Sensuous

14 April — Wednesday

A line or two before I go see Bill.

Sunday I take my first pill. Wish I didn’t have the curse now because I think I’d let him fuck me. Or do something, anyway.

Nice thing about our ridiculous relationship is that menstruation doesn’t interfere with the normal course of things.

My ad was in Screw. Embarrassed me to look at it. Felt naked, exposed to the public eye. Jennifer Starr now a matter of public record. Thought it wouldn’t be in until next week, but I guess the mails were faster than usual and that they have a late closing on the classified pages.

I don’t expect much. If I get two or three replies I’ll be happy.

I wonder what I expect to get out of all this.

That’s easy.

Fucked.