The Apartment

Chapter 9

In October, when Morgan was going over research for a presentation, she asked for some files from accounting, and realized within a few minutes that they’d given her the wrong ones. She called them to have them send her the right ones, and something caught her eye on the balance sheets while she waited for them to pick them up. There had been a transfer of a hundred thousand dollars, and a withdrawal of twenty thousand that didn’t look right to her. The money didn’t belong in that account. She could see that a week later there had been an unexplained deposit of the twenty, and the hundred thousand had been moved back again, into the right account. It didn’t make sense to her. She wondered if it had been an error in accounting that they had corrected. All the numbers looked right at the end, but there had been some moving and shifting that she couldn’t explain. She thought about telling George about it, but since the money had all ended up in the right place, it didn’t really matter. But it seemed odd to her. A lot of money came in and out of their office for clients, and she knew George had a remarkable head for numbers and a keen radar, and he kept a close eye on their books. It was important to do that in a firm like theirs, so maybe he knew about it, and had demanded the correction. It wasn’t really worrisome since no funds were missing, but she couldn’t explain it to herself. Just to be sure, if the subject came up later, she xeroxed the file before they came to pick it up, and she put the xeroxed pages in a locked drawer in her desk. And then she got to work on the research she had to do for the next day.

The error in accounting slipped her mind entirely after that. They had a number of new clients, and she had a lot of work to do.

She had noticed what good spirits George was in since he’d started seeing Claire, and he didn’t say anything to Morgan, but he looked like a man in love. She had never seen him as happy or as relaxed, and Claire was like a field of flowers in spring. She had even stopped complaining about her boss.

And Sasha was happy too. She was busy, content, and at peace, and she and Alex were having fun. They laughed a lot whenever he came to the apartment, and they had dinner at Max’s restaurant at least once a week. And Alex and Max were cooking dinner together now on Sunday nights at the loft. Max was still the master chef, and Alex was the sous chef, anxious to learn new tricks from him. Alex fit in perfectly to their self-made family, and the others hoped that he’d stick. It was too soon to tell.

The only one who clearly wasn’t happy, and seemed downright miserable, was Abby. Ivan was torturing her, and there were even more excuses than before about why he wasn’t around, or was out of range. He was sick, he had a migraine, he had put his back out moving scenery, he had to meet with backers or his accountant, he was reading new plays, he was exhausted from reading new plays, his cell battery had died, and he lost the phone itself once or twice a week, or there was no cell service wherever he’d been. He was like chasing quicksilver across the floor. Abby was constantly looking for him, and listening to his excuses when he turned up. And Daphne was around increasingly, while he claimed he was trying to teach her the business. And her father was supposedly eluding Ivan, and constantly traveling for business, so they hadn’t met yet. And their bank account was nearly empty. Their financial situation was desperate.

And at the theater, while Abby continued to paint scenery and clean up, Daphne was constantly underfoot, but Ivan didn’t want her to help. He told Abby she had asthma, and it would be bad for her health, and her father would be pissed. So Abby remained the slave, doing everything for him, and Daphne was the new fairy princess. Abby was trying to be patient about it, but her nerves were frayed. And he was either too sick, too tired, or too busy to come to the apartment to be with her, or he hadn’t slept in days, and didn’t want her spending the night at his place. It had become ridiculous, and even Abby knew it. But Ivan wouldn’t ’fess up about what was going on. Abby was tired of his excuses. He was beginning to seem like the liar he was.

And when Abby asked Daphne about her father one afternoon, to be polite, and where he was traveling these days, Daphne looked at her blankly, and with a wistful expression said he had died two years before. The jig was up. Abby said nothing to her, but she was waiting for Ivan at the theater when he got there that night. He had a meeting in his office with Daphne that lasted for nearly an hour, and when she slipped out of his office looking flushed and sweaty, Abby quietly went in. She was not going to be put off anymore. It had gone on for too long, and he had played her for a fool.

He was adjusting his belt when she walked in, and it didn’t take a genius to figure out what they’d been doing. She tried not to think of it when she confronted him. She could feel tears choking her throat.

“Where were you this afternoon?” And then she baited him. “Were you with Daphne’s father, discussing the angel money with him?”

“Yes, I was.” Ivan looked serious and dignified as he faced her and stared her straight in the eye. “He wants to give it some more thought.”

“That must have been a difficult meeting for you,” she said sympathetically. Her hands were shaking, but he couldn’t see them.

“And why is that? He’s a very nice man, and grateful for what we’re doing for his daughter.” She nodded and went on after Ivan spoke.

“Were you at a séance?” she asked in a solemn voice.

“Of course not. Why would you ask that?”

“Because he’s been dead for two years. You should have checked with Daphne before you lied about her father. You seem a little foolish after that. And actually, more than foolish, you look like a shit, because you are one. You’re having an affair with her, and I know it.” He interrupted her, and he was pale.

“Did she tell you that too?” He was panicked.

“No, you just did. I figured it out the first time she walked into the theater, and you told her the same lies you told me three years ago about producing my play. And you’re never going to produce hers either. Why bother to keep me around once you had her? Just to clean the floors and paint the scenery? Why lie to me about where you are, who you’re with, your migraines, your back, your lost cell phone, and all of it? You know what? I don’t care. I don’t care who you’re screwing or who you’re lying to. I’ve closed my eyes and my ears and my mind for three years because I loved you and I believed you. I don’t love you or believe you anymore, and one day she won’t either, and you can find another young blonde to give you blow jobs in your office and screw you. You’re pathetic. You really are what everyone says about you, you’re a pathetic, arrogant dick. And I am through with you. Take Daphne, take her play, and all your lies and bullshit, and you know where you can put them. I hope she won’t be as stupid as I was. And good luck getting the money out of her dead father because he’s so grateful to you. Fuck you, Ivan Jones,” she said clearly, yanked open the door to his office, walked out, and slammed it behind her. She hadn’t felt this good in months. And as she walked across the stage to leave the theater, she saw Daphne standing in the wings.

“ ’Bye, Daphne,” Abby said as she strode past her.

“Are you leaving?” Daphne looked surprised.

“Yes, I am.”

“Who’s going to clean the theater before the performance tonight?” She seemed worried as Abby smiled at her.

“You are. This place isn’t just fun and blow jobs, you know. You have to work too. Have a good time.”

Ivan had walked out of his office by then, and was staring at her, unable to believe what she had said. He actually thought he could keep both of them on the hook. Abby realized now that she must have been out of her mind to love him and believe what he said.

“You can’t leave,” he said to her weakly, acting as though he’d been mortally wounded.

“Yes, I can.”

“You’ll turn into a sellout like your parents, and write crap for the rest of your life,” he said ominously.

“Maybe I will,” she said with rage in her eyes, “but I won’t be a starving bullshitter when I’m forty-six, having other people do all the work. Grow up, Ivan, get a job. You’re out of money, and you just ran out of slaves.” Daphne was looking nervous at what she had just heard, and she was staring at Ivan with apprehension.

“I’m not going to clean the theater,” she told him, as Abby picked up her bag and left. “You told me you’d produce my play.” Daphne was nearly in tears, and Abby slammed the door to the theater as she left.

“You have to,” Ivan said to Daphne, sounding stern.

“Fuck you,” Daphne said, and followed the trail Abby had just blazed, and as Daphne left right behind her, she had just saved herself years of pain.

Abby was walking back to the apartment by then, at a rapid pace, with adrenaline pumping in her veins. There were tears running down her face, but she didn’t know it and wouldn’t have cared. When Daphne came on the scene, it made her realize she’d never had him, he had just used her, and he wasn’t worth having anyway. She had been a total fool.

She flew up the stairs on Thirty-ninth Street to the loft, and the others were all at home when she walked in. She looked like a madwoman with her hair flying and tear-stained face.

“What happened?” Sasha asked her immediately, worried about her.

“I just told Ivan to go fuck himself.” There was a look of astonishment on her face as she told them. “I finally realized he was cheating on me with Daphne, and I finally couldn’t stand the lies and excuses anymore. He lied about everything. I’m done.” A cheer went up in the room as she said it, and they all hugged her. She knew she’d be sad that night, when she thought about it, and remembered the good times, whatever they were, but she was twenty-nine years old and couldn’t let guys like him use her anymore. She had to start over, she had to do it right next time, and she had to work with people who kept their word.

Abby had also been writing a lot lately, and had gone back to work on her novel. She had begun to realize that the experimental style she had adopted for him was stifling her own voice. She was not going to let Ivan kill her career by turning her into a puppet for his own use. All she wanted was to get back to work, follow her own path, and try to forget his. In every possible way, personally and professionally, she had wasted three years.

“How could I have been so stupid?” she said to her three best friends as she sat down on the couch and looked at them. “You tried to tell me, and I didn’t believe you. I wanted what he said to be true.”

“He’s a clever guy,” Morgan said sensibly. And the name Rasputin hadn’t been so far off the mark. “He plays on the naïve and gullible, and women who fall in love with him. It’s all smoke and mirrors, like the Wizard of Oz.”

“And I was the idiot in red shoes. What am I going to tell my parents? I threw three years of my life away.” It was all coming clear to her, and it was horrifying, but at least she finally saw the truth.

“They probably knew, and they were waiting for you to wake up. They’ll be happy you did,” Claire said gently, and put her arms around Abby and gave her a hug.

“I think Daphne walked out too. I saw her leave the theater after I did. But there will always be another Abby or Daphne, willing to believe him and become his slave.”

“Sooner or later he’ll run out of slaves. He already has. He’s a lot less convincing and appealing at forty-six than he was even at forty-three, when you found him,” Morgan added.

The four of them had dinner together that night, and talked about it. It was like having three sisters who were there for her when it counted. She was going to call her parents and tell them too, but not yet. They all drank a lot of wine that night and went to bed early. Abby didn’t know what she was going to do now. She was going home for Thanksgiving in a month, as she always did, and she was planning to do a lot of writing on her novel before that. She needed to get her own voice back, and get him out of her head.

She cried as she lay in bed that night, but she was tired and drunk and ashamed. Things could only get better after that.

Abby waited a few days before she called her mother and told her what had happened. Joan Williams wasn’t angry at her—she was relieved.

“We knew he wasn’t right, but you had to see it for yourself,” she said gently.

“I wish I hadn’t taken so long. Three years. What a waste of time,” Abby lamented.

“I’m sure you got something out of it, and it will come out in your writing,” her mother said confidently. She had faith in her daughter, her talent and fine mind. Ivan couldn’t take that from her. And much to her amazement, she found that her mother was right. With the pure rage that was spewing out of her for Ivan, her writing was stronger, clearer, and more honest than it had ever been. Her anger fueled her, and she was doing the best work she’d done in years, as she holed up in the apartment, writing day after day while the others went to work. But she wasn’t shirking. She was writing. This was what she had been meant to do all along, and she put her fury on paper. It was her way of driving Ivan out of her head and life forever. At long last. And healing would come when she had.