The Weight of Souls

12 TRAPPED INSIDE THE CIRCLE

Instead of going to school I stood on Exhibition Road, leaned against the railings that hemmed the street and looked up at the flag above the building. It snapped in the wind but I couldn’t hear it over the road noise. My eyes followed the lines of columns that bordered the windows, down the smog-stained stonework, to the worn gold name above the huge doors.

I hadn’t been to the Science Museum since I was a kid. The website had said there were five floors and I had no idea which of them Justin might have headed for.

I shaded my eyes and peered at the windows, secretly hoping for some sort of sign. But there was nothing to see but sun glinting from darkened glass.

A stream of people poured from South Ken station and knocked my elbow as I glared at the printed map scrunched in my gloved hand.

Irritation forced speed into my pulse. There were too many people here, too many ways for the dead to disguise themselves. I had to get off the street. I shoved the map into my backpack and dodged through a gap in the crowd to run up the museum steps.

Then I paused. The shadows around the great doors seemed too dark, too cold. I licked my lips and strained my ears. The street sounds continued, noisy and normal. Shaking my head I ran in, towards the well-lit security checkpoint.

Time was getting tighter. Justin had to be here.

I queued behind a school group then handed my backpack to a guard whose smile was already looking strained.

“Got any sharp objects?” He raised his eyebrows at me.

“No.”

“Any of this?” He gestured to a laminated sheet showing a range of lethal weaponry.

“No.”

“Alright then.” He briefly lifted my cardigan from the top of my pack so he could see my purse, Oyster card, keys and can of drink. Then he handed my pack back to me. “Enjoy your visit.”

I stood by the information desk in the gaping entranceway. There were too many options. I was planted like a rock in a sandstorm, my feet unsure which way to turn. Should I take the lift? Start at the Garden and work my way up to the fifth floor? Maybe I ought to head straight on, past the ticket booth for the iMax? According to the map, that route would take me through an area dedicated to space travel and into a display about energy.

Above the ticket booth there hung a huge metal hoop. It was so big it reached the third floor. An electronic display inside its rim drew my eye. The little lights danced endlessly, trapped inside the circle, seeking a way out that they would never find. It spoke to me. I headed towards the glowing ring.

Beyond the light-filled ring I caught my breath. Ahead of me a space shuttle hung in a dark-shrouded room. People walked towards me in pairs but I ignored their irritated huffs, refusing to move and forcing them to part in order to pass me. It was dark in there, full of shadow. I took a step backwards; I didn’t have to go this way. There was no guarantee that Justin was on the other side.

But then his voice came back to me: “I was going to study engineering.”

If he was here, he would be in the Engineering section and that was on the other side of the cloying darkness. I straightened my shoulders and walked into the false night-time.

To get out in record time I planned to march through the exhibit, looking neither left, nor right, but then glimmering displays caught my eye. There were whirling representations of planets and stars, and engines from real shuttles. They looked like Dalek mutations but had propelled man into the vacuum of space and brought him safely home.

Awe filled me and instead of striding straight on, I faltered and my eyes flickered from plastic astronauts to their replica equipment. Then I saw a quote on the wall.

“An unseen force pressed me to the couch as if lead had been poured over me. Breathing became more difficult. The weight bearing down on us robbed us of the ability to speak. It ate all sound, leaving only wheezes and grunts.”

I stood reading and rereading it. “It ate all sound”. In my mind there was no doubt; astronaut Vasili Lazarev had experienced the Darkness.

Panting like a long distance runner I darted from the space exhibit and burst gratefully into the light of the Energy section.

I bent over until my breathing felt more normal then I straightened. A giant silver plane was suspended just ahead of me as if flying through the giant hall. My shoulders twitched before I managed to suppress the instinct to duck. Embarrassed, I pushed my hair back over my shoulders. The hall was bright, light, silver and white. The only dark patches were on the aged metal of machines from earlier centuries.

I adjusted my bag and walked forward. Shadows were not permitted in this realm of science.

This was more like it.

The hall was crowded, but my eyes moved, constantly seeking the missing ghost. I clenched my gloved fist as he failed to materialise.

In case I’d missed him I circled the energy section twice more, growing familiar with the locomotives, cars and planes surrounding me. He wasn’t there.

On the way towards the exit, shoulders sagging, I passed Stephenson’s Rocket and hesitated. The first of its kind, it looked utterly out of place in front of the shiny engines that had superceded it.

I took a tiny step forward. My hand lifted as if to touch the huge wooden wheels, but I couldn’t reach past the stand. Rocket was to look at, not to touch.

Without Rocket there would have been no Apollo. I shook my head and willed my feet to move, but they didn’t. The metal barrel of its body led my eye to the black chimney… and Justin dropped out of the bottom.

I gasped and relief almost knocked me to the floor. I had found him. Nervously I exhaled, if he ran off again I was in deep trouble. Somehow I had to keep him calm.

I watched in anxious silence as Justin stepped backwards out of Rocket, wiping his hands as though he’d been doing maintenance on the locomotive’s innards. He didn’t turn his head to acknowledge me, but he knew I was there. He froze and put one hand on a wheel that was almost as big as he was.

“Did you know Stephenson was basically uneducated?” His voice was loud in the hall. All the suspended technology invited a church-like silence but Justin’s voice boomed.

I blinked at his words and he carried on, still refusing to look at me.

“When he was seventeen he went to night school so he could read and write. He learned all about engines in the collieries and invented a safety lamp that would burn without exploding. Then this ‘educated’ scientist accused him of nicking his idea.”

I swallowed, unable to bridge the gap between us. “I didn’t know that.”

“Then did you know that Rocket killed a man?”

I shook my head, but he talked on, as if I hadn’t moved. “William Huskisson, Member of Parliament for Liverpool. He was attending the opening of the Liverpool and Manchester Railway. He was the first ever guy under a train.” He hesitated and his fingers stroked the killer engine. “Bet you’ve seen a few of those.”

I shuffled my feet. “Not really.” He didn’t show that he’d heard me. “Are you coming out of there?”

“Rocket changed the world.” Justin still didn’t look at me. “Did you know they’re testing a network of personal driverless pods at Heathrow? They could be all over the world by the time we’re… you’re fifty.”

“Justin…”

“I was going to change the world.”

“Yeah, sure.”

Now he looked at me and I took a step back, almost tripping over the wheels of a pram. I weathered a glare from the mother and turned back to Justin.

He finally moved his hands from Rocket and spread them wide. “I know people say that, but I had ideas. We could have made them happen, Dad and me, just like Robert and his son.”

I gestured to the train he’d dropped from. “You get it then? You’re dead.”

He put his hand through the engine then pulled it free and nodded. “It’s been nearly a week and I don’t need to eat or sleep. I haven’t even been able to touch anyone since you.” His eyes met mine.

“Well, you aren’t touching me again.” I wrapped my hands around my elbows. “Tell me who killed you and you can move on.”

Justin shook his head slowly. “I don’t get this. I don’t get why you can see me when no one else can.”

A Japanese family moved towards me and I pressed my lips together. Then I gestured curtly for Justin to follow me and headed towards the lift.

We stood in silence as we rose towards the fifth floor. Justin said nothing more about engineering, Stephenson, or his Dad and every time he moved, I moved too – away from him, as though we were opposing magnets.

Finally the lift doors opened onto a white corridor with two exits. In one I could see a plastic replica of a skinned cow. I shuddered and turned the other way.

“The Science and Art of Medicine?” Justin frowned.

“I’m betting it’ll be quiet.” I paused with my hand on the door. A security guard glared at me through the glass but I was thinking about the dim lighting. I considered changing my mind and heading for the skinned cow, but apart from the guard, the room was empty; we’d be able to talk.

I opened the door and went in.

The air was cooler and drier here and the low lighting gave the impression, not of age or mustiness, but of importance. The displays were sedately lit and invited long, slow examination.

The security guard lounged on his stool by the door and barely glanced at me as I walked past.

On our left there was an Egyptian display. Perfect. Immediately I led Justin towards the mummified corpse that formed the centrepiece. We were shielded from the guard by a wall and there were no other visitors.

“I thought there’d be a picture of Anubis in here,” I frowned. “There isn’t one. That’s strange.”

“Who’s Anubis?” Justin stood next to me, so close the hairs on my arms stood up.

“Egyptian God of embalming and mummification.”

Justin eyed the mummy in the sarcophagus. “I can see why you thought there’d be something about him round here. Why, does it matter? You aren’t Egyptian are you?”

“I’m half Chinese, Hargreaves.”

“On your Mum’s side, right?”

“Right.”

He hesitated briefly. “Then… why’re you called Taylor Oh?”

“Huh?”

“Shouldn’t you be Taylor Smith, or something, whatever your Dad’s name is?”

“Not everyone takes their husband’s name,” I snapped. Then I looked at the ceiling and took a breath. “If we all keep the same name it helps us keep track.”

“Keep track?”

“Of who carries the curse.” I cracked my knuckles, hardly able to believe that I was about to speak the words. But Justin was dead; he had no one to tell. If he thought I was crazy or didn’t believe me, what would it matter? Suddenly I was desperate to talk and the words tumbled from me like sand through an hourglass.

“Anubis is meant to be the reason for all this. My ancestor was a member of an expedition of... I suppose you'd call them tomb robbers. They found Nefertiti's tomb but it wasn't empty.” I looked at the mummified Egyptian, my memory taking me back to my mother's book. Scattered lanterns illuminated the bodies.

For a moment the mummy had looked as if it were bathed in blood. I caught a skeptical twitch of Justin’s eyebrows.

“Oh-Fa was the last survivor of the slaughter. Anubis offered him life in exchange for his service. Oh-Fa agreed and now, at a certain age, unlucky members of my family start to see ghosts – murder victims. I was ten.”

“Ten.” Disbelief vibrated in Justin's voice.

I sighed and focused on the bandaged corpse. “It was your first day at school.”

“Oh, please...”

“Really. It was my birthday, remember?” I closed my eyes, allowing the memories to wash over me. “I'd been seeing this clown all day. At first I thought Dad might have hired him – you know, like a really cruddy birthday treat. But it was creepy the way he was hanging around the school. I kept seeing his balloons, but no one else noticed anything.”

Justin shook his head. “You're making this up.”

I pushed my hair from my face. “Why would I?”

He leaned close to the glass case, close enough for his breath to have fogged the glass, but no fog appeared. Then he leaned back. “So then what?”

“I started hearing the flap-slap of his giant shoes. Clown shoes, you know?”

Justin smirked.

“That sound.” I shuddered. “Pete said I could be having a migraine or something, so I called Dad and he took me home.”

“And that was the end of it?”

I snorted. “I wish. Somehow the clown followed us back. Dad couldn't drive me to the door, there was a Volvo or something double-parked at the end of the road. He dropped me off and went to find a space.” I swallowed, the recollection still filling me with a ten year-old’s terror.

“I only had to pass nine houses by myself. I could hear the rumble of the underground line and a dog barking in someone’s garden. Then I heard those damn shoes...”