to a definite conclusion: why not try to have fun in other ways when it was obvious that karma had it out for her in the bedroom? Surely she could at least show Wes a good time without the curse interfering. And, all in all, she was having great fun with him: he was everything she’d hoped for.

As they got ready for an early formal dinner seating-Erin had begged Wes not to miss it since she really, really wanted to try escargot-she watched him closely. He’d been quiet all day, and why not? He’d invited her to be with him for a reason and, even though she’d insisted on paying her own way when he’d brought up the desire to treat her to an all-expenses-paid weekend, there was some expectation on his end. There had to be. But he was being a gentleman about it, not pushing the issue.

And that surprised her. Wasn’t the Wes Ryan supposed to pretty much take what he wanted? That’s what they said, anyway. But how much of this man was just reputation? More importantly, how much of him was something more? How much of him was contained in that mysterious undertow she’d glimpsed in his dark eyes every time he thought she wasn’t looking?

Even with all the questions dogging her, dinner was just as wonderful as she’d expected. The escargot was nicely textured and prepared, but there was also lobster. Oh, lobster. Wes liked watching her devour it, so she played to him, catered to his visual fantasies as a substitute for what they’d been missing so far. And even though they chatted with the other guests seated around the table, it felt as if Wes were the only one there. The whole time, she was aware only of him: his masculine scent, his thigh inches away from hers under the table.

Afterward, to work off the food, they decided to stroll on the decks under a night sky that had somewhat cleared. A lazy wind ruffled Wes’s hair as he halted, then leaned back against a deck rail. Behind him, the water whispered by as the Lady Oriana meandered to sea. He was dressed in a crisp white shirt, which was opened at the collar, black pants and dark Italian leather shoes.

As Erin rested on the rail next to him, facing the ocean, she plucked at her seasickness bracelets: baby-blue sweatbands that clashed ever so slightly with her Roma-print evening dress. “I haven’t eaten this much during a twenty-four-hour period since…I don’t know. Maybe Christmas with my family? My mom’s a mad cook.”

“But does she fire up the Cherries Jubilee tableside?” he asked, referring to their dessert treat that night.

With his careless assurance, Wes turned to rest his side against the railing, slanting his body toward hers. Erin’s skin prickled, hyperaware with the trace memories of last night. His remembered kisses dusted over her face, neck, chest…

The ladies’ man would be expecting the same tonight, too, now that she wasn’t sick anymore. But he would want it to go further, to a natural conclusion that made her pulse tremble.

She kept her eyes on one of her seasickness bracelets. “I just want you to know, Wes, this was a good idea-to relax for a weekend away from all the hustle and bustle back home. I’m having a great time.”

He didn’t say anything for a moment. But then he reached over and slid a finger under her bracelet. At the feel of his skin on her wrist, her belly twisted, injecting her with nervous anticipation, a yearning so strong she could barely contain it.

Smoothly, he moved his finger out from under the elastic, then cupped her hand, turning it over so her palm was facing the sky. As he stroked the underside of her hand, his warm skin was rough, striking friction against her flesh.

With his other fingers, he traced down her palm-her lifeline. She shivered. He seemed to know how to apply the right amount of pressure.

“Looks like Madame Karma was correct about that long life,” he said, voice soft and low. He brushed over another line on her palm. “But what’s this? Not a business line…Huh.”

His touch sent a fizz of electricity under her skin, sizzling every cell to steam.

“What do you see?” Oh, man, why was she asking? She couldn’t get into what the fortune-teller had said about “the one.” She needed to cut off this conversation now. But how could she when he was dragging his thumb down over her wrist, just above the bracelet? Her knees almost buckled. Blood rushed downward, flooding the area between her legs with heat.

“I see,” he said, swirling his thumb lightly over her skin, “that your karma curse goes beyond just a long life or the candy shop. There’s something you’re not telling me.”

Part of her wanted to explain everything and allow him further inside of her, but the other part held her back: she wasn’t supposed to be worried about this kind of thing with Wes. He wasn’t supposed to be interested in that way.

The part that’d been so affected by her breakup won. She steered the subject away from anything that had to do with intimacy.

“Nope, Madame Karma was just all about business and lifelines. And if I’ve screwed up my chances for making the candy shop the best it can be by not ‘going with the flow,’ I’ve got to change that.” Stick to business. Don’t mention the love part of the prediction-don’t you dare. “Cheryl’s not only my greatest friend, but she’s also my partner, and I can’t allow my own personal bad luck to drag her down, too, especially…” Erin trailed off, nerves twanging.

Great. Even business talk was making her anxious. Was there anything that didn’t these days?

Wes stopped flirting, clasping her hand instead. “What is it?”

Biting the inside of her lip, she continued, thinking it was actually kind of nice to have Wes as a sounding board for this since it was hard to lay all her fears out for Cheryl.

“Cheryl’s really gung ho about the franchising, but I’m the one who’s dragging my feet. That’s why karma’s messing with me.”

Bull. She knew better.

“Expanding isn’t something to look so down and out about,” Wes said.

“I’m scared.” There. She’d voiced it. And she wasn’t just talking about the shop, either.

“Scared of what?”

She risked a peek up at him. “Of failing, I suppose. I guess moving toward franchising would…” She stopped, made a confused face because what she was about to admit didn’t make much sense when expressed in words. “I guess taking this next step would mean that this is it, this is my life, and if the attempt fails, where do I go next? What do I do? And-” she swallowed “-would I be able to handle the fallout?”

“Right. Those damned transitions.”

As the words hung there, the wind seemed to cuff around them, avoiding them as much as she wanted to.

But Wes wasn’t letting it go. “It’s more comfortable to be safe, to stay with what you know. Comfortable but not fulfilling.”

She looked out to the sea: the moon-glowed water, the endless spaces of unknown territory. They were officially talking about more than just her shop now; he was hinting at how her fear extended from business to personal, and he sounded as if he cared about transitions way more than she’d ever guessed he could.

But why would he give a damn about being a transitional link in her life? Wes Ryan, the player, wouldn’t be that invested in her.

Or…would he?

When she glanced up at him, he was watching her so intensely that her breath caught in her lungs, chopped off. All she could hear was the thud of her heartbeat, its rhythm escalating.

“You just don’t want to risk making the wrong choice,” he said, “right?”

The mere mention of it made her ill because she’d come so close to making the wrong choice with William. It’d take time to summon the will to try again.

But Wes wasn’t done. “In fact, I’d go so far as to say that you’re afraid to turn anything in your life into something bigger.”

He couldn’t be serious. He couldn’t be offering himself up for something more than a light affair.

It struck her: maybe Madame Karma’s prediction hadn’t been so ridiculous after all.

Oh, God. Freaking out now…

“Wes.” She straightened up, no longer so relaxed. “There’re some things in life that are best left to the status quo. Maybe sometimes things are better left alone.”

He slid a look at her-a look so laced with buried meaning that she straightened, heart beating in her ears.

“I’ve always been good at making people think they’ve gotten the best part of the deal, Erin. That’s how I got through school-with the right excuses to my teachers, with smiles and promises. And that’s how I’ve made my way in business and life, especially with women. I’ve enjoyed my share of them, but I’ve never been very honest. Not with them, not with myself.”

“Wes-”

“Wait. Just hold on, okay?” He took in a breath, then huffed it out. “I’ve attempted to get serious with a partner two times. With the first, she turned out to be a Clippers fan,” he said, his expression wry, “so that didn’t work because when they played the Lakers-hell, the competitive spirit between us got ugly.”

He assessed Erin with a gaze, searching for something she wasn’t giving him. Couldn’t give him.

Then, obviously not getting what he wanted, he continued. “After that supremely deep relationship, I waited, then tried again with a woman who was great at first, but ended up being prone to asking why I needed to have my space every so often. That lasted eight days, and it was eight days too long. But at least I tried, I told myself. At least I tried. Then I saw you at that party.”

Below them, the ocean splashed and broke apart against the ship. That was the only sound right now, because she wasn’t about to reveal anything about her own fractured past. It’d only make her angry again, whipping up all the ugliness she’d been running from.

“So that’s my story,” Wes said. “I’ve been wondering about yours, Erin.”

“Why?” Defensive. Already, the negativity was gathering. She wasn’t sure being with another person brought out the best in her.

But Wes wasn’t giving up. He was holding on to her hand, clearly determined not to let her go. The realization spurred her to fear, cornered her, forced her to do something rash and effective.

Distance, her buried ex-girlfriend mentality told her. Create some distance, because he’s getting too close.

“You really want to know about my little history?” she asked, voice on edge.

“Yeah.” Wes looked hopeful and, somewhere inside, there was a distant sense of her heart softening.

Can’t happen. You can’t let that happen.

“All right, here’s my rather pathetic résumé.” She’d gone rigid, as cold as self-preservation needed to be. “High school? Dated normally, if not frequently. College? Met the supposed man of my dreams and lost my virginity to him, thinking he’d be my life. After college? Engaged to the guy. For six years. And when I finally realized he didn’t actually want to get married, I did the bravest thing I could and broke it off. I realized how, over the years, I’d stopped loving him somewhere along the way. Actually, my family ended up more devastated than I was, and that hurt me more than any breakup. I didn’t like what I’d brought down on them.” She cleared her throat of the emotional debris. “And now? Dating normally again, making up for all the time I wasted.”

It was the first time she’d gone into such detail with him, and he looked as if she’d pressed a just-extinguished match to his skin. It didn’t burn so much as leave an ash mark that shocked more than hurt.

Gradually, he regained composure, back to the confident player he presented to the world. Problem was, Erin knew there was more to him than that.

“You’ve already found ‘the one,’” Madame Karma had said.

No. God, no, she wasn’t ready, didn’t want to know that he could be affected by her and her by him.

“Why don’t you just come out with it?” he finally said. “Tell me that I’m the type of guy who isn’t good for anything more than a few weeks of…fun.”

When she didn’t answer, his shoulders lost their arrogant line. His gaze lost some of its confident shimmer, too.

The change bent her heart into a shape that didn’t belong in her chest; the warp of it made clear to her what she really wanted to feel for Wes-if she could just allow herself to do it.

But she wouldn’t. It’d destroy her right now. So she brought back the angry girl who’d been left in the dust by a man who never did value her.

Her body language shouted defensiveness, and Wes clearly didn’t have any trouble comprehending. Without a word, he left Erin standing there, the breeze whispering something that sounded like “curse” in her ears.

She tried to tell herself it didn’t matter, that this jinx was actually a good thing.

Because, maybe, just maybe, this curse was fate’s way of protecting her from making yet another huge mistake.