The elevator doors opened, I took in a deep breath and walked out.
I was tipsy, not drunk.
Lemon drops.
But my legs were trembling. My stomach in knots. That tingle had spread up my spine, the back of my neck and over my scalp and also along my waist, my bottom and down my inner thighs and it wasn’t leaving.
And I knew I was already wet.
This was because I’d been naughty.
And this was because it was one thirty in the morning and thus for the last hour and a half, it had been Knight’s birthday.
He didn’t tell me.
After Kathleen’s facial Wednesday, when we were gabbing, she’d asked in passing, “What are you getting Knight for his birthday on Sunday?”
I didn’t know it was his birthday. And I was so thrown by this I didn’t even remember what I said to her.
I was in a panic.
What did you get the man who had everything or could get it for himself?
I went to the mall twice since then, bought him things and none of it was right. None of it was good enough. None of it would mean anything.
Then it came to me. Something I knew he would like.
It was August, two and half months after Knight claimed me for good because I let him. My spa was opening in a few weeks. My apartment was a full on mini-spa because that was all I did there. My stuff and some of my clothes were there but I didn’t need them since Knight had since totally spoiled me. New silky, lacy, satiny nighties. New jeans. Dresses to wear to Slade when we went. Shoes. Tops. He’d ordered me to, “throw all that shit away, babe, I catch you in any of it, you earn a red ass” meaning my underwear when I came home to bags and bags of seriously sexy undies.
And I had a new car. A two-seater Mercedes. Black. He said it was not flash, just class, but it certainly was flash to me. We had words. I refused to accept. Knight refused to accept my refusal. This went on a while. Then he got sweet and I couldn’t keep refusing. Then he bitched about how hard it was to give me “fuckin’ anything”. Then we had more words because I informed him a car wasn’t exactly “fuckin’ anything” it was, “a fucking car, for fuck’s sake, Knight!” (that was me yelling).
At this, he burst out laughing which made me angrier. Then he shut me up and swept away my temper by kissing me, though that only worked because that led him to doing other things to me.
So now I had a sweet crib, a sweet ride, sweet kit and a sweet day job.
And a sweet life.
And Knight.
Knight just had me.
And I didn’t know how to give him more.
Except this way.
So I’d planned. I texted him when he was already at work and told him Sandrine had called and we were going out. The truth was, I was out for drinks only with both Sandrine and Vivica. No dancing. No men. Just the girls in a back, corner booth, lemon drops (me), martinis (Viv) and cosmos (Sandrine). We’d cabbed it so we were safe.
Knight called four times which I didn’t pick up, and left two texts.
So I didn’t bite off more than I could chew, I texted him back twice too, telling him I couldn’t hear the phone ring over the music but assuring him we were fine and I’d get a taxi.
Then he sent one last text.
Ass. Home. Now.
That was thirty minutes ago. I was pushing it, I knew.
But I was being bad.
And I was hoping that I’d succeeded in not biting off more than I could chew.
I pulled my key from my purse at the door, inserted it in Knight’s lock, turned it and sucked in another calming breath, wishing I’d had one last lemon drop for courage before I pushed it in.
It barely clicked behind me before Knight, wearing dark gray suit pants, shoes and a tailored slim-fit shirt the color of the deepest, darkest raspberry, prowled out of his study.
I stopped dead when the vibrating heat hit me.
“You went out with Sandrine?” he whispered and it was sinister.
I commenced, or I should say continued the game.
I flipped my hand in front of me, starting to take a step and saying airily, “We were fine, honey.”
“Stop… right… there.”
I stopped and focused more on him.
“You went out with Sandrine?” he repeated in his scary whisper.
“Honey, seriously, we were –”
He cut me off. “Without a man on you.”
“Like I said, we were –”
Another interruption as he crossed his arms on his chest. “Did you get my messages?”
“I couldn’t hear them over the music,” I said softly then offered, “I got your texts.”
“So you know I wanted your ass home three hours ago.”
“Knight, we were –”
“Dress off, panties off, leave the shoes,” he growled and my belly dropped.
“What?” I whispered.
“Right there, take your fuckin’ dress off, your panties off and leave your shoes on. Then walk your ass into my study and position on my desk, ass to the door.”
My legs trembled and my womb contracted.
“Knight –” His name trembled too.
“You do not,” he clipped, “wanna make me say it again.”
I held his eyes and he held mine.
I pushed it, for him.
Then his arms started to uncross as his body started to move and I dropped my purse and keys to the floor.
Then, eyes still on his, I lifted my skirt slowly and hooked my fingers into my panties. Then I pushed them down, they fell down my legs, the silk and lace flitting across my already sensitive skin as they dropped to my ankles. I stepped out of them and curled my fingers in the black silk of my dress, biting my lip and pulling it over my head.
When it fell from my fingers to the floor, Knight barked, “Study,” turned and stalked away.
I walked on shaking legs to the study.
Okay, all right.
Okay, all right.
Evidence was suggesting I bit off more than I could chew.
I walked into the warm woods and golden tans of his office, straight to the desk, breathing heavily and hoping I knew what the heck I was doing.
Our safe word was giraffe. In all the time we’d been together, I’d never considered using it. And Knight frequently got inspired. I’d been gagged with a scarf and tied spread-eagled to his bed. I’d gone down on him in his steam room off the bathroom. He’d fucked my face and my pussy while I was strapped on all fours to his bed.
And I’d loved every minute.
This, he was so angry, that vibrating heat unrelenting, I was worried.
Maybe I should have let him in on the fact that Viv was with us. He liked her, trusted her and said she had a good head on her shoulders.
Shakily, I positioned and I did it carefully. Torso to his desk. Ass out. And I made sure my legs were as wide as I could get them comfortably. That was how Knight liked me, always. With training, I’d learned to do that automatically when asked. I didn’t want to forget now.
I heard him come back and I pressed my lips together as I pressed my cheek to some papers on his desk. Then I rolled my lips.
I felt a light breeze and heard a soft whoosh as something hit the desk beside me but I didn’t dare look.
Then nothing.
I waited, deep breathing but failing to calm my escalating panic.
More nothing.
When I was about to say something, tell him Viv was with us, even tell him this was his birthday present, his hand suddenly was between my legs, pulling up rough yet gentle, like Knight could do. I gasped. Then I felt something I didn’t know what it was trailing across my bottom.
“You earned the strap tonight, baby.” I heard him say softly.
Oh God.
Oh God!
Well, at least it wasn’t the cane. I wasn’t ready for that yet. Viv said it hurt like a mother.
The thing on my behind kept stroking as Knight cupped me between my legs and he went on. “This one’s brand new. All for you. Break you in while you break it in,” he muttered.
Then his hand went away and that thing, what I knew was the strap, glided between my legs.
My eyes closed because that felt nice.
“Let’s get you ready,” Knight whispered and my eyes opened.
Then the strap was gone and his hand was between my legs, two fingers thrusting up, tight and hard and I cried out in shock and something else altogether.
“Drenched,” he growled. “Fuck yourself on Daddy’s fingers.”
Oh God. I wanted that.
So I did it.
“Harder, Anya, you gotta be ready to take your strap.”
I moved faster, harder, grinding into his fingers and this went on a while, a scary, crazy, hot while until I was whimpering.
“Stop,” he ordered but continued to thrust into me. “Stay still,” he kept ordering while finger fucking me. “You do not move unless it’s to jump to the strap. You do not, under any circumstances, come. No matter what I do to you, baby. You whisper ‘Daddy’ if you think you’re gonna come. Other than that, you do not speak unless I ask you something directly. Then you answer immediately. And you know how I want your answer, Anya. You get more if I have to remind you. Now do you get me?”
“Yes, Daddy.”
His fingers stopped thrusting, they started rubbing hard at my clit, I whimpered and he whispered, “Good, baby.”
Then his hand went away and in short order I knew exactly what Viv was talking about.
This was good. Better than his hand spanking me. It was awesome.
The strap stung, no doubt about it. My ass jumped, I winced. And the sound of the crack against my flesh only made things better. But like when he used his hand, Knight never brought it down in the same place twice in quick or even close succession. And he also slapped it across my thighs.
Every blow, the strap bit in, and the sting radiated out, the pain and sting traveling right between my legs until I was consistently whimpering with need. But as sharp as the sting was, the pain was fleeting and since he didn’t cover the same area repeatedly, it stayed fleeting.
He stopped and his hand thrust between my legs.
“Rub against that, hard, take yourself close,” he ordered and I did what I was told and I did it until I was close and then I moaned, “Daddy.”
He stopped and the strap was back at me. More sting. More fire. My legs were quaking, my ass jumping.
Then his hand between my legs.
“Up Anya, stay facing the desk. Fast, baby.”
I pushed myself up and felt his body close behind me.
“You aren’t done and you do not come until I give it to you. Yeah?”
“Yes, Daddy,” I breathed.
Then he was moving and I felt his hands working at the front and behind me then I felt something smooth curling around me between my legs from ass to belly, tight. Then it was rubbing back and forth, gentle, quick, the friction, it worked me, separating me until it was right there and my head fell back as I moaned.
Knight’s lips came to my ear. “You like your strap?”
Oh yeah. I liked my strap. Fuck yeah.
“Yes, Daddy.”
“Take the ends, back and front, rub yourself. Do not come. Stop if you think you will.”
I nodded and found the ends of the strap, back and front.
“Hold them tight, baby,” Knight ordered, I obeyed and he pressed his back to mine as his hands moved on me.
Oh God. This was good. This was unbelievably good.
I worked the strap as Knight’s hands moved on me, all over me and his mouth worked my neck.
Then I took myself close, mouth panting, and I stopped.
“My baby, bein’ good,” Knight murmured against my neck. “Give it time, come down and then keep going.”
I gave it time, his hands moved over me then I kept going.
“That’s it, bring yourself close again,” he whispered, his hands moving up then they were cupping my breasts. “Look at you. Fuck me, my baby, so fuckin’ sweet.”
Then his fingers were at my nipples, pinching, squeezing, rolling, pulling.
I stopped moving the strap.
“Keep rubbing,” he growled on a sharp tug of my nipples.
“Daddy,” I used the word as a warning. I was close.
He tugged again at my nipples and it shot through me, my head jerking back, hitting his shoulder.
“Do not come, Anya, and keep working yourself.”
Oh God. I couldn’t do this. I was going to come.
But I did what I was told.
“Fuck yeah,” he groaned into my neck, grinding his crotch into my back.
“Daddy,” I whimpered.
He squeezed my nipples.
“Do not come, baby.”
“Daddy,” I moaned, still rubbing.
“Do not… come.”
I did as I was told and I was pressing my head in his shoulder, biting my lip, keening when he growled. “Drop it.”
I dropped the strap instantly.
Then I was back to the desk, Knight hands behind my knees shoving them high and wide. Then one went to his fly. Then it was back behind my knee and he was driving into me, brutal, savage, my eyes on him fucking me, his burning on my body jolting on his desk.
Stroke three, I came.
Then I came.
And I came.
And I came.
And then I lost track of how many times I came.
Then with one last, violent thrust, Knight came.
Eyes still on me, hands still behind my knees, he went from thrusting to sliding.
Then he plunged deep and whispered, “Come here, baby.”
I pushed up, his hands went to my ass, my legs wrapped around his hips and he lifted me up. My arms wrapped around his shoulders and he walked me across the room to his couch and then took us down, me on my back, Knight on top and he managed to do this entire maneuver connected to me.
He lifted some of his weight off me with a forearm in the couch and his other hand came to my face, his fingertips skimming my jaw, my cheek, his eyes on me and he asked gently, “You okay?”
“Happy birthday,” I whispered and he blinked.
Then he whispered, “What?”
“Kathleen told me,” I shared. “I wasn’t at a club. I was with Sandrine but I was with Vivica too. We were at a bar. Back booth. No one could even see us. No dancing. Nothing. Just us girls. We took a taxi so no one driving drunk. And Rhashan was in on the surprise, kinda, without a real share, he just knows it’s a surprise birthday gig for you and he knew where we were the whole time.”
He stared at me and he did this a long time, giving nothing away.
So I went on softly and now uncertainly, “I didn’t know what to get you.”
“Jesus, fuck,” he finally muttered.
“Knight?”
“Jesus, fuck,” he repeated.
“Did I… was that okay?”
He buried his face in my neck and groaned, “Jesus, fuck. Fuck me. Fuck me.”
I didn’t know what to make of this.
“Knight?” I called.
His head came up.
“Yes,” he clipped. “Yes, Anya, baby, fuck me, baby. Yes, that was fuckin’ okay. That was fuckin’ beautiful what you gave me.”
It was. He believed that. What I gave him meant something to him.
It meant a lot.
Tears filled my eyes.
“Knight,” I whispered.
“Fuck me,” he whispered back, staring at me, his eyes burning because his heart was beating there.
God.
Beautiful.
I smiled, lifted my head and, lips to his, I whispered, “I’m kinda not done.”
“Fuck me,” he repeated and I smiled bigger.
“But you’ll need to get off me.”
I watched his eyes close slowly and then I watched as emotion washed over his features.
And I did this mesmerized.
God.
Beautiful.
Then he touched his mouth to mine, slid out and got off me, pulling me up with him. He held me close with an arm around my waist as I got steady on my feet.
Then when I shot him a grin, he muttered, “Nightie, babe, desk.”
So that was the soft whoosh.
My man, even pissed, he always remembered to take care of me.
My grin got bigger.
Then I went to the desk and pulled the red, silk and lace short nightie with the high slits up my sides that Knight bought for me over my head. I shot him another grin as I walked out to see he was still standing at the couch, he’d adjusted his trousers and his eyes were on me.
The minute I knew he lost sight of me, I moved fast.
I had it all planned and I put it in motion quickly. I cleaned up and took my shoes off. Then I grabbed the bag of wrapped presents. Then I went to where I’d hidden the store bought, fancy decorated cake with the candles and lighter. I shoved the candles in and lit them. Then balancing the cake in both hands with the bag of presents dangling, I went back to his study.
Knight was sitting, ass to the desk where I’d spent a memorable amount of time, legs stretched out in front of him, eyes to his crossed feet, hands at his sides, fingers curled around the desk’s edge but his head came up when I walked in carrying the cake.
His eyes went to the cake then to me and instantly his face got soft and his eyes warm but surprised and definitely pleased.
Totally beautiful.
“Jesus, baby,” he whispered as I walked to him.
I stopped in front of him.
“Happy birthday, sweetheart.”
His eyes stayed locked to mine.
“Anya.”
I waited. He said no more.
“Make a wish and blow out your candles, honey,” I whispered.
His body didn’t move and neither did his eyes.
“Make a wish, Knight.”
His eyes then moved, roaming my face, down my body, the cake, more of me then back to my eyes.
“Honey, the candles are gonna burn out,” I prompted on a grin.
“Let ‘em,” he replied. “Got nothin’ I want. Everything I want is standing right in front of me.”
Oh.
My.
God.
My nose stung and my eyes filled with tears.
“Please,” I begged softly, “blow out the candles, Knight.”
He held my eyes. One tear slid out my left, followed by another on my right.
Then he bent forward and blew out the candles.
“Thank you,” I whispered.
He grabbed the cake and plopped it on his desk. Then he pulled the bag out of my hand and tossed it on one of the two chairs angled at the front of it. Then he yanked me between his legs, in his arms, doing it roughly, holding me tight, one arm around my waist, one hand in my hair, his mouth crushed down on mine and he plundered it.
I melted into him, my arms snaking around him and I let him.
He let my lips go, my head moved back an inch and his hand slid around to cup my jaw, his thumb moving through the wet left by the tear.
“Don’t cry for me, Anya, don’t ever cry for me,” he murmured.
“Is that an order?” I teased and his eyes went from his thumb to mine.
“Yes.”
My arms slid from around him so my hands could curl around his neck and I pressed up so I could touch my forehead to his.
“Lemon drops,” he murmured and I smiled.
He remembered.
God, I loved this man.
“Praise God for faulty, cheap cell phones,” I muttered. Knight’s body gave a short jerk then both his arms closed around me hard as he burst out laughing.
“So which present do you like best?”
I was fishing for information, lying in bed in my red nightie next to and mostly on Knight, up on a forearm in his chest, smiling into his face.
“Uh… seriously? You askin’ that shit?”
“Scary, crazy, hot punishment and resulting scary, crazy, hot, hard fucking not included,” I amended my question and Knight’s arm curled around my waist got tight as he chuckled.
Then he answered, “The Black Sabbath tee.”
I tipped my head to the side and asked, “Not the biography on Beethoven?”
“Babe, got no time to read.”
“But you like his music.”
“What?”
“It was playing in your office when you, um… carried me in that first time.”
He studied me but I could tell he was harking back then his face got soft and he asked quietly, “You remember that?”
I felt my face get soft too and I whispered, “I remember everything.”
His hand slid up my side even as his arm got tight again. He murmured, “Baby.” I dropped closer and he finished, “But that was Bach.”
It was me who blinked then I giggled and asked, “Really?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, whatever,” I muttered then offered, “If you don’t read, I will. Out loud. In bed. To you.” I grinned. “Naked.”
He grinned back and remarked, “Bet that’ll make Beethoven interesting.”
“I read the jacket cover. He’s already interesting. Or he was.”
“You can do it, babe, but you do it naked, I won’t hear a fuckin’ word no matter how interesting.”
“Then maybe I should put on a snowsuit,” I suggested, his arms again closed around me as he burst out laughing and rolled me to my back.
Then he lifted up, his hand coming to my face to trail lightly along my skin but his eyes didn’t leave mine.
“Best birthday ever,” he murmured.
My belly melted, my arms snaked around him and I whispered, “Oh, honey.”
His hand quit trailing, slid into my hair and he shared, “Even before Carl came into my life, Mom did her best, every year. Went all out. Got some of her girls to help. Carl was there, got even better. But this was the best.”
Suddenly, my nose started stinging, this meant so much to me I whispered in a fierce whisper, “Good. I’m glad. That’s what I wanted to give to you. That’s what I wanted for you. And since I found out Wednesday that today was your birthday, I’ve been in a panic because I had no idea what to do to make it special for you. So I’m glad I figured it out and could give it to you.”
“Jesus, fuck, fuck me,” he whispered back, his eyes blazing into mine.
“I love you, Knight.” I kept whispering then my lips quirked and went on, “And the good news is, it’s barely even your birthday. You have birthday breakfast, birthday lunch and birthday dinner to look forward to. I have it all planned and I did a whopper of a grocery shop so the food’s already here. And I’ll be making you a homemade cake, not that store bought thing I brought into your study. I got that just so the presentation would be good. And since it’s Sunday and I have you all day, you have me all day, wherever you want, whenever you want, whatever you want to do to me.”
I was so busy laying it out, I didn’t notice his reaction to it until his hand slid into my hair, fisted and his mouth came to mine.
“Shut up, Anya,” he rumbled.
“Okay,” I breathed, staring into his heated eyes.
“You need to sleep because I’m gonna eat your birthday breakfast, lunch, dinner and cake and I’m gonna do you in all the ways I can think of doin’ you and you need to be prepared.”
“Oh…” it was unsteady and remained unsteady when I finished, “kay.”
His fist in my hair relaxed and he went back half an inch.
“Love you, babe.”
“And I love you, honey.”
“No,” he stated firmly, his eyes locked to mine, “love you, babe.”
Oh God.
Oh God.
I sucked in breath to make my nose stop stinging (again!) and then I slid a hand to his chest, up, feeling the hair abrasive, yet awesome, against my skin until it was up with fingers curled around his jaw.
Then I whispered, “And I… love you… honey.”
He dropped his head and kissed me, wet and sweet. Then he lifted it up, reached across me to my nightstand to turn out my light. He rolled to his to turn that out. Then he rolled back to me and curved his body into mine, his arm wrapped tight around my belly, tucking me close.
I sighed, snuggled deeper and relaxed into him.
My eyelids were drooping when he called softly, “Babe?”
“Yeah?”
His hand slid up and curled tight around my breast. My eyelids drooped for a different reason.
“You go out again, don’t care where or with who, without a man on you, it’s the cane.”
Oh my.
“Get me?” he asked.
“Got you,” I whispered.
“No joke, babe.”
“Okay, Knight.”
His hand relaxed but didn’t move.
My body relaxed too.
Then I murmured, “’Night, honey. Happy birthday.”
“Shut up and go to sleep, babe,” was his reply.
I giggled.
Then about two minutes later, I did what I was told.