Love and Glory

Chapter Three

I looked at myself in the mirror back of Onie’s bar. Five foot ten inches, weight 160 pounds, hair medium brown, crew cut, complexion fair, some acne. Whiskers, none to speak of. I didn’t like the acne much, nor the lack of beard. Lots of my buddies had dark heavy beards and shaved daily. I sucked on my cigarette, holding it between my thumb and middle finger.

The bartender said, “You ready yet, Boonie?”

I nodded. He took my glass, drew another beer into it, and put it back. “Fresh barrel, Boonie, you’ll like it.”

I grinned. “Thanks, Reenie.”

In two months I’d made some progress. I was first name with the bartender at Onie’s and at school I was already on the dean’s other list. The smoke in Onie’s was fog thick, and it eddied in the narrow crowded room as people went to and from the rest rooms and shifted about in the booths. Someone played “Mixed Emotions” on the jukebox and I tried to listen through the noise that was as thick and eddied as the smoke. It was the Rosemary Clooney version, not Ella’s, and I liked it better, although it made me feel disloyal.

“Hey, Boonie, I hear you got bounced out of soc class?”

“Just for the day,” I said.

“You shoulda seen it, Pat. Boonie was passed out in the back with a bad hangover and old Schlossberg says to him ‘Mr. Adams, do you mind if I interrupt your rest for just a moment?’ And Boonie’s got his eyes still closed and he says ‘Yes.’ ”

“Honest to God? Booner, you are a hot shit, I’ll give you that. So did Schlossie kick you out?”

I nodded.

“You’re never going to make it, Boonie. You won’t last the year, never mind four.”

In the mirror I saw Jennifer come in with a date. It was the tall kid from Long Island she’d danced with the first night I’d seen her. His name was Taylor and he was supposed to be the best basketball player ever to come out of Douglaston High School. I drank the rest of my beer and gestured at René. He drew another and put it before me, took a dime from the change on the bar in front of me, winked, made a sort of clicking sound out of the corner of his mouth, and moved down the bar. I lit another Camel in the corner of my mouth and let the smoke drift up past my eyes. Through it I watched Jennifer in the mirror. She took off her camel’s-hair coat and Taylor hung it on the hanger by the booth. She was wearing a white cashmere sweater and a Black Watch plaid skirt. When she slid into the booth I saw her thigh for a moment. Taylor said something, and she put her head back and laughed. I couldn’t hear the sound of her laugh across the boisterous room, but her face colored slightly with it. I’d already noticed that when she laughed she flushed slightly. I had already noticed, too, that her mouth was slightly crooked. Her upper and lower lip did not center exactly.

“Hey, Nick Taylor’s going out with Jennifer Grayle?”

“Yeah, since the homecoming dance. I’d like to get a piece of that, uh, Guze?”

“I’d like to go over right now and take a big fucking bite out of one of those thighs. How about it, Boonze, you like some of that?”

Their voices came sifting through the smoke as if they were in another room. I looked at them.

“Want to get into Jenny Grayle, Boonie? I’ll bet Taylor’s getting his share.”

The smoke swirled and thickened and mixed with the noise until I felt enclosed in a kind of transsensual element of which my own soul was but an inlet.

I shrugged. “But how much beer can she drink,” I said.

“I thought she was going with Dave Herman.”

“She’s gone steady with three guys already this year.”

I watched her in the mirror. Her hands resting quietly on the table, her head forward slightly, her eyes on Taylor’s face. Taylor tapped each of her fingernails with the tip of his index finger. She smiled. Her beer was barely touched. I knew she didn’t drink much, although it was said that she did. But she didn’t. The music changed on the jukebox. Billy Eckstine, “I Apologize.”

“What’re you doing about that short story, Guze?”

“I’m getting my buddy Boone here to churn one out. How many you written so far this semester, Boonie?”

“Twenty-two,” I said. “It’s the dumbest fucking thing I ever heard of, making the whole freshman class write a fucking short story.”

“You write one for me, Boonie?”

I nodded. “So far I got a B average. It woulda been higher, but Billy Murphy rewrote the one I did for him and got an F.”

“How much you want?”

I made a rejecting wave with my left hand. “You can buy me a few beers some night.”

“You got an A on yours, Boonie?”

“Yeah. Really piss me off if I got a worse mark on the one I handed in than the other twenty-one.”

“You think they’ll get wise? How about Guze passes in a terrific short story? Think they might get suspicious? Guze can’t even fucking talk.”

Jennifer had shifted in the booth and had her feet tucked up under her, sitting half sideways. She was smoking a Pall Mall with the red crescent of her lipstick impressed on the tip. Taylor walked two fingers along the back of her left hand and up her arm as it lay on the table. Then he said something and got up and walked to the men’s room.

“Hey, Boonie, how about the time you wrote a paper for Jackovich and Markham calls him in and asks him to explain it. Jackie about shit. Did he read it even before he handed it in?”

“Jackie can’t read,” I said. “You know that.”

Jennifer took a compact from her purse, opened it, and looked at herself in the small mirror. She turned her head a little to the left and then a little to the right, tilting the mirror to get the overhead light. She took a small gold tube from her purse and applied more lipstick, then looked again in the mirror, touched it up slightly, touched her hair in several places.

“What happened to him?”

“Markham flunked him.”

“You shouldn’t sound so smart, Boonie.”

“I try, Guze. But I can’t sound as dumb as Jackie, for crissake.”

Taylor, on his way back from the men’s room, looked over at me and said, “Hey, Boonie, come over and sit down. I’ll buy you a beer.”

A sharp sensation flashed up from my buttocks and tightened my throat. I sucked in half my Camel and held the smoke in my lungs and then blew it out the way you blow out a candle. My beer glass was empty. I picked up my cigarettes and walked over toward the booth where Jennifer sat.